went for lunch wif ham jus now and talked abt the team, like we olways do... but hard on her these days cos i'm MIA...
saw yeling n bf at suntec too and then saw them heading to the carpark~ den *ding* both of us got some plan in mind!! we stupigly followed dem into the carpark till we reached her bf car and ask "hey yeling, u going to kallang now?" haha so silly rite.. no car ppl like us come into carpark for wat?!!
den she asked "your follwing us ah??"
"oh no lah~ we saw ur coming into the carpark mah.... ha ha..."
haha successfully got a ride to kallang! yeah!
the moment we were at sdba.. super heavy rain la!! -oh no.. is not my fault-
miss the gers so went to hang around wif them.. so happy to see them! :D it has been so damn long... esp those PA gers..
the rain lasted for almost an hour. den finally they are down on a big boat wif a tyre.. it looks so good.. a big boat filled. i want to be in there too.... my heart wants but my body cant...... -shit-
their strokes look good to me.. den they were out to the choppy waters, out of sight.
tot of reading my choice theory book while waiting for them to cum back but ber, marlau and a new fren joanne are there to entertain me.. den time passed by pretty fast..
i want to be back for trng!!! i really want~!! i dun wan to miss anymore... i said i'll definitely be back on tue. but the ber the marlau the yufen the cuimei the yunci all ban me...... -roar-
sad. :(
i dun want...... -sob-
okie tmr i'm going to buy vitamin C pills.
will make sure i'll drink at least 3 waterbottles of water.
and yes i'll sleep at 11pm.
kick my ass if u see me on msn!
i have no time.. i cant afford it.. i want to be wif phoenix for this race.
----
am not feeling small~ bcos it is still burning for those who believe.
n will not gif up on those who believe.
will nv gif up cos u are still holding on.
am touched.
goodnite phoenix.
goodnite to u,
whoever
wherever
whatever u are.
Sunday, May 29
Saturday, May 28
alrite some pics that have been stuck in my hp... till now
kallang at nite~ from cosy bay's top view
nua-ing saturday...
heard so much... big fat chuck last night... but i'm ok. they are still floating ard my head now. something which i have yet to see. something that is happening. something that is reality. so many things that i wanna think about. -daze-
so sian no mood to start on my ge project.. cant think of any movie that i can apply choice theory.
think evryone gotten their results. all i can say is bad sem. but sometimes there's the sun.. sometimes there's the rain. but dun give up cos the rainbow will come after the rain~
we are all learning to cope... some may have learnt it long ago cos they fell before. some may only face it now cos life have been smooth. some never learn.. i'm abit of the 3rd catergory.
oh watever.
on a lighter note~ on thursday jasmine lao shi made a wish when she saw the rainbow!! and that wish came true like 5 mins later!! hahahaha so cool rite.. den i immediately made a wish too~ haa jas wished that her running shoes will appear and ah hee found it in the store~ haa but we accused jas of hiding her shoes cos she dun wan to run~ haiz lao shi try harder next time ya. i mean in hiding the shoes!! haha
so u know wat to do when u see a rainbow next time.. can i see it again?? before june race?
pls pls~
weather is real bad. if u r sick. olways blame it on the weather!! haha i didnt initially.. but its really taking damn long for me to recover. why??!!
am taking the 'she' dan chuan pei thingy now frm jiaqi.. den daddy tell me to try dunno wat 'hou' zao. haha snake and monkey combined can save me not?!! hahaha
talking nonsense.. but i'll try! i'm desperate!!
wouldnt it be nice if the world is cadbury~ i want to be chocolate too!! like ben n hammy's hahaha
okie soon!! i'll b back~ permanent!
gym on tue... who shld i jio this time??
so sian no mood to start on my ge project.. cant think of any movie that i can apply choice theory.
think evryone gotten their results. all i can say is bad sem. but sometimes there's the sun.. sometimes there's the rain. but dun give up cos the rainbow will come after the rain~
we are all learning to cope... some may have learnt it long ago cos they fell before. some may only face it now cos life have been smooth. some never learn.. i'm abit of the 3rd catergory.
oh watever.
on a lighter note~ on thursday jasmine lao shi made a wish when she saw the rainbow!! and that wish came true like 5 mins later!! hahahaha so cool rite.. den i immediately made a wish too~ haa jas wished that her running shoes will appear and ah hee found it in the store~ haa but we accused jas of hiding her shoes cos she dun wan to run~ haiz lao shi try harder next time ya. i mean in hiding the shoes!! haha
so u know wat to do when u see a rainbow next time.. can i see it again?? before june race?
pls pls~
weather is real bad. if u r sick. olways blame it on the weather!! haha i didnt initially.. but its really taking damn long for me to recover. why??!!
am taking the 'she' dan chuan pei thingy now frm jiaqi.. den daddy tell me to try dunno wat 'hou' zao. haha snake and monkey combined can save me not?!! hahaha
talking nonsense.. but i'll try! i'm desperate!!
wouldnt it be nice if the world is cadbury~ i want to be chocolate too!! like ben n hammy's hahaha
okie soon!! i'll b back~ permanent!
gym on tue... who shld i jio this time??
Thursday, May 26
not a good rowing day...
got so many things in mind...
my GE project, gotta do a movie analysis using choice theory.. due next wed!
tot of using coach carter but cant get the vcd~ hMmm
gotta start planning for gifts to those graduates!! 1 month left...
gotta read that choice theory book... jun8 is the examz
am damn weak... gotta really trng hard!! hope my body will zheng qi yi dian~!!
left side left side hOwHOW!?
race is drawing near... 1 month left
can u feel it?
is there anything u want to do abt it?
dun wan to lose to them
esp them!!
weirdos running ard kallang~
am nothing by myself...
when is the ONEheart going to come?
my GE project, gotta do a movie analysis using choice theory.. due next wed!
tot of using coach carter but cant get the vcd~ hMmm
gotta start planning for gifts to those graduates!! 1 month left...
gotta read that choice theory book... jun8 is the examz
am damn weak... gotta really trng hard!! hope my body will zheng qi yi dian~!!
left side left side hOwHOW!?
race is drawing near... 1 month left
can u feel it?
is there anything u want to do abt it?
dun wan to lose to them
esp them!!
weirdos running ard kallang~
am nothing by myself...
when is the ONEheart going to come?
Wednesday, May 25
lalallaa happy!
so happy last nite that i cant slp~
its all good now!!
aLL gOOd~
love the stinkies
hugs and kisses!!
Sunday, May 22
wakey WAKEY!!
many things are not within my control, i haf no say...
thus spending time pondering... thinking.... whining....
will bring me nowhere.
i felt sad
was down
unable to understand
waiting for a change of heart
but how long can i trap myself in this?
looking at wat is leaving and missing out of wat is still existing.
a mistake.
we were all affected
but someone gotta put a stop to this!!
we cant sink further!!
time nv waits for u or me...
so lets be whiny, fallen, dishearten, shaken PRETTY DOLLIES NO MORE!!
i say NO MORE!!
this is not phoenix...
we've forgotten the spirit that is burning inside us!
we've forgotten the way we fought for MR
we've forgotten that our mission is not complete!
we've forgotten that june race is the REAL big one ahead of us
wat's burning hasn't extinguished...
we only forgot to listen to it.
we are clouded by too many things
i noe each and evryone of us got committment
responsiblities somewhere.
but this is a team.
we are in this together
it has never been 'rowing for myself... victory of myself'
we all play a part.
we take pride in trng
we make up for wat's missed
gear each other on
and not drag the others down
so lets get the positive energy going!!
self-motivate
and den motivate the rest!
time to pick up the pieces
gather myself back.
of evrything, the more i gotta be strong
hAM u tOO!!
u've got me
and i've got you.
remember?
MR is sweet... and lets make the coming one sweeter.
believe we can.
show that we want.
the rest will fall into place nicely.
our faith and spirit will bring us there...
make it happen!
with evryone in it.
i'll b back.
thus spending time pondering... thinking.... whining....
will bring me nowhere.
i felt sad
was down
unable to understand
waiting for a change of heart
but how long can i trap myself in this?
looking at wat is leaving and missing out of wat is still existing.
a mistake.
we were all affected
but someone gotta put a stop to this!!
we cant sink further!!
time nv waits for u or me...
so lets be whiny, fallen, dishearten, shaken PRETTY DOLLIES NO MORE!!
i say NO MORE!!
this is not phoenix...
we've forgotten the spirit that is burning inside us!
we've forgotten the way we fought for MR
we've forgotten that our mission is not complete!
we've forgotten that june race is the REAL big one ahead of us
wat's burning hasn't extinguished...
we only forgot to listen to it.
we are clouded by too many things
i noe each and evryone of us got committment
responsiblities somewhere.
but this is a team.
we are in this together
it has never been 'rowing for myself... victory of myself'
we all play a part.
we take pride in trng
we make up for wat's missed
gear each other on
and not drag the others down
so lets get the positive energy going!!
self-motivate
and den motivate the rest!
time to pick up the pieces
gather myself back.
of evrything, the more i gotta be strong
hAM u tOO!!
u've got me
and i've got you.
remember?
MR is sweet... and lets make the coming one sweeter.
believe we can.
show that we want.
the rest will fall into place nicely.
our faith and spirit will bring us there...
make it happen!
with evryone in it.
i'll b back.
why do we olways do this?
it becos we r a team. am nothing by myself. together we haf a vision.
did u see it clear?
-PHOENIX SA!-
Wednesday, May 18
I'M NOT OKAY!!!
i'm sick all over again!! how could this happen to me~~ *sob*
fever hit an all time high! 39.5 degrees, think there's fused wire inside my head liao..
this is the 5th doc i've seen in the month of may~ definitely not a good month of me! -hmpf-
doc says i haven fully recover den din rest enuff so it came back....
haiz how i know it will turn out so bad.. =(
doc told me to rest for 2 FAT weeks la!
alrite and that's 7 trng sessions~
restResTREST!!! i know... i dun wan to die too... haa
gotta look at it long term rite... i hate to be sick...
oh this doc is really good, he gave me a discount! haha
cough syrup still taste as good...
haiz... i'll be back~
peace.
fever hit an all time high! 39.5 degrees, think there's fused wire inside my head liao..
this is the 5th doc i've seen in the month of may~ definitely not a good month of me! -hmpf-
doc says i haven fully recover den din rest enuff so it came back....
haiz how i know it will turn out so bad.. =(
doc told me to rest for 2 FAT weeks la!
alrite and that's 7 trng sessions~
restResTREST!!! i know... i dun wan to die too... haa
gotta look at it long term rite... i hate to be sick...
oh this doc is really good, he gave me a discount! haha
cough syrup still taste as good...
haiz... i'll be back~
peace.
Tuesday, May 17
messy
thinking too much
is tiring
put too much assumptions
and thoughts
into ppl's words
assume~
ASS-U-ME
making an ass out of u n me
we are thinking out of our v own percieved world
if i say the word ' god '
wat comes to mind?
u may think of jesus
i may think goddess of mercy
she may think of dua peh gong
blah~
who is right to judge?
who is olways perfect?
we ain't no saint
we cant take our own expectation ruler
and measure others
simply cos we are all different
we are all complex creatures
and ppl change...
but ppl condemn ppl
wat irony
life is full of lessons
is a matter of u know wat to learn or not
can u raise above and take a look at urself
judgementally
the way u judge others
if u r honest enuff
u will see the imperfectionSSs
most of the time we think in the most logical way
v pragmatic
and this usually does not go hand in hand wif our emotional state
den again emotion is too hard to decipher
who knows wat is neglected?
u might weigh a 100 tonnes in my heart
u might nv know
we are not mirrors
proportionality not applicable
N.A.
so how?
i dunno me
i cant sort it all out
is too tough for my level of intelligence
den again this may be the results of thinking too much!
watever that are up in my head are all
PERCEIVED
mayb is just simple things
and i complicated it
watever.
things will loosen up and untangle by itself
i can take it
watever it is.
as i walk on i realised
happiness is the most impt
a bar of choc can make me so happy when i'm 7
now wat?
i learn to enjoy evry min of my good times
when it comes
is good to be easily happy
but wat happen if u r down?
is okie, i say
this is life
this makes u cherish the good more.
dont take it for granted.
headache now
off to bed.
is tiring
put too much assumptions
and thoughts
into ppl's words
assume~
ASS-U-ME
making an ass out of u n me
we are thinking out of our v own percieved world
if i say the word ' god '
wat comes to mind?
u may think of jesus
i may think goddess of mercy
she may think of dua peh gong
blah~
who is right to judge?
who is olways perfect?
we ain't no saint
we cant take our own expectation ruler
and measure others
simply cos we are all different
we are all complex creatures
and ppl change...
but ppl condemn ppl
wat irony
life is full of lessons
is a matter of u know wat to learn or not
can u raise above and take a look at urself
judgementally
the way u judge others
if u r honest enuff
u will see the imperfectionSSs
most of the time we think in the most logical way
v pragmatic
and this usually does not go hand in hand wif our emotional state
den again emotion is too hard to decipher
who knows wat is neglected?
u might weigh a 100 tonnes in my heart
u might nv know
we are not mirrors
proportionality not applicable
N.A.
so how?
i dunno me
i cant sort it all out
is too tough for my level of intelligence
den again this may be the results of thinking too much!
watever that are up in my head are all
PERCEIVED
mayb is just simple things
and i complicated it
watever.
things will loosen up and untangle by itself
i can take it
watever it is.
as i walk on i realised
happiness is the most impt
a bar of choc can make me so happy when i'm 7
now wat?
i learn to enjoy evry min of my good times
when it comes
is good to be easily happy
but wat happen if u r down?
is okie, i say
this is life
this makes u cherish the good more.
dont take it for granted.
headache now
off to bed.
Monday, May 16
gonE!
those little dots on my fingers are all gone!
and the most impt thing is I DIAGNOSE IT MYSELF!!
went to 2 docs and they said is nothing serious, most prob is something that i've come into contact wif!!
and so i thinkThINkthink~ IS THE DAMN SHAMPOO!!! ahaha
stopped using that new organics shampoo for a week and i'm cured! haha
-am i smart or wat!- wahaha
eh but my cough is back to haunt me...... is really terrible at nite... almost puked last nite..
howHOw??!!
i promised i'll be good and stop the chicken, egg and cake!!
Friday, May 13
Thursday, May 12
feel good Inc.
wHEEee~ back to trng and it feels aLL so good! so long never see the few of dem~ like the ham the angsuat the fel the shit the orc oh the adi the ben the ting the jas the mindy the mr hee! and i'll see more of them this sat!!
forgot my flu med this morn but is still okie jus that i'm sniffing away.. and luckily mr hee din ask us to row more than 1 min! -sorry ham, keep hitting u today-
looking at my fingers now.. seems like the little dots are not so obvious already! haha kallang dirty water got healing power! ahha nonsense.. shall see how it gets tmr~
and i really want to thank the geRSs for aLL their care n concern! haha sound so cliche bUT i mean it! really thanks alot! =)
like this morn yufen even sms me saying is raining heavily.. if cannot make it den dont go down, dont catch a cold! haha even my mum oso nv say this to me!
yah i'll take care of myself~ is really not good to be sick... feels so weak n terrible la!
and u! take care of urself too okie...
forgot my flu med this morn but is still okie jus that i'm sniffing away.. and luckily mr hee din ask us to row more than 1 min! -sorry ham, keep hitting u today-
looking at my fingers now.. seems like the little dots are not so obvious already! haha kallang dirty water got healing power! ahha nonsense.. shall see how it gets tmr~
and i really want to thank the geRSs for aLL their care n concern! haha sound so cliche bUT i mean it! really thanks alot! =)
like this morn yufen even sms me saying is raining heavily.. if cannot make it den dont go down, dont catch a cold! haha even my mum oso nv say this to me!
yah i'll take care of myself~ is really not good to be sick... feels so weak n terrible la!
and u! take care of urself too okie...
Wednesday, May 11
my fault???!!!!!!!!!!!
hey heLLO can u get this rite???!!!!
if she's the one having the problem den u NAG at her!! not to me OK~
wat's the point of venting all those on me when i'm sitting at home and she got her ass stuck outside!
and stop comparing me and her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RRRRRRRRRaaaRRr
like hello i'm like how much older la!! wtf.
if u bu shuang her attitude den tell her straight in the face lah. i've already grown out of that, YOU should direct all ur arrows at her lah!!! she's the one that need to understand.. need to learn!
ridiculous~
alrite life is sad enuff... and stop reminding me.
please.
gimme 10 sec silence.
i dun wan to say anything out of anger that hurts...
if she's the one having the problem den u NAG at her!! not to me OK~
wat's the point of venting all those on me when i'm sitting at home and she got her ass stuck outside!
and stop comparing me and her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RRRRRRRRRaaaRRr
like hello i'm like how much older la!! wtf.
if u bu shuang her attitude den tell her straight in the face lah. i've already grown out of that, YOU should direct all ur arrows at her lah!!! she's the one that need to understand.. need to learn!
ridiculous~
alrite life is sad enuff... and stop reminding me.
please.
gimme 10 sec silence.
i dun wan to say anything out of anger that hurts...
Sunday, May 8
how sianz la~!
wtf i got more little dots on my fingers n palms now~ eeEEee its abit scary.. but the doc says its nothing! not hand foot mouth disease, not watever disease, not antibiotic allergy, she says doesnt look like anything~
okie lor fine~ i think she's more like rushing off for lunch lor... she better be right! if the nothing turns into something else....... she's gg to answer for it!
gotta thank sis for accompanying me to see doc =)
and thanks her again for deserting her bedroom(n seek refuge at my bro's room), leaving it all to me n my virus~
been sick for like 6 days, not very much better. coughing like mad. once i start i can't stop! can't talk too much. staying in aircon will kill me. i can only seek solace in sucking lozenges, Tussils 5.
alrite, Tussils 5...
a light orange, circular hard lozenge.
to control non-productive cough.
adverse effects: occasionally dizziness, excitation and mental confusion(hohoho)
dun worry, i'm still sane if i can type all these.
can't make it to meet siok today. am supposed to meet her rite after my last paper. sorry ger =\
can't make it to meet sally last nite. actually really feel like meeting her cos i missed her bday partII, but last nite i was coughing non-stop n i'm tired. SORRY babe~
RrraaRrrr~ hate it when i say can den in the end i can't!
haiz alrite, next time don't agree to anything easily~ haa (better think twice n thrice)
haiz that day i accidentally deleted all my smses in my phone... i jus want to delete those in the sent folder but dunno wat am i thinking. i deleted all......... hmpf
lots of sweet, funny, cute, encouraging, motivating smses which i've kept for so long are all gone...=\
okie, a good reason to start afresh anyway!
today is MOTHER'S DAY!!! -mu qing jie kuai le, mummy =D-
eRrr this year din get a present for mum, but i PROMISED to get her something when i'm fit enuff to go shopping! bought mummy a cake just now at jur point. and the bus ride back nearly killed me. the air is v cold and i can't take it. i was such a coughing irritant! and luckily Tussils 5 saves the day again =)
am feeling so weak. feels like i've dropped right down to the valley. hope i can pick myself up soon~
alrite time for med.
my white blood cells: "Reinforcement has arrived!! GO GO GO, get moving!! those bastard virus are hijacking more innocent cells now!"
hahaa...
Thursday, May 5
the fifth of may
all alone at home for the whole day~
resting my body...
listening to perfect 10 playing lots of great tracks today...
cool weather~ i love the rain (when i'm home)
my nose is still blocked... but fever no more!
and i start to love my lozenges~ hee
well almost had dao huey for supper... thanks alot to ber =)
but missed the mambo... missed the row...
alrite freak~ get well soon!
and ham too~
Tuesday, May 3
lucky or wat?!
feverish... sore-est throat ever... sneezing n sniffing away... pounding headache...
all these on my last paper~ very good lor... well done!
guess that tray of ferrero rocher is taking revenge!!
bOo...
all these on my last paper~ very good lor... well done!
guess that tray of ferrero rocher is taking revenge!!
bOo...
