how to deal?

ytd left the house wif yi du zi huo..
was so fed up!!
pls dont try to suggest alternatives when u know nuts abt the situation
pls stop questioning me!! u and i haf different view on this~ we can nv agree..
pls stop trying to control me!! u dont noe my priority, u dont noe how much this means to me.
pls stop thinking that i'm olways out to play n haf fun n waste $$!! i DO haf SERIOUS things to do..

i dont want to talk anymore. i dont want to explain anymore. i dont want to argue anymore.
just stay clear and dont do anything or i'll burst.

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seeing the gers definitely lightened the mood by alot~!
eh dont worry, i wont vent my anger on the cute innocents.. =)

hearing dem telling me abt the trngs and the ppl and things ppl say..
haiz is a big yi han
but no matter wat I'M WITH PHOENIX!!
heart and soul...
on boat or not
I'M THERE alrite!!

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be brave and lets leave these minor stuff aside.
you may think something is standing in your way, but nothing is really there.
i believe you will be better.
Let the fight begin.
-ben

thankz for believing in me.
thankz for giving me strength.

*hugs* get everything back ok?
-angie

tears start streaming down..
i dunno y..
i dunno wats the feeling..
cant describe it..

phoenix haf given me so much...
i'm thankful

see u gers tmr~

(-_-)(._.)'

why am i olways caught in this??!!
i WANT



yet i can't



there's olways something holding me back...



can just happily bang the wall
and die~

not a tear gland active person

but was down to tears when i received a few smses

they are jus sms frm teammates

telling me to get well soon...

dunno y but felt really touched..

cos nv expect dem to show concern

and it felt so good when u noe that they actually care!!

and u actually stand somewhere in their hearts..

okie i'm easily touched mayb...

no matter wat

i'm with phoenix!!

s o r r y...

i'm such a disappointment
i'm really sorry
i wont want to let the team down
esp at this time

i'm sick of telling ppl i'm sick~

anyway only got myself to blame.
so shut it.

one thing to note is that winsten let me feel really positive for a moment.
usually ppl will get worried when u tell dem that u are down wif fever but guess wat winsten said!!
"ni ming tian jiu hao liao lah, wo xiang xing ni!"
for a moment i felt woW~ thats hope!! i'll be good tmr!!
it really let me feel more positive.. cos he made it seems like its no big deal~
yea gotta haf happy n positive thoughts!!
ben u too alrite!!
your ankle will show great improvement by tuesday~
=)

mr sunny, pls stop biting my teammates while they are at kallang...
can we like haf more cumulonimbus... stratocumulus... altocumulus??!!
okie i jus mean clouds.

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got my race package~ haa thankz
shall share the reward pack after race ya.

oh man its really freaking hot la..
alrite gg to snip it off...
now!


i'm okay.i'm okay.i'm okay.i'm okay.i'm okay. i'm okay laH!

in a nut shell~

--sunday--
freaking hot
rowing was bad
strokes kns
bruises
abrasions
blisters
are nothing new!!
bathing is a PAIN!!
wth.

--chalet--
very nice
super comfy
damn clean
food's good
love those chicken wings
oops~
cousins are quite fun
they've grown~~ oh my!
chalet wif many mums is good!
they do evrything
we jus play
n eat n sleep!
hoho
all worth it!
all had fun~

--tuesday--
trng's great
got the feel
love it
abrasion again
on my butt this time
shit la
will not wear that shorts again!
but theres still rooom for improvement
thats not to zam zhui!!

alrite super tired
duper sleepy
tmr's gg to see them draw for lanes!!
Oooo wish us good luck!

goodnite

oh and huimin is such a sweetie~
thankx alot... =)

okie goodnite~
bye *a fat white sheep waving*
haha

more than 24hrs!

had a great time wif ade n ben n huimin~

hanging out n just chill and chat...

den plus good food like chongpang nasi lemak!! banana prata!! soya bean!! pancakes!!

wHeeee~ =)

but i'm dead tired...

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sorry to let ur feel that way.. its never never my intention to purposely hide anything from u.. i jus feel weird talking abt it.. its just not me~

hope u can understand.. i wont wan to see u sad.. and nv wanted to be the cause of it.

am sorry.

am so busy these days... not that i haf alot of things to do
i've got many thoughts in my mind.
sometimes u see it but there's only so much u can do.
but anything is better than nothing.

it has been quite sometime since i have time wif her.
jus me n her.
all alone..
do the things i like.
relax and chill and clear my mind.
and that her is me.

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TRUSTis wat i have for evryone
dun gimme a chance to doubt the worth of that trust
cos its hard to gain back
if its ever lost.

RESPECTis exclusive
you gotta prove it
and earn it.
it dun come in a package.

FAITHcomes if u believe
if u believe u can,
U CAN!
u never know the strength of ur mind
until u put it to challange.
challange urself.

LOVEkeeps evryone warm
u never walk alone.
and u make sure nobody else walk alone too.
spread the love.

STRENGTHis strongest when we all come together
to dream together
to work together
den enjoy together.

today u may only b able to execute it perfectly for 3mins
but forget the feel of it
because the next day u are going to tell urself
u can do it for 3.5mins.
evry effort counts
its nv wasted..
get the feel
go for it!

goodnite.

take care!!!!

never a smooth ride~

gers please take care of yourself!!
pls pls ..

injuried ppl pls try to rest ur arm/ankle/elbow/legs more
dont over strain it... pls

not feeling well ppl pls rest more! slp more! drink more!!!
take vitamin C DAILY okie!!
it cured me~!!!

those physically tired ppl.. shall see wat we can do to help ya..
in the meantime REST when u got the chance!! haa

those metally tired ppl.. u are not alone! we are in this together!!
u've got many ppl to share it with u... lets pull each other along~
i believe we all haf a stong mental.
is only a matter of u wan or not.

Lastly, take care COS i care!!
we all care la~

and congrats to Singapore's victory at Penang!! *applause*

some days u just feel like an asS...

rowing's kns...

but the lunch wif all of them at marina is gOOod! lets have more of that ya!

the andersons definitely perks me up!
thanks for letting me haf a scoop while all of them bought 2 fat scoops LaH!!
haha but still i'm happy already =)

ben promised me prata!!
been craving for that...

haf tonnes of cravings la... like chicken rice.. curry chicken.. fish n chips.. prata.. chocolates!.. rojak..

wth i'm hungry at this time again!

alrite trng tmr~ hope it will b better!
gotta reach sdba at 8.3oam!!

den is ah sum's bday chalet which i cant make it
cos is June's 21st tOoo..

have fun evryone!! whereva u are going...

andersonz!! OOoo satisfied! love my hazelnut chip!

this is the 3RD take... like finally la.. haa

huimin yunci plus xtra cuimei~ hahaa

have a gulp of not- so-icey mountain tap water...hee

love this~ dawn is a good photographer! nice horizon..
eRm but wat is the black thing beside me??! oh~ is hAM! hahaha

hoho zee made me do this!! so girly lah~

i think this is really nice!! angie+zee+xx

i miss them..... really long time no see~

haha silly act again~

pretty~* sally grace

ge examz tmr~~

OOoo was really busy these days...
like there are endless things to do!

alrite after my ge.. i'm turning FULL TIME!
full time watever u want~ haha
yeah xw.. full time girlfriend! tell me wat u been wanting to tell me ya~
vice-versa la hor..

so tired
so sleepy
am i getting old?!

rollar coaster ride~~

things made me real happy..

next moment some news just make me sink...

that's the way it is anyway..

never like rollar coaster.

make me sick.

freaky funny world...

complicated.

when u feel u are engulfed in darkness
all u can see is ur shadow
u tried to walk ahead and it is still forever dark..
turn around...
the light is jus right behind u..
the light behind caused the shadow that u cant shake off.
walk towards the light and throw that darkness behind u...
there's olways hands willing to pull u along.
u choose the way...

smile again okie. =)

goodnite freaky funny world.