Hello~ this blog is still not forgotten!

WOW! we are reaching the end of 2010! the last time i blogged was 31 May.

Crazy fast, this year... anyway every year just feels faster and faster!

how come I'm still the same old me? I was thinking about the achievement I had this year... then I thought there seems to be nothing worth mentioning.

I dream of huge radical changes! but that's just a dream if there's no actions to follow on..

ONE BIG answer i must have is....

WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

There's no point thinking about what I DON'T want because there's just going no way as well.

Been in engineering and I feel this is not me.

It has been a mistake since.....eh... uni? jc?

but it's okay, at that point of time of my late teens, that's the best decision I could make!

Can I get pass everyday like that? Going to work, hopes the day end soon and get home and feeling what am I doing or what have i accomplished and go to bed.

kinda sad, and that's definitely NOT what i wanted with my life!

人生短短几十年。。。what am I going to leave behind and what will I be able to create?

I'm still searching for the answer.

But I believe.... that I will feel passion in life again.

mum has a different idea, in her opinion, everything is good, be happy that there's a job and there are ppl around me who are willing to lend a helping hand when I'm in need.. I should be contented with my life.

Seriously, I understand how she has this mentality... and I agree that it's not a bad life.

But something is missing!

parents are looking at your life with thru their life experiences of what they lack while they were younger...

BUT this is my life. My life is not to fulfill your ideal..

of cos, I do take my parents' words for serious consideration~ I'm still quite a good daughter okay..

okay, I shall continue to seek! and I will find it, god will help me find it.

for now, i shall go to bed and reeessst and get well for the Bully Gang Count down party!!

I got 2 days of MC for my bad throat... :S

FAREWELL 2010.

一寸光阴，一寸金，
寸金难买寸光阴。

we all learnt this in pri sch chinese class right? i forgot the rest of the verse!
Point is, once time is gone, it's gone.

烦！

不知为何而烦。。。

但就是打不起敬。。

是呼醉生梦死。

没有推动力， 不会为任何事而感到兴奋。。

眼前没有了目标，不知要往哪儿看！

jiaqi says this is burnt out.

i think getting the music back to my life can do a little help!

okie, it's monday... fug.

grow up/

it just popped into my head yesterday and it seriously got thinking deep..

That's to spend the next phase of life with somebody else.. to include this man into every decision and thought you're going have.

to build a family with someone you love.. what does it have to take?

firstly there's must be love, of cos.

Next, the added responsibility to be somebody's Mrs. not forgeting the connection of both the extended families. Being the daughter-in-law, grandaughter-in-law.

Finanical committment to fund the assets to be owned together. currently i'm not invloved in the things in the household, mum and dad did everything.

personal living habits. this is gonna be a huge challenge to me. I'm a SleepyHEAD! I have problems waking up everyday... goodness :/ I cant expect him to wake me up every morning right... even god will get pissed, i tell you.
Not forgetting the being last min attitude.. rushing here to there and be on the dot, phew~. it actually has improved a little since younger days but there's still rooms for improvement.

He's sweet, he says he'll still propose to me despite all these. :)

But that's not what I imagine me to be after marriage.

How can you ever be ready?

Yes, Love is like the wonderful thing that can resolve many issues after you understand it but daily problems still need practicial solutions

I can think of kiddy fuiki has to take a step back... Grow up!

Bottom line is I can't be non chalant about many things anymore.

shall leave the thought of being a parent till much later....

新年快乐！！！！！！！

虎年行大运！！ HUAT AH!

hmmm actually dont need to huat lah... just wanna be HAPPY!
HAve a fulfuilling year ahead with everyone dear to me being happy and healthy!

I start to experience the common qn of CNY... When you getting married?

ERms. not hurry man! seriously... Just graduated in year 2008.. haven even enjoy life yet!
Shall have more fun... see the world before stepping into the next phase of life and take on an additional responsibility...

Now.. still got some time to bum around and chill and relax and have fun!

anyways tmr is back to work!!!! 初四开工！！

of cos feeling sians lah!!! total 6 days off work already!!! haha ok lah its time to get back into action!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

don't be a waste of time

grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change...

and the courage to change the things I can..

and the wisdom to tell the difference.


was browsing in the bookstore and happen to see this. quoted by a pastor which I couldn't remember.

everyday is such a madrush now... the things that are piling up are never ending..
sometimes dont even have the time to eat lunch with a relax mood..
sometimes avoiding lunch at canteen to "save" time by working and eating..

now 12hrs seems like a norm :(

all these actions are driven by love or fear?

rushing through the day and forget about kindness that can be rendered to the ppl around..
gone is the human kindness bcos there's "no time"

gone is the ability to listen bcos mind is occupied by what am I gg to do next... does what this person is talking relevant/benefiting to me..

gone is the energy to enjoy some personal time on the weekdays.. get home eat dinner bathe koonz.

searching for a meaning.