WOW! we are reaching the end of 2010! the last time i blogged was 31 May.
Crazy fast, this year... anyway every year just feels faster and faster!
how come I'm still the same old me? I was thinking about the achievement I had this year... then I thought there seems to be nothing worth mentioning.
I dream of huge radical changes! but that's just a dream if there's no actions to follow on..
ONE BIG answer i must have is....
WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?
There's no point thinking about what I DON'T want because there's just going no way as well.
Been in engineering and I feel this is not me.
It has been a mistake since.....eh... uni? jc?
but it's okay, at that point of time of my late teens, that's the best decision I could make!
Can I get pass everyday like that? Going to work, hopes the day end soon and get home and feeling what am I doing or what have i accomplished and go to bed.
kinda sad, and that's definitely NOT what i wanted with my life!
人生短短几十年。。。what am I going to leave behind and what will I be able to create?
I'm still searching for the answer.
But I believe.... that I will feel passion in life again.
mum has a different idea, in her opinion, everything is good, be happy that there's a job and there are ppl around me who are willing to lend a helping hand when I'm in need.. I should be contented with my life.
Seriously, I understand how she has this mentality... and I agree that it's not a bad life.
But something is missing!
parents are looking at your life with thru their life experiences of what they lack while they were younger...
BUT this is my life. My life is not to fulfill your ideal..
of cos, I do take my parents' words for serious consideration~ I'm still quite a good daughter okay..
okay, I shall continue to seek! and I will find it, god will help me find it.
for now, i shall go to bed and reeessst and get well for the Bully Gang Count down party!!
I got 2 days of MC for my bad throat... :S
FAREWELL 2010.
一寸光阴，一寸金，
寸金难买寸光阴。
we all learnt this in pri sch chinese class right? i forgot the rest of the verse!
Point is, once time is gone, it's gone.
