Quote from a principle

Do not let a number define who you are.

Good Morning, Gonna Rain.

the sky looks like its going to release a curtain of rain. I thank god I'm in the bus already.

I carried this thought to sleep last night. somewhere between a realization and a reflection that I drifted to sleep.

met someone and he asked me, hey you worked in oil n g as coy can you tell me what's the implication of exploring shale gas?

erm, a very superficial reply. I only know that it's natural gas. my pl ant is still using crude as feed.

he went on to talk about geo politics.. reliance on middle e ast countries for energy sources...

everyday I click into my coy intra net I can see news like this but I didn't bother to spend the time to read it. working days are always zooming pass me, I'm lucky if I can leave work on time. That makes me so micro and how I fail to look at the big picture of things!

要放眼看世界！

this Friday I'm meeting my batch who entered the coy together. the last time we took leave from work and hang out for a day of KTV and steam boat! boy oh boy.. that was 3 years ago...

tell me about time.. if you can hear it, it's ticking every second away.

one after another

one busy weekend racing down boat quay is done! came
home with nothing this time round..

up next is the cousin's wedding.. yet another busy week.

thinking of which, busy is like the new normal.

So let's just say it's another normal week for me!!!

Sore throat and feverish

as this year is only left with 2 months! I'm trying to take stock of the year.. maybe later I'll try to recall from Jan onwards.

generally feeling failing on all fronts as my time management is killing me. social, familIES, work, cca, interest, myself. fwah... everyone got something to complain about me..

How ah?

totally give up on something and focus in the rest?

Give up on me time?

I'll reflect and sleep on it as a parting gift to 2012.

Being Realistic

without skill who would need you?
without going through the hard work how to enquire the skill?
without failure how to gain the experience to raise above the rest?

without a skill, you are not valuable.

the lesson to learn

I finally realized what is the lesson to learn here...

When the going gets tough, learn to be more focus and efficient in my thinking.

Finally completed the assignment!

the abstract and the realistic! movin' on! movin' on!

Onto the computer to get some photos edited!

4 books this year!

set the target to read 4 this year, so far so good! last quarter of the year and I have 1 more to meet my goal!

I personally like The Firm best!

What's the next book?

The Gen Y passion problem...

Read an article that describe how the gen y are misguided by the phrase "follow your passion".

This phrase became popular when we were in school. Follow your passion actually means first identify it then go with it.

In actual fact when they find out how people succeed, it include early years of hard work before the love developed. Love it the first day when you do it? Hardly.

There isn't any phrase to describe the real process. Maybe what the author suggested....

Skills first, love later.

33 is the happiest age.

I read that at 33, you would have shed the remaining naivety and accept the life of adulthood, also at this age, you will be sort of having a comfortable earnings to enjoy things that you like.

As I'm approaching the big 3, in few years time. I do think I dropping the smile from my face more often. Less easily tickled with stupid jokes. wanting more me-time and less play.

When doing the same job, i will just tell myself, just do it lah. Get it over and done with. I do that most of the time but it's getting easier.

Ha... I think this is growing up.

Ps: I use less of !! in my writing. I'm getting more calm and less excited...

expert?

Don't call me an expert just because you want me to do something for you.
Praising people to make them feel good and hence do the job for you? Calling me an expert just make me think you are so superficial. *roll eyes*

Half dead. think the period is coming, wish it come soon! Don't want to be stuck in this foul mood and the half tank energy level...

An old song came back to sooth the mood and pleasure the hair cells.
Don't feel like doing anything!!

Here's the song lyrics, which till today then I really take a look at it. Such a sad song...

Blessid Union of Souls - Light In Your Eyes

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Exploring

Creativity is seeing what everyone is seeing but thinking what no one else is thinking.
- Tham Khai Meng

MY X'MAS Present!!

Darling gave me a xmas present last Sat, fresh from DHL!

that's the kindle!

I LOVE IT! :D

He helped me stored all the books he has, especially the Best Books of 2011!
i'm currently reading Step hen Ki ng, 11 22 63. Pretty interesting so far.. I thought the idea of time travel was clinche but i'm still reading on to see if it surprise me!

New toy makes me want to read and I hope I can complete 4 books this year!
baby steps cos I typically have no patience to complete a book.... unless it is HARRRRY!

okie, goodnight people.
I'm in deep shit.. i get more awake the later it is and i'm totally zombified in the morning...
boo..

Jan already lah!

today attended a wedding luncheon, sat with the same people and then he made a comment

we see all of your grow up in the company...

from graduation to getting married, i added

and maybe even being mother!

*gasped*

and maybe even being a grandmother!

Ooooo...

am I really staying in the company for so long? fwah! till retire leh...
but I am touched when he mention that, because it goes to show he want the people to stay in the company for long term.

zoomed. the end of 2011.

fwah.. it's the end of 2011 already~ what have i told myself to achieve in 2011?!

To figure out what i want to do with my life..
sadly, no answer yet!

but i did expose myself to whatever i want to!

did golf... and it is too expensive a sport to play.. don't really have interest in it as well. hmm
learning singing! enjoying it and there's more to learn about it! looking forward to my graduation in Sept 2012!
Makeup: sort of learnt it myself from the net and workshops. stocked up so much more powders and cream this year!

But still.... there is no direction i saw this year.

but today, i'm inpsired by home grown entrepreneurs that made it abroad! I'm amazed! they are mostly young indivduals that developed own brands and went international. I'm especially in awe by the women who made it big!

For 2012, one thing that i've decided is, I'm going back to school. To learn something different and new. What? I'm not sure yet...

okay! off to xmas partyyyyy.

happy christmas everyone. :D

What's the value proposition?

lack the courage?

I kept thinking it's the courage that's required to make a change... to dare to go for something you believe in.

like you are in a tunnel, but you are at a safe place with some light. But this place is not where you want to stay. What will make you take the step and leave the light and move towards the darkness, the unknown?

Logically, I think I wouldnt step into the unknown and leave the light when I dont even know what's out there. Hence, having courage is not enough... so what if you have the courage to go there to look for a better place when you dont even know if there's pitholes that will make you fall to your death.

So I think, the important thing is knowledge. What can give a boost to your confidence? What can make you come up with a more informed decision?

go seeking...

discipline, time to come back

this 2011.....

only 1 thing that I really need to figure out....

What do I want to do with my life?

Simple. Very focused.

Just 1 question to answer.

To achieve something that you never had before.... you need to do things that you've never done before.

Driven by this saying... I am going to EXPOSE myself in the year of 2011!!!

Go do things that I've done before... go learn things that I've never learn before...

to seek.

1st up! GOLF... eh this was planned since end of last year... so for 1Q 2011 that's done!

2Q, I wanna go learn singing! I love music, tunes and melody can stir up so much feeling in someone... it's amazing! such a pity that i gave up on piano when I was young :/
Never too late anyway :)

2H 2011... let me think about it more! maybe go learn about make-up?! It's another amazing art!

Hello~ this blog is still not forgotten!

WOW! we are reaching the end of 2010! the last time i blogged was 31 May.

Crazy fast, this year... anyway every year just feels faster and faster!

how come I'm still the same old me? I was thinking about the achievement I had this year... then I thought there seems to be nothing worth mentioning.

I dream of huge radical changes! but that's just a dream if there's no actions to follow on..

ONE BIG answer i must have is....

WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

There's no point thinking about what I DON'T want because there's just going no way as well.

Been in engineering and I feel this is not me.

It has been a mistake since.....eh... uni? jc?

but it's okay, at that point of time of my late teens, that's the best decision I could make!

Can I get pass everyday like that? Going to work, hopes the day end soon and get home and feeling what am I doing or what have i accomplished and go to bed.

kinda sad, and that's definitely NOT what i wanted with my life!

人生短短几十年。。。what am I going to leave behind and what will I be able to create?

I'm still searching for the answer.

But I believe.... that I will feel passion in life again.

mum has a different idea, in her opinion, everything is good, be happy that there's a job and there are ppl around me who are willing to lend a helping hand when I'm in need.. I should be contented with my life.

Seriously, I understand how she has this mentality... and I agree that it's not a bad life.

But something is missing!

parents are looking at your life with thru their life experiences of what they lack while they were younger...

BUT this is my life. My life is not to fulfill your ideal..

of cos, I do take my parents' words for serious consideration~ I'm still quite a good daughter okay..

okay, I shall continue to seek! and I will find it, god will help me find it.

for now, i shall go to bed and reeessst and get well for the Bully Gang Count down party!!

I got 2 days of MC for my bad throat... :S

FAREWELL 2010.

一寸光阴，一寸金，
寸金难买寸光阴。

we all learnt this in pri sch chinese class right? i forgot the rest of the verse!
Point is, once time is gone, it's gone.