back to then

alrite first thing, HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVRYONE!
mine has been great =) with a delicious log cake *yum

okie now i'm going to back track.
its has been a mad rush from after examz till now.

regatta ~*
not totally prepared for race. think my rowing sucks. went down with the juniors. supposed to guide them. but why do i feel like a yr 1 myself. lousy can. oh well at least after that race they woke up and wanted to work harder. den team bonding. i saw and know things have to done. yet a part of me wants to mingle with those i like. boo. i did not do the latter. drummed for them. saw their screwed face. i feel for them. but it was a god damn feel good set i heard. so it was still good rite. so remember this. next year this time again. lets see.
den i stepped up. den how i feel is written all over my face. i so touched by those who sensed it or read it off my face and reassured me. =) i just hope i wont let anyone down

penang~*
carried that feeling all the way to penang. sucks can. din really have fun there. last yr's better. when we were freshie stinkies. argHHhhh i dun like to be ... .... .... (nvm shall not say things that's not constructive and negative)
rowed 4 sets.
screwed that woman's final. i can only say. out of control and i sucksSSs. but no 1 race is a wasted race. theres something to learn of cos.
that mixed finals. i row till i wanna die. cos its the last race anyway.
post race is not happening at all. i offered my room. start drinking beer before they force me to cos i'm too bored. started pillow fight with ham n ci while the juniors watch and luff. den keep kenna complains den i dieded lah! koonz... while they continue part 2 at ben's.

i feel we gotta slow down sometimes. thats to make sure we can go longer. slow and steady win the race. we need to spend that amount of time to slow down and build again before all of us can fly that boat like the seniors do. wats the point if we are good and theres no one to carry that on. we are all part of these. now and even when we are history.

eHhh think i'm old liao... i get tired easily can. i need to go sleep now.
goodnite babes.

after a long time

hey!! i did not abandon blog okie! too busy lah...

cos i'm catching up with all my frens and not just having fun with somebody can~

okie not gg to write much cos tmr got trng and i gg to bed soon! got lots to blog but dunno where to start lah!

nvm... got a new song. james blunt again! i love this...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

y heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bare my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby,

I'm so hollow.I'm so,

I'm so, I'm so hollow.

- goodbye my lover-

trngs n examz(still)

okie a very summarised one.

ended all my core papers last week.
dead lah.. better keep myself happy before results release.
went ost
harry pottered with bro! he finished his As!! wOo good for him.
oh quite cute huh..
mud yeo yeo watched it with her little sis.
ah sum watched with her sis too.
my pillow going to watch with her nooblet.
and i watch evry harry potter with my bro!
hahaha
anyway the book is olways better lah!

and i went for 3 trngs!!
eRmm... duno wat to say lah.. i've complained alot already.
are we expecting too much from them or they are really below expectation??
dun even know the race is this weekend... wah i want to faint.
where is the desire?? where is the hunger??!!
i dont see it man...
dunno wat they doing..
do they know wat are they trng for???
nvm, we shall see lah huh..
we cant let them die too terribly lah
cos we are in the same boat!
J I A Y O U gers!

busy days are coming up!!
even more bz den examz.
after examz mama wont see my face as often liao
haa

REGATTA this weekend!!!!!
get excited...
trying to get excited lah...
IVP boat..
hmMm right sides.. too many liao..
no chance =(
no chance to row with the lao rens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to row with you can?

anyway still got 2 more papers!
and i seems like i've finished exams!
hoho

oh and i love that little green thing on my bag now, so cute.
and that hamster likes to hit it!! =P
going to sleep lah
goodnite

the air is fresher.. the grasses are greener.. the irritants are lovable!

mr italian did a great job!!
gave us hints on edventure, they are not just hints okie! they are exam qns!!!
even the values the same! hoho
not just 1 lor... practically 4 qns!
great italian job! ahha

den the other prof is as good too! i was stuck at the qn she set.
she was standing beside me for sometime den she pointed and say, use this value.
den i, HuH?? cos i still dunno how to do. haa
den she said, divide by volume.
WOooHOoo problem solved!
wah damn good rite!!!

kind souls they are!~ i wonder if they will get into trouble =X
sHHhhhh... dont bao tou ah!!
secret!

haa den went to see mr vice-dean to sell our OSIM doppy. was actually thinking of selling 1 to him....
BUT!!!....
he says the school can help to buy SOME!!!! wOooHOoo!!
as lucky draw prizes for their events... ahha
nice man to talk to...
he can talk alot~ haa

den was ost! haven seen the love the candice the ting the kailee the ci for quite some time!
made a lot of noise in the gym.. we were really quite noisy i think! haha
but who cares! =P
so sick of canteen (1 to 10 and A to Z) food! so we went 179 for dinner..
then the fishball noodle uncle.. eRmm he not v old thou.. was damn funny...
xx was standing there waiting to order, she wearing the blue tee den the guy ask ,"龙要吃什么？"
den she dunno who he talking to.. haa

my sea trng since a long time tmr! Ooo i wonder how jailet will it b.. =S
but still, i'm looking forward to regatta!!

PS: haM! i smiled to her today!! hahaha yeah... she smiled back too! haha left u liao~

okie tired!
noobster going to bed!
haa seems like lobster sia...

so bad so dead.

ihateitihateitihateit.

no choice, walk till this point already.

too late.

karma lah.

i can only sigh.

i suckSSsss.

sodeadsodeadsodead.

killed at src thrice.

i hate examing there.

all it takes was 2hrs and 30mins

and 4 qns to kill me.

bah...

dont want to think abt it

it dont feel good.

i just want to sleep now.

hope tmr will be better.

examing *blardy hell*

argh!!

roller coastering

stressing

depressing

angrying

sading

crazying

stoning

complaining

whinning

freaking

damning

eating

sleeping

studying

radioing

jaying

restlessing

piaing

praying

sitting

mugging

dunnoing

junking

sore throating

vitamin c ing

lunchless ing

wasting

jiayouing

buanging

fe1007ing

ms2008ing

nonsenseing

still breathing

luckily.

cos

many

nice

people

arounding

caring.

goodlucking.

all the besting.

was checking email and...

Dear All,

Hope you are all preparing well for your final exams due on this coming Thursday.
May I request you all that you write legibly in your examination paper? As I was correcting your CA papers, I noticed I am not able to read some of your answers due to very untidy handwriting. In such cases I can not but mark your answers right without know what you have written. Hence, I again insist that you write your answers legibly.

Be confident and write your answers with patience. All the best,

Cheers,
Ananth

my prof is a nice man!!
hahaha
thou shall not b neat!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! *muackz* haha
oh and also.... HapPy 21sT sHiT!!
and also Happy birthday to carol's sister!

okie thats the end of happy today....

2 down.
MS2010 -- hope i can pass lah... that is going to rely alot on my course mates...
MS2004 -- hoho see you next sem! gone case... totally! :(

examz is detrimental to health!
think i'm falling sick..
the usual sore throat and sneezing and running nose is knocking at my door!
damn...
went to buy vitamin c just now..

been Zzz at 3ams... luckily there's still bro burning oil with me in the nite!
he's taking the horrible As!
he seems fine.. in a better state than i was that time.
J I A Y O U BOY! 9 more days yea..

daddy smsed bro n i this morning,
my best present will be your good results. good luck for examz.

bOo...
sorry dad, boy will settle ur present..
think i'm olways quite a disappointment lah.
haven learnt what education is trying to inculcate into me, i guesss.

wOo it has been 16 years..
still a struggling student.
this lesson is far too hard to learn for me.
eH cher, got tips?

anyway.. no point harping on wats over.
5 more to go.
see how it goes.

maybe when circumstances arose
we can all become heroes!

okie not making any sense again.

G O O D L U C K F O R C O M I N G P A P E R S!

argh... i'm hungry........ i want to eat pasta! hMmm.... hungry hungry......

today i basically did nothing.. went out with my family. walk ard at chinatown.

haven been out with them for a long time actually.

haiz.. 3 days!!!

freaking hell...

dunno i'm having headache or i'm giddy... it olways come at the night these days!!

oh watever...

back to manufacturing processes.

HEY YOU!! STUDY HARD..

stop wasting your parents monies!

*okie this entry dont make much sense*

holiday like again~~

okie as requested by fellow bulkster! i'm updating!! haha

just now on my way home, my brother sms me this,
Hey.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to u..
haha think he's going crazy from studying for A levels too!
when i got home, he's watching Suria channel lah!!

eh boy.. 你没事吧？！ haha

okie so its like holiday again... not feeling happy at all man~
and evryone's reaction is, eH lib not open.. go where study huh??

haa muggers!!

have decided to isolate myself, thats to keep myself stress.. i hope i can.. not feeling anything for the examz~~
1st sem, damn stressful!
2ns sem, was scared that i'm not feeling scared for examz.
this sem, no feeling!! Ooo i've up a level~
actually i did have feelings... like headache.. giddyness.. tummy churning.. my eyes tired~ blah blah..

damn...

*Ooo a feather just flew in thru the window and land infront of me!*

haiz... i want to watch a movie that is funny. i want to laugh!!!!! like laugh really hard.. and have to catch my breath that kind! i can laugh at anything now, so it doesnt need to be very funny! haha and i want to watch with ben! cos we haf the same kind of laughter... the HA HA HA HA, loud and non stop kind... haa
okie i wanna watch sky high!!!!
a school run by wonder woman~ ahha interesting!
a school run by dumbledore is fantastic too!
eh dear Mr Su, why your school is like damn boring can!!!
HARRY POTTER's coming!!!
wHeee... cant wait!

Dragostea Din Tei is making me damn high for 2 days liao.. haha
nu ma nu ma iei~ nu ma nu ma iei...
and that fat guy is rather cute.. hahha

i'm dreaming abt the happy days after my examz liao...

okie hope it appears in my dream later!
goodnite babeSSss!

damn the person that stole ben's handphone and can's calculator!
think that person will lau sai for all his/her papers!
its not good to steal okie.. and u are in a uni!
where is your moral?!

lib safe no more!!

argHhhhh...today was productive for half a day only..
sian
sianZ..

okie let's play something!
FIND THE MAN IN THE PICTURE IN 3 SECS!!!!!~
your time starts now!!
HURRY!!!~



Find the Man's Head within 3 seconds - You're a genius!


According to medical experiments:

If you can find the Man's Head within 3 seconds, your right brain is developed better than normal people.

If you can find the Man's Head within 1 minute, your right brain is developed normally.

If you can find the Man's Head within 1-3 mintues, your right brain is slow in reacting, you should eat more meat protein.

If you find the Man's Head in 3 minutes or more, your right brain is a disaster... extremely slow in reacting, the only suggestion is, please watch more cartoons to help normally develop your right brain.

hahah i'm one of those that need to watch more cartoons!!
damn~

hoho wats yours??!!

11am this morning, an sms came.

xw MY Love: you awake?

pang: haha how you know i woke up late??!! i just woke up at 10am..

xw MY Love: was wondering where are you, they are taking attendence at lib.

pang: haha oh i'm late for lib class liao..

haha so funny... xuexian is taking our attendence at ah nam's. the sociables (at the big table) and anti socials (at the cubicles)..

dont like to stay at the cubicles, its v dark there, i'll fall asleep..
lesser people at the big table is pretty conducive too!
but den i'm still sLLLOOOoowwww lah
wth~

alrite soon, i'll disappear...
gonna bury myself in some hole..
and 发神经

10 days to examz
-great...-

---------

oh had lunch with doris today. our last lunch together in ntu is like god knows when.. haven had a talk like this for a long time ya.. great to know how u are coping.. i'm sure you will walk out of this soon. watever it is, life often throw us something and caught us unaware. and getting thru it, is growth. walk on alrite, life have much more to offer! i'm looking forward till the day that when you look back at this very moment in time, and you find how silly you were and laugh at it. till den, tell me abt it ya~ I loVE yOu geR!

bOo!!

save me pls~!~!!!!!!!!

its that stupig examz period again!! am i stresS? okie lets check...
- i'm becoming v forgetful.
for eg. I forgot to brush my teeth in the morning. I'm holding my handphone in my right hand and i'm digging for my hp with my left hand..

-i'm laughing at anything.
mud yoyo can testify for this... she hates it when i laugh non stop at little things.

-my appetite is like grRReat!
when i wanna eat i can eat aLOT!!

plus constant sighing and hair pulling and fierce staring at my notes..
coffee has become part of the staple diet.
and coffee sweets for in-betweens.

aRRrrggghhhhh... damn slow lah... no time man! my brain cant work 24/7 leh...

orh that day was packing the examz goodie bag for the team. den i stayed over at cuimei's room.
i din tell that i'm coming. so by the time ci can i went back, cuimei and xuexian were already asleep. and they only left a space in between them for ci!! (they joined the 2 beds) den both of us were to squeeze in!! hahaha

lucky that nite's not warm. we all have to lie straight and sleep. but cuimei was like so ke lian that nite!!! cos that nite i was sleeping with both my arms and pillow over her. hahahha she woke up in the nite thinking why yunci is so big size and to her horror its pangsteR!! hahaaaha i think i stayed in that position for a pretty long time! den i know i elbowed yunci too but lucky she din noe... haha sharing a bed with me is quite dangerous!

eh this week is hell for me cos i got 4 quizzes~!!! wonderful! brilliant! fantastic! oh watever~!
last quiz tmr.. forensic sic.. 在家靠父母，出外靠朋友！！！
haha you know wat it means....

RRRarrrr ah nam at 830am!! haven witness the crowd outside lib yet... looking at the time now, dun tink i can make it there at 830....

alrite go sleep den!
less than 12 days to examz
haaha
hahahahha

5.25pm

the sky outside is turning grey
its rumbling
hope it dont rain
today is our last gym trng.

so sad =(
so sian...
din do much today.
busy with that presentation and finally its over.

sun yanzi been singing xiang xin to me for many many times.
corrine may songs are nice.. i like her voice. got character.

ci is beside me.. looking at sydney dragonboat events.. so nice man!!!
i want to go!!!!!
and i want to with your... before your graduate okie... =(
but we got no money.... need ard 2K each??
ci says plan it for next next yr lor... =(

okie talk abt something nice.. ytd went to see celine asking her abt penang. ham and i asked if the guys are going. den she laughed, saying the guys v cute. cos she spoke to the guys team abt penang and they know that ah hee cannot be with us. den xinzhi said they will be going penang to take care of the gers...
ham and i were like "waHHhhh.... so nice!!"
hahaha its really nice to hear that, quite shocking too..
thanks man!

think my italian tutor is quite nice in the end.... know why??
cos he smile to me.. haha
okie ppl who smile to me are nice ppl lah..

there are many sweet ppl ard too!!
sweet ppl buy me chocolates!
sweet ppl help me keep my notes into my bag when i left them lying ard at race site.
sweet ppl help me keep my mp3 player into my bag. at the right compartment somemore! haha

alrite going to src now!!! tonite i want to do my lab report!!!!

i'm glad that you've decided to move on. this is the ger i know!! you are strong. and you still am.

he's not worth your tears.
cos the only man that's worth your tears will never hurt you so and make you cry.

that day when we went your house, i saw you. i'm so 心痛.
you've lost your glow... and this is so not you.
bullies will olways be there for you. no matter wat.
we all have our ups and downs, joy and sorrow, laughter and tears.
you know we can share them all.

i want to see the pretty you, standing tall again.
做回自己.

love has no reason, love is unconditional.
but dont fall in love with love.
love the ones who truely worth your love.
and love you for you are.

to phoenix, with love...

sava is one race that's so memorable, one that is so filled with emotions. for me.

this time i feel phoenix. not that i dun last time. i remembered i did at MR500 too. maybe along the way as we move on. we lost the basic. we lost the fundamental, we lost the simplicity, we lost ourselves.

i wont cry for that fall. no matter wat, i'm at fault. cos this is not the first time already. but this time it really caught me, i've got no clue wHY?

i cried because i'm so very touched by the back packers. the ones who witnessed it.
ade, "dun worry, i rowed doubly hard for you jus now." <--- this made me cry.
to candice, ade, kailee, ham, sheena, sylvia and yufen. thanks for rowing that last charge for me.

thanks for embracing me. thanks for letting me cry on your shoulders. thanks for the hugs. thanks for encouagements. thanks for supporting me. thanks for crying with me.

sunday i tell myself, i will row it for them. for those who have rowed for me. for phoenix to fly the boat.

that fall did bring me down. ah hee still place me at my seat but i'm scared.
damn stressed for that 500m semi. it was good, i did wat i'm supposed to do.
500m finals. still stress but i gave it all. we came in first!! freaking happy~
1000m Supercup. I feel i'm in control. came in first again!!
-I know I've got it back-
that set was the best feeling race ever.
and ya, i cried again.

me, "I've got it back.."
angie, "good, keep it.."

all these words are still locked in me. i will keep them. thinking back the feeling is still as strong. think i haven cried so much for a long time.

feelings never lie. i'm truely touched. thanks for making me feel that i'm never alone.
to the team I belong,
to the team that rowed with their hearts,
to Phoenix, with love.

haven been eating dinner at home for a long time
ma jiam i'm like staying in hall too...
so today i decided to give myself a break..
give that ost a miss and head home for dinner..
den i called home...
nobody's home.. =(
mummy n daddy went out
bro studying in school
sis is working

boo...
shall settle my own dinner den..
feeel like eating that tuna roll from liberty's bakery
went down.
sold out.
=\
so anyhow grab a mushroom cheeze la..

oh well, people dont olways wait for you rite..
wait till u are free
they may not b free anymore...


Oooo let see i'll be hooked to this korean song for how long..
i think i... ....

its coming!!

2 more days and SAVA here we come!

today a little tot make me feel happy...

was parking myself at ah nam's the whole day (okie minus that long lunch with fel jiaqi ashley n zhanjing) with kailee and also cuimei, but she went for that forensic sci which i skip again.. =S
den was doing my work... until 4pm.. start to pack up and ready to go to src. den i suddenly tot, there are many ppl who start packing their stuff at 4pm too at wherever they are. like ade n love get out of their beds and walk down to src.. like cuimei leaving that lecture early.. like kailee logging off her computer terminal.. and many many that happen simultanously... *grinz* so nice rite.. dont u think so?? at that moment we all haf that same thought in mind! and thats dragonboat... how sweet that our lives are all so intertwined with db and this brought all of us together. and we ARE achieving something BIG out of it together!! i'm sure i'll never achieve anything close to this without phoenix..

keep our faith
when all of ur are together
i can feel the strength
i feel safe
and yes nobody is just sitting down and receiving it
its evryone giving that bit
making phoenix strong
i believe in you!
believe in me too..

our time and effort wont go to waste..
our trngs are not for nothing..
take good care
and this weekend is going to be interesting.

Phoenix saH!

bumped into bizhen in sch, no more long curls but still look v sweet. she said jiayou for our race!
thinking back, she's the one that i'll look at when i need strength, when i feel i'm going to die of that set.. haha a motivation definitely. oh well but she never know..
i have new motivation now, she's on the right! haha

alrite freakyfatpangster is looking for a left side. please approach my secretary(miss pang) if u think u are eligible.
haha angie says she will convert to left just for me!!whOoo~ angie leh... she's going to F me upside down lor! hahaa

oh yah ting is looking for a duet partner... haha ting are u sure u want me?? you haven hear me sing before man....

IVP DINNNER THIS FRIDAY!! so looking forward!~ all in black polo tees.. wahaha ben say we will look intimidating!~ wOO! i want to see how its gonna be...

and thankx dear sally for being so understanding! haha althought she olways talk to me in harsh tone, raising her voice.... she still loves me!! wahaha -oh yes u do...
sorry babe this week is really really packed~ =(

alrite brain dead nite!
tmr got damn lab again...
its a long thursday man

goodnite sweeties!

when the night is at its darkest,
it means the sun is going to rise soon...
Press on!
Dont give up~

-saw this at xx's room jus now

when u see the queue of the bus 30 is damn long
it means the bus is going to come soon
join in the queue!!
haha

counting down to sava

felt good at today's trng! think our seats are more or less fixed bah. will be the centre pack! whoo good~ today did sets of 500 and 200. thou the sets were not perfect and there are still much rooms for improvement, i can feel the effort. like we can communicate better on a big boat, when winsten call for back pack support, i can really feel it!! good job power packs~! i hope the mid pack maintained it well oso..

together we can make the boat fly!
Let's believe in one another.
dont let each others effort go to waste.
we are sharing that same goal..
at the end of it, we will enjoy the harvest together.
make it a good one and no regrets!

not much time already.
2 sea trainings left...
jiayou Phoenix!!!

oh saw jiayun at sdba this morning, she's leaving for uk tomorrow. she came down just to see the TP gers and some of us.. she even got gave us farewell gifts.. yufen wanted to send her off but she doesnt want. she din wan anybody to send her off cos it's gg to b v sad... yah actually quite true lah.. saying bye to all your loved ones and friends den you walk thru the gates alone.. all your frens gg home together, happily.. haha
no wonder when bingwen left for us, he doesnt want anybody to send him off too.

haiz okie.... gotta go do project liao! tmr meeting them at 10am at national lib, have to finish my part before going for training man...

BUSY WEEK ahead for many!!!!
JIAYOU GERS!!!!
press on like how we do it on boat.

and HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY =)
and HAPPY 21ST GRACIE~

ps: in our busy lives, when we dun haf much time to meet up and catch up. i'm glad that we are still keeping each other in our hearts. so touched when u say thou we not studying for examz together le but u still hope that i'm doing well.. =)
i miss you too siok~

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进，何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气


只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情 还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣 想太多是我还是你
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进，何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你 写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽 停在这里

只能陪你到这里
已经有些事不可以
超过了勇气 还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
-杨丞琳-

a nice sad song...
rite feL n haM..
haha

thankx ah sum for sending

fun tuesday

great tuesday yesterday! (okie excluding that 2002 quiz which i buang...) gym with feL was goodgoodgood! y izzit good?? hMmm cos whacked alittle, increased the weight abit and still doing fine! and it feels all so good~ bulking up... dont really mind that actually.. haha just that i cannot wear alot of my tops! argHHhh... and at least feL is with me!! hahaha bulkamania~!!
hope the increase in size is proportionate to the increase in strength! =\

after trng was pretty havoc! cos its angie's 21st!!! HAPPY 21ST ANGIE~!!!!!!! turned 21 liao dun curse and swear and F so much okie! haha she said she wanna go holland village to eat and asked me to go home bathe and wait for her call, cos she's driving! okie i went back and got ready and when they came, they were all in shorts!! i'm in jeans lor... and noe where they going to eat?? that hawker near my house.... so stupig lah~

actually most of us were not hungry but since angie is treating.... we just help ourselves lah... when there's food on the table, ppl will just eat! haha we had dim sum.. sting ray... mussels.. yee mee and many milo bings!! hMm pretty sinful... haa

den we went up jurong hiLL!!! do u know there is such a hiLL??? been living in jurong for 21 years and i dunno lor... haha its at jurong bird park there. dawn led the way and there's a few couples there doing dunno wat in the cars and dark corners!! ahhaa from there we can see jurong island... pretty nice with all those lights. it looks like a bustling city over there at 2am. but we got sick of the scenery in like 20 mins hahaha... i like the night breeze thou... cool..

sick of scenery so we take pictures lor... fav past time liao... haha waiting for love to send it to us!din really do interesting stuff but hanging out with the gers is just so enjoyable.. kept luffing laH! fighting for seats in the car cos the slower ones have to sit at the back with no seats!! dawn the kiasu aunty is gOOD!! she helped me got a seat! hahaha

backed home at ard 3am! and mummy doesnt know i went out!!! sHHhhhh... haha

okie gotta go study for my maths quiz tmr!!! bOo... series.. I HATE IT I HATE IT!!

8 days to sava
37 days to examz

buai ta han!

there is ms2008 tutorial today.
last nite went to edventure to check,
tutorial not posted up yet!

but still, today we go into the tutorial class to wait and see.
10mins if he's not here, we'll go.
at the 7min, he came in.
say he'll go thru CA questions.
trying to start his laptop for 5mins
said his laptop died.
so he will go thru the tut instead.
like who in the class have that tutorial laH!!!!!!!!!!
he said, "i hope your have the tut by chance..."
guesss the chances is only 0.0001% lah...
he went on reading the question to us...
*blank look on evrybody's faces*
i stood up and walk out of the class.
I think its just a waste of time.
head towards lwn.
search for my vice-dean's email.
sent in my feedback~

good.
going for lunch now!

likesodeadcan?

blah!sosianleh,whyaretheresomanythingonmymind.feelingsodisorganized,blank,confused.dendont feellikedoinganythingaboutit.shitlahandicantjustletitbe!!
NOTIMEman.1monthtoexamz&idunfeellikestudying. icanjustgoanddie~
sosososososodead.
sosopain!!rarRRR
cramps...
gotnoclothestowearcostheyareallgettingtight!!boo

whining&whining&whiningcan??!
disgusted

goingtobed.
goodnitefreakypangster's...

napfa! bbq! trngsSss!

napfa was fun that day! been a long time since we do all these stuff den evryone is getting stressed up.. feL said this is even more stressful den quiz! hahaa
after napfa we got a conclusion!
most dragonboaters cant jump!! haha eh last time i can jump 190... this time barely make it thru only! oh but last time i cant run lah.. the 2.4 felt pretty gOod~ mayb cos its nite time already den v dark and u cant see anything so jus focus on running.. haa

fri's good too! oh theres one thing bad!! i tried to complete my tutorial before going to ost but i end up talking and talking... bOo!
saw huimin at ost, haven seen her for some time.. still pretty much the same =)
den team bbq.. went there at ard 7 plus and at the pit only 有几只小猫!! all expecting other ppl to come late so none was on time.. din expect so turnout to be so few thou~ nvm my job that day is to peng kang! and i did~! was there peng-ing and the only thing i ate was the banana chocolate! it taste gOOod~ i olways enjoy bbqing den eating the bbq food lah.. freaking hot and smoky there but i like doing it.. cos jus stand there and flip flip flip only.. haha i see the gers like dun haf food to eat man.. all were bbq-ing mashmellows!! like so poor thing...
and staying over at their hall that nite and my love help me cover blanket rite at the moment i'm feeling cold.. so swEEet! haa

long time since i last talk to hammie.. i walked her back to hall and she walked me back to hall 6~~!! haha no worries ger! we are going thru it together.. its happening to both of us concurrently so mayb its normal lah! ahaa well......... theres up and down! its going to go up!! lets focus on wats coming ahead soon... =)

sat trng's not bad i feel.. theres an improvement! glad~ after trng went to get pressie for love!! wanted to get her a top but somebody already bought her one so i bought something special!! haha giving it to her tmr.. its something useful, definitely! orh my company was angie tee! *the bitch* wahha cos she say i suck and tell me to fuck off lor! she walking damn fast lah.. ignoring me behind! too bad for her, cant get that G-star jeans... it looks nice but there's only 1 piece for 1 size!! =\
then she went for a hair cut at philip kingley or watever... 45 bucks! so ex man but its nice~! birthday coming so v willing to spend mah~ haha and poor me waiting for her... was dozing off lor!

okie things to do:
1) tutorialsSSSS
2) research on teeth whitening
3) study for damn quiz! -2 quizzes next week!- sianz

-------------------------i feel-----------------------

If u can't make it good den let it die,
if u can't bear to let it die....
make it good.

ppl wont change their impression of you out of nothing.

it goes like this...
show it! show that u can! ----> ppl see your effort and change their perception of u!
and it doesnt work vice-versa..

if i say i'll be there for you.. i'm willing to share not just ur happiness but also the bitter and sad.
will u share mine too?

weird neighbour!

luckily i'm not home just now, that weird neighbour living upstairs came down again!!!

okie it started on my birthday party. he pop by saying he saw his fren when he's taking the lift up den he came to ask for his contact number from me. i gave it to him and jus wan him to shoOo away. den he tell me he was from jj and in ntu engin now..

den the other day he jus came down and said he wanna borrow textbook from me!!??
luckily i'm not home!
my sis called me, "eh your fren wan to get wat textbook?"
me, "huh wat fren?"
weird neighbour, "hi, i'm the one living upstairs, do u haf material science textbook?"
me, "no."
weird neighbour, "oh den wat time u coming home?"
me, "erRRrr........."
wth~ i dun even know his name!!!!!!!!!!

den he chatted with my parents... asking about our stuffs. like where my sis studying... what am i doing in school so late.. my bro gg to ns, got anything can ask him for help... DUH!!!
HELLO~ 我们很熟 meh???
den he asked for my contact, luckily daddy's smart! asked him to leave his instead..

just now he came down again!! this time he wanna borrow notes or tutorials or watever.. den wanna borrow dunno wat cd rom, saying last time we did project using that!!!!
*ROLL EYES!!* since when we did project together???!!! we werent even classmates laH!!!!!!!this is ridiculous~ there's something v wrong with him man... think i better stay away from home!! i dun want to talk to him..... weirdweirdweird.



Ooo wed will b having dinner outside cos is mama's birthday on the 22nd!!
i LovE yoU mummy!!
*shit~ my mama taking a step closer to menopause madness!*
we are seeing signs already... stay clear evryone!
i've warn you....
haha oh but you are still my dear mum =D (when u dun scream at us)

okie den thurs will be taking the physical assessment with the team as instructed by mr hee!
very long never do those 5 stations already! eh i cant sit n reach... dunno if i still can board jump.. shuttle run?! hMmm... and that inclined pull up!... oh the easiest is sit up liao lah! i'm sure i can do that!! am looking forward.. think its gonna b interesting!! hahaa

friday is team bbq!! the last one was 1 yr ago when i just joined and it wasnt that fun.. think there isnt much food either and the guys started eating before we come laH~ =/
okie this time i've decided to station at the pit to be the "peng kang-er"
first hand access to all the food! haha nah.. u all know i'm not like that~
den am gg to be my love's bedmate!! yay~ lets hope the nite is cold cos i'll b cranky if i fall asleep sweaty! haha

and then will train the weekends away! sava is coming real soon.. and we are not peaking yet...
and i know myself too... i'm not there yet also!! phoenix lets JIAYOU!! this time we are on a big boat, all of us rowing together! i wanna feel that connection and that empowering feeling.. i want to be overwhelmed by it! lets row with our hearts...

stay focus and we can!

goodnite ladies

just now a guy came to our doorstep while we were having dinner and start talking at machine gun's speed.. but i caught all his words.

he's from a basketball team in serangoon. his team is having some financial problem and they do not have the money to go for competition. so now he is going door to door to sell ice cream to raise money to sign up for the competition and buy jerseys.

doesnt this ring a bell??!! i feel for him... i really do.

but daddy said no and he walked away.... =(

i was too late to stop him but if he walk pass my door again, i'll definitely buy his ice cream...

sava!!

A special race category has been added! This will be a 1,000m race distance for Men’s and Women’s category only. Top teams which accumulate the most points from the Men’s/Women’s Open & Premier races from the 2 days (based on results) will qualify, thus there is no need to register for this category.
Prize money will be awarded to the top 3 teams of the Men’s and Women’s Super Cup, so do register for both 200m and 500m distances! More details to be announced at the Teams Managers and Steerers’ briefing.

Ooooo see that!!! prize money~!!
if we can win this den no worries abt penang man~
$_$

com' on phoenix! lets work hard for the money!!! hahaha
and this is the FIRST RACE that has women 20 crew!!
so yah lets go for a WIN!!!

*excited*

i hope polymers and composite and properties of materials can excite me too...
boo!

chionging ah nam's tmr
den off to pasir ris for dear gracie's 21st!

november rain

When I look into your eyes

I can see a love restrained

But darlin' when I hold you

Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever

And we both know hearts can change

And it's hard to hold a candle

In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time

Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go

An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today

Walking awayIf we could take the time to lay it on the line

I could rest my head

Just knowin' that you were mine

All mine

So if you want to love methen darlin' don't refrain

Or I'll just end up walkin'

In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own

Do you need some time...all alone

Everybody needs some time...on their own

Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart

When even friends seem out to harm you

But if you could heal a broken heart

Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my own

Sometimes I need some time...all alone

Everybody needs some time...on their own

Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subsideAnd shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh

I know that you can love me

When there's no one left to blame

So never mind the darkness

We still can find a way

'Cause nothin' lasts forever

Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody

Don't ya think that you need someone

Everybody needs somebody

You're not the only one

-guns' and roses-

been on repeat mode on my playlist.

i love the ending.. the guitar solo...

hello.. heLLO???!!!!

do you like it to have people counting for you while rowing??
do like people to echo you when u start the count??

i like it... thats why i do it for people.
wat comes around goes around
dun take things for granted

it means more than just coordination..
we all understand that
you know how good it feels when hearing it on boat
but some may not know that she is panting like hell
cos she's rowing as hard too
it doesnt matter where u sit..
is if u want it or not...

there's many pairs of eyes watching us now
are we setting a good example?

okie am whining


cos it has crossed my limits...

bu shuang!!

today is v bu shuang day.. been feeling v hot n irritated!
know why??
cos my my top is becoming tooOOOO small for me!!
okie not the shirt's fault..
its me~
getting so fat lah!!
bulking up already...
shall go get more baggy t shirts!

pool rowing was fine...
am at my love's room now..
using ade's lappie!
my love is asleep already..
candice is surfing..
ade is at yufen's room watching horror~!!!
and i'm waiting for ci and ham for meeting...

wat are we meeting abt??
abt the fund raising to penang...
the school has no more money for us!!
the only 10k left has gone to tianjin...
and now we gotta raise our own money to go penang....
evrybody is coping so hard with trng and studies and our own lives..
fund raising thing has to come after examz liao...

okie gotta go for meeting liao...
i'm sleepy le........

goodnite to you

suddenly i miss sentosa...

I WANT BEACH VOLLEYBALL!!!!!!!

haiz where got time for this man....

tutorials... tutorials... trainings... trainings...

nvm~!
i can wait!!

4 weeks to SAVA
8 weeks to examz *wtf*
11 weeks to River Regatta
12 weeks to Penang
okie so its 13 weeks to beach volleyball!!

=S

argh!! 1am liao
i MUST SLEEP now...

goodnite freaks

MY BERTHSDAY!!!!~

wHeeE~ i'm 21!!
haha been celebrating for 3 days and evrything's sOOoo great~! had lots of fun and beautiful memories of cos.

-3rd september
party at my house! invited all those who are dearest to me. frens that have made me into who i am (so ur noe why i'm so noisy and full of nonsense?!) and frens who i've shared many many happy moments with..

THE BULLY GANG!!!!
thanks babes! all were here!! haha attendence's good. thankx for coming in green! i knew your would surely dress up just for me! all of ur were so preTTty in grEeN =) thankx carol weixin sally for the deco~! haha i still have all the balloons in my house. wasnt a v gd host, luckily bullies are olways self entertaining.. glad ur had fun in my room haa~ ur were so noisy oops i mean lively! that my dad said he olmost gone deaf standing beside ur! wahaha that's my bullies!! rock on ya!!

THE JC GERS!!
they were so funny.. they keep saying they wanna compete wif the bullies to see who is noisier! haha well i wont say its tough fight leh~bunch of crazy gers too..also great at self entertaining! haha OOoo they bought me sunflowers!! hee first bouquet of flowers i receive leh.. its still looking good till today! and thanks for coming in green too!! except for yinyee.. eH i close one eye lah cos u are my dear xiao di! and peh xuan xuan has successfully disturbed quite of lot of them by her disgustingly aromatic burps! hahaha luckily i'm not there! thankx for making alot of noise too and dun worry my neighbours wont complain one.. cos i dunno my neighbours!

THE GUYS!
buddies from jss!! funny people... xinhui bought me 4D as present!! haha 0509.. but din strike leh! guangjin is damn funny.. walking ard talking to my guests that he dont know! haa mayb he's too bored la.. am glad that chin han and chengjie turned up cos initially they have another fren turning 21. they(plus meixiang) are the only ones that got lost while coming! lousy la...=X haa

PHOENIX!!~
haha thankx for being such a good spot, shit jas ben ci yeling ham kailee syl for coming in GREEN!! hahaha thankx for entertaining to my request man! =) sorry gers, by the time ur come, my house is already packed and warm~ luckily the food is good for ur! and the yam seng is wOo~ our style! thanks for making me so red aH... olmost couldnt walk straight liao! OOOo and that nite i got another 'first time'.. ber brought me for a ride on her bike! haha but its jus ard the carpark.. and the 3 super late comers! angie xx kailee came when i finished cutting the cake! but they nua in my room till 3am..

was tiring being a host.. running ard but all worth it!! got praises for the buffet and cake~ *pHew*
eh but i din eat a bit of the buffet man!!! haa dunno how gd it is...

-4th September
a rainy day and we had trng! bRRrrrr.... cold! that day was quite sucky... our sets were rather lousy!
candice den drove us back to jur point for dinner and anderson's!
got home and start to countdown for my bday! haa was excited!
thankx for coming down to be the first to celebrate it with me... =)

-5th September
usually the actual bday will be a lonely one cos all ur frens will assume u wont b free on that day so they will all celebrate it earlier.. mine olmost turn out like that BUT ade and my love date me!! wahaha and shit is a lousy escort! so lousy that she doesnt know anything!! ahaha was trying to trick her to tell me what they are up to.. den they ordered KFC delivery and that kfc person met an accident~ but our food still come anyway! and huimin feasted!! we had ice cream eating competition and the loser team has to do forfeit! haha the forfeit is meant for me lah but i can see shit ting and marlau still try their best to dig in the melting ice creams! haha stupig forfeits lah!! shant talk abt it here! haha... THANKZ stinkies for the party!! thankx for the effort!=)

got floods of smses and mmses.. got wonderful presents!! actually its not so much abt the present, it the effort and time spent trying to choose a present for me that i appreciate most! (cos i know wat's its like to buy presents!!) thankx for spending a part of ur time just for me!!

oh and of cos thankx the rest of the pangs for helping me cleaning up the house and running errands!

fuiki felt soOoooo lOVed =)
thanks for being my fren!
i cant imagine life without your...