time check: 2.11am
came back from trng at 10.20pm, been doing nothing till now and have no plan of doing anything. feel so restless n lethargic these days (okie towards studies only to b exact). mum n dad nagging.. "never see you study one leh.. thought ur examz cuming, still got time to train ah.. blah blah.. yah.. i know.. have to study. i dont like to disappoint them again. well, u know~ bad record in the past. i need a motivator!! somebody to stress me up n get my engine going. last sem there's xiaowan, min n qiu to knock some urgency into me. now.. they dont care abt pang as much liao.. okie cause n effect~ i understand completely. but i'll definitely work on it.. i'll not let it slip thru my fingers just like dat. in the meantime, gotta kick my own ass to study la! does mugging at lwn help? - if u want it, den it will -
missed a chance to go supper with my jss buddies today~ love them a hell lot~! coz they are as crappy as nonsense as stupig as me! haha alrite there's olways another reason for supper next time..
trng is so-so today. think we are too slow, i missed my swings station -Oops- i must keep track of time~! yah benben told me to get a watch like again.. alrite, i'll get it within this 2 weeks.. i hope.. spotted a white TIMEX the other day with xuewei but missed the price tag.. hmm
problems on the left side.. hmm never got a chance to see their rowing but can sort of understand the frustration these leftie are having. i know they want to do the best for the team. they are really 100% hardcore. but sometimes not evryone is willing to go the whole full mile. i love the feeling when evryone has the same goal, same dream, rowing evry stroke with heart n soul, with will power. for your fellow rowers, for team mates, for ah hee, for glory, for ntu. no doubts, not calculative, we all fight hard! i want to feel this again at MR! can?
sort of looking forward to friday's dinner, dont know wat to expect thou~ but i'm olways willing to lend a listening ear..
time check: 2.35am
still wide awake, bet i'll miss the 2 lectures in the morn as usual...
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