Wednesday, September 28

fun tuesday

great tuesday yesterday! (okie excluding that 2002 quiz which i buang...) gym with feL was goodgoodgood! y izzit good?? hMmm cos whacked alittle, increased the weight abit and still doing fine! and it feels all so good~ bulking up... dont really mind that actually.. haha just that i cannot wear alot of my tops! argHHhh... and at least feL is with me!! hahaha bulkamania~!!
hope the increase in size is proportionate to the increase in strength! =\

after trng was pretty havoc! cos its angie's 21st!!! HAPPY 21ST ANGIE~!!!!!!! turned 21 liao dun curse and swear and F so much okie! haha she said she wanna go holland village to eat and asked me to go home bathe and wait for her call, cos she's driving! okie i went back and got ready and when they came, they were all in shorts!! i'm in jeans lor... and noe where they going to eat?? that hawker near my house.... so stupig lah~

actually most of us were not hungry but since angie is treating.... we just help ourselves lah... when there's food on the table, ppl will just eat! haha we had dim sum.. sting ray... mussels.. yee mee and many milo bings!! hMm pretty sinful... haa

den we went up jurong hiLL!!! do u know there is such a hiLL??? been living in jurong for 21 years and i dunno lor... haha its at jurong bird park there. dawn led the way and there's a few couples there doing dunno wat in the cars and dark corners!! ahhaa from there we can see jurong island... pretty nice with all those lights. it looks like a bustling city over there at 2am. but we got sick of the scenery in like 20 mins hahaha... i like the night breeze thou... cool..

sick of scenery so we take pictures lor... fav past time liao... haha waiting for love to send it to us!din really do interesting stuff but hanging out with the gers is just so enjoyable.. kept luffing laH! fighting for seats in the car cos the slower ones have to sit at the back with no seats!! dawn the kiasu aunty is gOOD!! she helped me got a seat! hahaha

backed home at ard 3am! and mummy doesnt know i went out!!! sHHhhhh... haha

okie gotta go study for my maths quiz tmr!!! bOo... series.. I HATE IT I HATE IT!!

8 days to sava
37 days to examz

Monday, September 26

buai ta han!

there is ms2008 tutorial today.
last nite went to edventure to check,
tutorial not posted up yet!

but still, today we go into the tutorial class to wait and see.
10mins if he's not here, we'll go.
at the 7min, he came in.
say he'll go thru CA questions.
trying to start his laptop for 5mins
said his laptop died.
so he will go thru the tut instead.
like who in the class have that tutorial laH!!!!!!!!!!
he said, "i hope your have the tut by chance..."
guesss the chances is only 0.0001% lah...
he went on reading the question to us...
*blank look on evrybody's faces*
i stood up and walk out of the class.
I think its just a waste of time.
head towards lwn.
search for my vice-dean's email.
sent in my feedback~

good.
going for lunch now!

likesodeadcan?

blah!sosianleh,whyaretheresomanythingonmymind.feelingsodisorganized,blank,confused.dendont feellikedoinganythingaboutit.shitlahandicantjustletitbe!!
NOTIMEman.1monthtoexamz&idunfeellikestudying. icanjustgoanddie~
sosososososodead.
sosopain!!rarRRR
cramps...
gotnoclothestowearcostheyareallgettingtight!!boo

whining&whining&whiningcan??!
disgusted

goingtobed.
goodnitefreakypangster's...

Saturday, September 24

napfa! bbq! trngsSss!

napfa was fun that day! been a long time since we do all these stuff den evryone is getting stressed up.. feL said this is even more stressful den quiz! hahaa
after napfa we got a conclusion!
most dragonboaters cant jump!! haha eh last time i can jump 190... this time barely make it thru only! oh but last time i cant run lah.. the 2.4 felt pretty gOod~ mayb cos its nite time already den v dark and u cant see anything so jus focus on running.. haa

fri's good too! oh theres one thing bad!! i tried to complete my tutorial before going to ost but i end up talking and talking... bOo!
saw huimin at ost, haven seen her for some time.. still pretty much the same =)
den team bbq.. went there at ard 7 plus and at the pit only 有几只小猫!! all expecting other ppl to come late so none was on time.. din expect so turnout to be so few thou~ nvm my job that day is to peng kang! and i did~! was there peng-ing and the only thing i ate was the banana chocolate! it taste gOOod~ i olways enjoy bbqing den eating the bbq food lah.. freaking hot and smoky there but i like doing it.. cos jus stand there and flip flip flip only.. haha i see the gers like dun haf food to eat man.. all were bbq-ing mashmellows!! like so poor thing...
and staying over at their hall that nite and my love help me cover blanket rite at the moment i'm feeling cold.. so swEEet! haa

long time since i last talk to hammie.. i walked her back to hall and she walked me back to hall 6~~!! haha no worries ger! we are going thru it together.. its happening to both of us concurrently so mayb its normal lah! ahaa well......... theres up and down! its going to go up!! lets focus on wats coming ahead soon... =)

sat trng's not bad i feel.. theres an improvement! glad~ after trng went to get pressie for love!! wanted to get her a top but somebody already bought her one so i bought something special!! haha giving it to her tmr.. its something useful, definitely! orh my company was angie tee! *the bitch* wahha cos she say i suck and tell me to fuck off lor! she walking damn fast lah.. ignoring me behind! too bad for her, cant get that G-star jeans... it looks nice but there's only 1 piece for 1 size!! =\
then she went for a hair cut at philip kingley or watever... 45 bucks! so ex man but its nice~! birthday coming so v willing to spend mah~ haha and poor me waiting for her... was dozing off lor!

okie things to do:
1) tutorialsSSSS
2) research on teeth whitening
3) study for damn quiz! -2 quizzes next week!- sianz

-------------------------i feel-----------------------

If u can't make it good den let it die,
if u can't bear to let it die....
make it good.

ppl wont change their impression of you out of nothing.

it goes like this...
show it! show that u can! ----> ppl see your effort and change their perception of u!
and it doesnt work vice-versa..

if i say i'll be there for you.. i'm willing to share not just ur happiness but also the bitter and sad.
will u share mine too?



Wednesday, September 21

weird neighbour!

luckily i'm not home just now, that weird neighbour living upstairs came down again!!!

okie it started on my birthday party. he pop by saying he saw his fren when he's taking the lift up den he came to ask for his contact number from me. i gave it to him and jus wan him to shoOo away. den he tell me he was from jj and in ntu engin now..

den the other day he jus came down and said he wanna borrow textbook from me!!??
luckily i'm not home!
my sis called me, "eh your fren wan to get wat textbook?"
me, "huh wat fren?"
weird neighbour, "hi, i'm the one living upstairs, do u haf material science textbook?"
me, "no."
weird neighbour, "oh den wat time u coming home?"
me, "erRRrr........."
wth~ i dun even know his name!!!!!!!!!!

den he chatted with my parents... asking about our stuffs. like where my sis studying... what am i doing in school so late.. my bro gg to ns, got anything can ask him for help... DUH!!!
HELLO~ 我们很熟 meh???
den he asked for my contact, luckily daddy's smart! asked him to leave his instead..

just now he came down again!! this time he wanna borrow notes or tutorials or watever.. den wanna borrow dunno wat cd rom, saying last time we did project using that!!!!
*ROLL EYES!!* since when we did project together???!!! we werent even classmates laH!!!!!!!this is ridiculous~ there's something v wrong with him man... think i better stay away from home!! i dun want to talk to him..... weirdweirdweird.



Ooo wed will b having dinner outside cos is mama's birthday on the 22nd!!
i LovE yoU mummy!!
*shit~ my mama taking a step closer to menopause madness!*
we are seeing signs already... stay clear evryone!
i've warn you....
haha oh but you are still my dear mum =D (when u dun scream at us)

okie den thurs will be taking the physical assessment with the team as instructed by mr hee!
very long never do those 5 stations already! eh i cant sit n reach... dunno if i still can board jump.. shuttle run?! hMmm... and that inclined pull up!... oh the easiest is sit up liao lah! i'm sure i can do that!! am looking forward.. think its gonna b interesting!! hahaa

friday is team bbq!! the last one was 1 yr ago when i just joined and it wasnt that fun.. think there isnt much food either and the guys started eating before we come laH~ =/
okie this time i've decided to station at the pit to be the "peng kang-er"
first hand access to all the food! haha nah.. u all know i'm not like that~
den am gg to be my love's bedmate!! yay~ lets hope the nite is cold cos i'll b cranky if i fall asleep sweaty! haha

and then will train the weekends away! sava is coming real soon.. and we are not peaking yet...
and i know myself too... i'm not there yet also!! phoenix lets JIAYOU!! this time we are on a big boat, all of us rowing together! i wanna feel that connection and that empowering feeling.. i want to be overwhelmed by it! lets row with our hearts...

stay focus and we can!

goodnite ladies

Monday, September 19

just now a guy came to our doorstep while we were having dinner and start talking at machine gun's speed.. but i caught all his words.

he's from a basketball team in serangoon. his team is having some financial problem and they do not have the money to go for competition. so now he is going door to door to sell ice cream to raise money to sign up for the competition and buy jerseys.

doesnt this ring a bell??!! i feel for him... i really do.

but daddy said no and he walked away.... =(

i was too late to stop him but if he walk pass my door again, i'll definitely buy his ice cream...

Friday, September 16

sava!!

A special race category has been added! This will be a 1,000m race distance for Men’s and Women’s category only. Top teams which accumulate the most points from the Men’s/Women’s Open & Premier races from the 2 days (based on results) will qualify, thus there is no need to register for this category.
Prize money will be awarded to the top 3 teams of the Men’s and Women’s Super Cup, so do register for both 200m and 500m distances! More details to be announced at the Teams Managers and Steerers’ briefing.


Ooooo see that!!! prize money~!!
if we can win this den no worries abt penang man~
$_$

com' on phoenix! lets work hard for the money!!! hahaha
and this is the FIRST RACE that has women 20 crew!!
so yah lets go for a WIN!!!

*excited*

i hope polymers and composite and properties of materials can excite me too...
boo!

chionging ah nam's tmr
den off to pasir ris for dear gracie's 21st!

Sunday, September 11

november rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking awayIf we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love methen darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
And when your fears subsideAnd shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
-guns' and roses-
been on repeat mode on my playlist.
i love the ending.. the guitar solo...

hello.. heLLO???!!!!

do you like it to have people counting for you while rowing??
do like people to echo you when u start the count??

i like it... thats why i do it for people.
wat comes around goes around
dun take things for granted

it means more than just coordination..
we all understand that
you know how good it feels when hearing it on boat
but some may not know that she is panting like hell
cos she's rowing as hard too
it doesnt matter where u sit..
is if u want it or not...

there's many pairs of eyes watching us now
are we setting a good example?

okie am whining


cos it has crossed my limits...

Friday, September 9

bu shuang!!

today is v bu shuang day.. been feeling v hot n irritated!
know why??
cos my my top is becoming tooOOOO small for me!!
okie not the shirt's fault..
its me~
getting so fat lah!!
bulking up already...
shall go get more baggy t shirts!

pool rowing was fine...
am at my love's room now..
using ade's lappie!
my love is asleep already..
candice is surfing..
ade is at yufen's room watching horror~!!!
and i'm waiting for ci and ham for meeting...

wat are we meeting abt??
abt the fund raising to penang...
the school has no more money for us!!
the only 10k left has gone to tianjin...
and now we gotta raise our own money to go penang....
evrybody is coping so hard with trng and studies and our own lives..
fund raising thing has to come after examz liao...

okie gotta go for meeting liao...
i'm sleepy le........

goodnite to you
suddenly i miss sentosa...

I WANT BEACH VOLLEYBALL!!!!!!!

haiz where got time for this man....

tutorials... tutorials... trainings... trainings...

nvm~!
i can wait!!

4 weeks to SAVA
8 weeks to examz *wtf*
11 weeks to River Regatta
12 weeks to Penang
okie so its 13 weeks to beach volleyball!!

=S

argh!! 1am liao
i MUST SLEEP now...

goodnite freaks

Wednesday, September 7

MY BERTHSDAY!!!!~

wHeeE~ i'm 21!!
haha been celebrating for 3 days and evrything's sOOoo great~! had lots of fun and beautiful memories of cos.

-3rd september
party at my house! invited all those who are dearest to me. frens that have made me into who i am (so ur noe why i'm so noisy and full of nonsense?!) and frens who i've shared many many happy moments with..

THE BULLY GANG!!!!
thanks babes! all were here!! haha attendence's good. thankx for coming in green! i knew your would surely dress up just for me! all of ur were so preTTty in grEeN =) thankx carol weixin sally for the deco~! haha i still have all the balloons in my house. wasnt a v gd host, luckily bullies are olways self entertaining.. glad ur had fun in my room haa~ ur were so noisy oops i mean lively! that my dad said he olmost gone deaf standing beside ur! wahaha that's my bullies!! rock on ya!!

THE JC GERS!!
they were so funny.. they keep saying they wanna compete wif the bullies to see who is noisier! haha well i wont say its tough fight leh~bunch of crazy gers too..also great at self entertaining! haha OOoo they bought me sunflowers!! hee first bouquet of flowers i receive leh.. its still looking good till today! and thanks for coming in green too!! except for yinyee.. eH i close one eye lah cos u are my dear xiao di! and peh xuan xuan has successfully disturbed quite of lot of them by her disgustingly aromatic burps! hahaha luckily i'm not there! thankx for making alot of noise too and dun worry my neighbours wont complain one.. cos i dunno my neighbours!

THE GUYS!
buddies from jss!! funny people... xinhui bought me 4D as present!! haha 0509.. but din strike leh! guangjin is damn funny.. walking ard talking to my guests that he dont know! haa mayb he's too bored la.. am glad that chin han and chengjie turned up cos initially they have another fren turning 21. they(plus meixiang) are the only ones that got lost while coming! lousy la...=X haa

PHOENIX!!~
haha thankx for being such a good spot, shit jas ben ci yeling ham kailee syl for coming in GREEN!! hahaha thankx for entertaining to my request man! =) sorry gers, by the time ur come, my house is already packed and warm~ luckily the food is good for ur! and the yam seng is wOo~ our style! thanks for making me so red aH... olmost couldnt walk straight liao! OOOo and that nite i got another 'first time'.. ber brought me for a ride on her bike! haha but its jus ard the carpark.. and the 3 super late comers! angie xx kailee came when i finished cutting the cake! but they nua in my room till 3am..

was tiring being a host.. running ard but all worth it!! got praises for the buffet and cake~ *pHew*
eh but i din eat a bit of the buffet man!!! haa dunno how gd it is...

-4th September
a rainy day and we had trng! bRRrrrr.... cold! that day was quite sucky... our sets were rather lousy!
candice den drove us back to jur point for dinner and anderson's!
got home and start to countdown for my bday! haa was excited!
thankx for coming down to be the first to celebrate it with me... =)

-5th September
usually the actual bday will be a lonely one cos all ur frens will assume u wont b free on that day so they will all celebrate it earlier.. mine olmost turn out like that BUT ade and my love date me!! wahaha and shit is a lousy escort! so lousy that she doesnt know anything!! ahaha was trying to trick her to tell me what they are up to.. den they ordered KFC delivery and that kfc person met an accident~ but our food still come anyway! and huimin feasted!! we had ice cream eating competition and the loser team has to do forfeit! haha the forfeit is meant for me lah but i can see shit ting and marlau still try their best to dig in the melting ice creams! haha stupig forfeits lah!! shant talk abt it here! haha... THANKZ stinkies for the party!! thankx for the effort!=)

got floods of smses and mmses.. got wonderful presents!! actually its not so much abt the present, it the effort and time spent trying to choose a present for me that i appreciate most! (cos i know wat's its like to buy presents!!) thankx for spending a part of ur time just for me!!

oh and of cos thankx the rest of the pangs for helping me cleaning up the house and running errands!

fuiki felt soOoooo lOVed =)
thanks for being my fren!
i cant imagine life without your...

Friday, September 2

*guilty*

guanghui went to brunei in may and he sent me a letter, asking abt hows life.
i wanted to reply him but i only managed to write 1 sentence. then it was chuck aside.
the tot of finishing it olways pop up in my mind but theres no action. i tot he may not want to write to me again anymore....
4 months later, he sent me another card wishing me happy birthday...
argh so guilty....
so i sat down and wrote my long reply.

3rd september is simin's birthday. evry year she will send me a birthday card. this year i wanted to send her 1 first, but it olways slips my mind to go buy a card! bOo~

sometimes you just cant have time for evryone. but it makes me feel bad for neglecting them. and i hate that struggle of going or not going...
i'm would like to have time for myself, by myself... but i hardly have the chance these days.
alrite guess it all boils down to time management!
i'm still learning it~


oh yah weilian won!~ i think that is rather surprising... but i really admire his courage! getting over all odds to his dream. i can no longer hear him sing outside jur point, cos he deserved a bigger stage. i wont think it is the audiences' pity that made him today. from the day he entered this competition, he's already on the disadvantage, yet he did his best, cast that obstacle aside and perservered. i think thats what touches people hearts.

fuiki's devil: "and this sunday there's a trial run for the sheares bridge run................hmpf! trial for the whole of 6km in the morning leh~!"


fuiki's angel: "c'mon its for charity! its for the kids! its a good deed! you will sleep that morning off anyway.."

yeah 惠琪有爱心!!

alrite goodnite world.
another week is coming to an end.
freaking fast!


Thursday, September 1

happy teachers' day

another boring thursday in school.. waiting to go for my lab.
today is a meant to be a school holiday~!
i miss teachers' day concert...
JJC ones i vaguely remember but JSS ones were great cos my class went up to perform. haha
i wonder if carol went back jss yesterday..
frankly speaking, i forgot abt it.. sorry~

2 more days to saturday!! more of anxious than excited lah...
later going to buy some stuff like drinks n titbits, gonna pack my stuff cos there are evrywhere! haha (mum been nagging me!) and think that will need to take up alot of my time! i still got 2 tutorials tmr.........

SUPERSTAR TONIGHT!!
I want weilian to win!!
weilian is going to win~!

oh got my first present! its from bro n sis~! how sweet =) din expect anything from them thou.
thanks for the adidas jacket. love it =)

okie i've successfully waste my time till lab!

tata



goodbye tianjin

the picture was painted beautifully in my mind.
a big boat
25 gers going to experience something new together
the whole team gg and it will b sure damn fun
and tot ben can be my hotel roomie
seeing them get drunk
...

then it turn out only the guys are going.. only the guys are invited
why?
she said there's not why.. this is life
oh well.. i know its olways like this..
no wonder yufen and ben and even zee dont pint much hope on the trip in the first place.
its never fair, she said.
i was like wtf lah... i cant stand inequality.
was fighting back my tears.
i tot i can play it cool. i still haf a few more years.
but i cant hide that disappointment.
are we not good enough????!!
i doubt.

den again, shall not arrow it to anyone... (okie, maybe nus)
not the guys team cos they have no say either, they wanted to go just like us. but they are lucky.
not to celine cos she's oso gettting instructions from people up there.
she wanted the WHOLE ntu team to go too...

i can understand her point after that long talk. her job is not easy too...

SO!!!
we still got SAVA!!
big boat too...
i haven race in a womens big boat since penang!

GO PHOENIX!!
maybe 1 day we will make their heads turn...