Wednesday, December 5

life. as i see.

i guess death happens all the time, at this very minute, someone may have left the earth. but oso at this very minute, a baby or babies has/have come to life.

my little nephew asked, great grandma really died?
my cousin replied, yes.
den he asked, where did she go?

my cousin couldnt answer.

when we were innocent kids, we dont know about all these scary stuff or the more worldly stuff, like death, like love and birth.
just having fun in the blissful world of our own.

when we get older, all these came to us. we are unfortunate.

this time, it is the first shock of sudden death of a friend.

this left everyone thinking, life is short, fragile, unpredictable...
there was a saying, "live your day like you have no tomorrow"
i thought it was nonsense, if there is no tomorrow, then I won't be doing what I am doing now.. I will be spending my time with my love ones and say words that i haven say.. donate my savings.. send gifts to frens.. blah. and imagine how depressing it is if everyday you jsut tell yourself that.
but you know, life being unpredictable, meaning an unknown constant and time is a fixed constant of 24hr, only you can decide what to substitute into this function to get an equation that makes sense to you.

often we dream of what we want to be.. but little that we realise that our job is to be what we want to be.

it will be sad if you live your life like a lie.
i know it's difficult, but i olways believe that we can lie to the world, but we cannot lie to ourselves.
just be who you are, becos if you keep running away from yourself, mayb she wont come back anymore on the day you feel tired of being the exterior you. then you look inside but you are unsure anymore and that will leave you more lost than before.
you spent so much effort and time beautifying the temple of your soul, but you forgot to nurture your soul and she became malnutrition.

and you lose the light in your eyes and the spring in your steps.

i dont know how to be courageous. i think i'm never associated with that word! ha
but just dont be afraid to speak up for yourself.
for 20 years down the road, you may not remember all the right things that you have done..
but remember the words or things that you should have.

be like boonsan! i admire his courage to speak his mind, to shout at the starter to hold, because his boat is not ready, to not let anything come to his way that is going to obstruct what he wants to create.

cherish the ones you love and loves you.
becos you really mean the world to someone out there.



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