Acceptance

tog rams Once again, I need to remind myself of this quote: 

grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change

the courage to change the things I can

and the wisdom to know the difference

oh, wait, it's actually different from what I'm thinking.

I need to accept that this is the amount of effort to get the job done.

Getting the job done will make me feel satisfied. 

Getting it done the way I want will ensure that it is likely to be a good job accomplish.

the dilemma is: I'm not sure if I want to put in the time and effort because of opportunity cost. Can I put my time and effort to other better use? 

Past experience tells me that I can't and I won't. This is because I can't let it go. If I choose to not do the job, half my mind will always think about it! it's like always on my mind, running as a background program. I cannot fully enjoy the present and do what I planned. This is totally a 两头不到岸situation!

Let's look at it from the other side. I always aim to complete the job regardless what it takes. I will feel miserable and no life and burnt out cos it's all work and no play and no me time and no family time. Won't be happy either, and soon will start thinking about this topic again. 

So... balance is key. Once again, no surprise. That balancing is the toughest thing to do.

What is the best way to balance this? To achieve personal happiness and desired quality of life.

I think it is to set milestone. Once it's reached, give self a reward. If we zoom in further, we can say weekly we need to achieve a certain target and we "earn" the Friday night and weekend! If Friday is too far away, we can give self a mid week target, to earn the time to log off on time and go work out! 

We need to set up a trade off or exchange rule. Because if the plan is too rigid then it can be easily broken, and once it failed at the early stage then it is less likely to gain momentum.

How can we allow ourselves to have an exchange system and yet do not encourage procrastination? 

hmm.

If I have other events in the week night that I cannot OT, I should forget about wed night workout? Or I should aim to workout earlier in the week? 

I think the latter, of cos. 

I should always plan for something to look forward to Friday evening so as to work hard for the week!

Note to self:

Between do or don't do. Always choose to do it. Because don't do, don't make me happier.