crazy earth

people are becoming crasy. hacking strangers in the streets when you are in a bad mood... or hack your boss when he gave you a hard time.. scary man!

natural disasters everywhere. phoenix is dangerous and powerful. huh.
first in taiwan den Fujian.

I kinda have doubts that olympics can carry on in peace....

luckily its still safe at home.

but earthlings gotta save the earth, somehow. if we are going to extinct like the dinosaurs...

millions years ago becos of volcanic eruption, large amount of carbon are released into the atmosphere, den the dinosaurs cant live and so they died. den they became fossil fuels!

and we found the gold! energy for free!! now we are busy digging up all the fuels and using them and releasing all the carbon back to the atmosphere. HUR.

acutally earth can pretty well take care of herself when she's warming up... like what she did to the dinosaurs! haha...

oh well... SAVE THE EARTH!
recycle papers.
conserve energy.
switch off when not in use.
go public.
increase the air con temperature.
don't take plastic bags when you have your own bag.

every little ways help :)
let's go green

beeeeen a longggggggggg time...

hello. my blog was so dead for 2 months as i was busy trng and trng for the 2 months!

and its all over now. the days just ZOOoooM and everything is history already.
firstly, I'VE GRADUATED FROM PHOENIX!
i can't believe it... 4 years and i'm done with NTU.. *sob*

events of the last ju ne ra ce still fresh in my head. even thou its over but they just keep replaying whenever i'm stoning. honestly, there is still a tiny ache in my heart. we didnt get our hands on that damn cup. jq was telling me... this feeling will never truely go away until you see your team win it back. becos that was how he felt, the defeat they had last year disappeared as they crossed the flags. congrats to the guys team!!!!

never give up.. never give in...
i was watching the P M video just now and it just refresh everything at this hour again.
BUT it was a good fight. being with the gers for this sem was memorable. from that M R till this ra ce... everyone worked hard! i'm so proud of some seniors who come out of their own shadows and in the end gaining and learning more. towards the final show down, i could feel the whole team walked in the same pace. i have to give the year ones credits to this too, becos their attitude made a difference to the whole team. they are very cheery and positive bunch! and their feat in the final is WOW. they really showed me ONE HEART.

way to go gers! you promised to win it back next year. hurhur. yea some did told me that. haa. i should have filmed it down. (like wat i stupigly promised to join alumni in one of the video! hur)

ah hee was right, he said, you dont win everytime so most importantly, you have to enjoy it.
I truely enjoyed that journey esp that last 2 months. even thou we had problems here and there but everyone come together to solve it right on time.

and meiyan asked me if i'll miss all of these before the ra ce. I told her my task is not over yet until ra ce end and i know i have to move on from here.

now i really have to move on as the time never waits. i will be starting work soon on the 14th. and will be training with them before i start work! ahha so it is still back to sd ba... and i can still see the gers! heh

anddddddddddddd i will join the alumni as promised... years back!!

but not so soon lah... i gotta figure out my plans on the work first and take a little break from the sun and i'll be BACK!!!!!

these few days, i've been sleeping and sleeping cos i'm feeling so tired and restless...
and i seriously cannot stand the sun. hahaha
and my voice just came back and i dun feel like talking much... hur.

maybe its all part of pms too!!!!
boo.

alrite back to my nora roberts. and its the last book of the trilogy. i'm getting withdrawal syndrome again......

I LOVE PHOENIX!!!!!

mannnnnnnnnnn...

can i stop sweating in the nite!!!
its so so so so freaking warm!

okie i shall go hide in my air con room now.



SO MANY THINGS TO DO EVEN WHEN ITS THE HOLIDAY!!!!
so weird!!

where did my time go???

I AM BACK!!!!!!

with a once in a lifetime EARTHQUAKE experience.
OMG~

okie i will not go into the details but just to share what i felt.

I FELT NOTHING!

seriously. when the earth shook at 2.30pm on the 12th, i dint feel anything, my whole bus did not feel anything either! we just had our lunch and were about to head to the next destination. (maoxian, which is 70% destroyed, 100% damaged now) and there were like few thousands aftershocks. i dint feel it either!!! when there are ppl who felt it. i guess tahts becos of trng, you know we are olways rocking on the boat that i get so used to slight shaking. hur.

we did not know how serious this quake was until we watch the news and met ppl who witness the ordeal. what they told us reallly scare the hell out of me, and i can only say that we are lucky. we are so so so blessed. you know at this point, against a natural disaster, i can only pray to god. pray to keep us all safe...

earthquake is so far from me and all of us from spore. i guess we dont know how to react to this. thank god our sichuan tour guides are smart and quick! i'm really full of praise to xiao jing!!
this quake is a shock to sichuan ppl too cos the last quake was in 1933, 75 years ago. the ppl of this generation has never thought of that danger. you know it is so ironic, we are supposed to visit the remnants of the quake that hit wenchuan 75 years ago! faintssss to the max.

i met some beijing tourists at the jiu zhai gou airport, when we are all rushing to fly to chengdu or chongqing and to return home. they shared with us their experience and it is SO FREAKING SCARY! when the quake happens, the buses and cars in front of their bus were crushed by rocks rolling down the mountains!! they literary saw the bus being squashed and 39 passengers were inside, 37 dead....... they only managed to save 2 of them. so scary and the rocks and rolling down in front of them and behind them~!!! but their bus survived.

i told dad, they are more lucky than us bcos they are in such a dangerous situation and they were unharmed! but dad says we are more lucky bcos they faced the quake, they seen death, they suffered fear and emotional trauma. comparatively, we are save from all these. and i have to agree.....

vesak day is coming and i am going for my annual 三步一跪, to thank god for keeping me and my family safe.

i hope sichuan can get more help and save more people under the rabbles... and rebuild the province again.

四川加油！！！

i am flying off again

yooooo. i thought i was jus back from BKK...
and now i am flying to CHINA tmr!

FAMILY trip sia.
FIRST time in 24 years, seriously.
that we are going to somewhere other than msia

and the packing is a crasy. everyone is going to carry one luggage
cos we will be gone for 10days.
and packing is really madness.
with mum nagging...
with bro crasy-stupig ideas
with the living room in a total mess!

but oh well, we are done with packing
and OFF WE GO TMR!
i guess it will be fun :)

just hope my period wont come to disturb me.
i dun mind it coming but dun gimme too much trouble yea.

and so gonna miss darling.......
i still remember my 1st china trip with him and grandparents!
hee

okie. i gonna slp.
everyone have fun in spore.
enjoy training camp!

i'll be back in a while.
tata

I'M GRADUATING

IN A PAPER'S TIME!

oh my god. my last exam paper in NTU!
it does have a weight in my heart...
cos suddenly, i tot i felt a tiny jolt when it is going to be my last paper...

hur.
i'm am so going to regret why am i blogging when i should be spending every min of my time studying for my last paper!

heh. OPEN book thou but it's not gonna be easy. the prof is very tricky you know!

anyway.
I am flying to BKK with 10 other teammates. but in 3 flights.
haha really majiam Amazing RACE!

the last team will NOT be eliminated cos this is not an eliminating round.
and its becos i say that. haha

ehhhh but got another stone weighing on me now.
Thats's the honours issue.......
i dun think i will get good honours.....

that is so freakingggggggggggggg sad.
BOO.
okie i'm done.

i'll be back on friday!

unblock my nose!

its very late now, or it can be very early now.
anyway i nap from 10pm to 3am. haha

suddenly having slpy spells!
eh super restless these 2 daysss
like super. so fast its nearing 28th~ my 2nd last exams paper in ntu lo.
super restless bcos my nostrils are giving me problem. they dun seems to be working as normal.

as i just realised last year that every time only 1 of the nostrils is working.
i conclude that my right nostril is the master nostril just like
right arm is my master arm...
right eye is my master eye~ haa
nowsdays or nowanights.. my left nostril is doing the work while i sleep and its not doing a good job, seriously!

cos i only remember me closing my eyes den after awhile i hear my parents wake up in the morning. and shit man, i haven sleepppppp.... RAR
it has been for 4 nites i think.. damm
but a little fong you do help. heh
but its really disturbing to have blocked nose.....
makes me restless and cannot concentrate.

okie i think i better go sleep for now. since i dun feel like studying and at this time i shld be sleeping....

piece of shit, me.

nu

i am preparing for my open book exams and at the how stu ff wor ks we bsite.
then something caught my eye.

How Women Work.

Faints.

so women are categorised as stuff... hur
but after that i found that they have how men work too.
ok so fair enough..
if not the feminist in me is going to ROAR. haha

ok den i read the articles.
women tend to be angry for longer period than men.
and women are more likely to take revenge through subversive methods, in the form of gossips.
hurhur.

oh well~

i'm weird because

i love to stare at washing machines.

i love to look at how the clothes are being spin and twirl here and there. ha

i dun eat alot of things. before i even try them, i know i wont enjoy. heh

i love to look at the rain, the smell of rain.. especially thunderstorms! because i'm all excited to spot a lightning. heh

i love to sit in the car and zoom pass the roads that's flooding. because i like to see big splash!! i got splashed before thou. it was quite funny~ haha

i need to sleep in the dark. like totally darkkkkk...

music makes me feel good. i'm more of an audio person than visual.

i have imaginary frens!!

kidding.

*sob*sob*

boo hoo

i'm so sad.

i hateeeeeeeee maths and watever thats related!!

i.e. STATS

sobsobsob

anyway

very dead for QC on 16th.

unless a miracle happens....

FIGHT ON TILL THE END!!!!!

I MUST!

i'm a piece of shit man.. seriously...

just wan to get over it!!

some quotes that tickle me.

Some people find fault like there's a reward for it.
- Zig Ziglar

Not doing more than the average is what keeps the average down.

– William M. Winans

If everybody is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking.

-Mark Twain

Behind every great man is a woman rolling her eyes.

- Jim Carrey

pricesss going UP

yea prices of rice keep going up and up and it has been on the papers and news for many days..

and every thing that has to do with rice will go up too.

faints

they rise the prices by 20 cents.. 50 cents... blah

but the prices of 1kg of rice only increase by 30cents.

so did i eat 1kg of rice worth at one meal??

hmm i shall eat at home den..

dam the price hike.

yea

Happy Anniversary dear :D

thank you.

I Love You.

boo

tutu's gone again...

i'm having my cramps again...

my exams is coming again...

i dint prepare well for my quiz again...

found gems

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No.. who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .

God : Pain is inevitable able, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you! are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!

i've seen this email quite some time ago. i find it very motivating. but after awhile i forgot abt it... but reading it again i found new things to understand.
dun really need to care who is the God who wrote this... but it does make great sense!

experience is really a hard teacher, i freaking failed her test everytime.

I GOT EXAMS next WEEK.
can you believe it~~

RAR.

a planned attack!!

i was spending my day at home as usual...
doing my work and den i heard noises in the kitchen..
i was in the living room, at first i tot it was just the wind that blew something down to the floor.
but it continued for quite long so i stood there to listen.
den i decided to check it out.... <--- (adds in the typical shark's coming music in JAWS)

i walked to the kitchen and i saw a black bird with yellow beak standing on top of my basket of fruits!!!!
it was happily poking the applessss!!
at first i tot it flew in by accident.. so i was afraid that it was chua sai if i try to shoo it away.
so i moved slowly towards the kitchen door and wanting to close it to prevent it from going crasy zooming around my whole house.
but to my surprise!
as i walked nearer, it flew to the window at the side and stood on the ledge and turned its head to look at me and flew out of the window to the tree outside!

and then i knew that it was a PLANNED ATTACK!!!
it wasnt by chance that the bird flew in, it came in with an intention!
oh my god....
birds nowadays.....
tsk tsk

and that bird ah.. happily poked all the 3 apples in the basket. it cannot just poke 1 of the 3 meh???

roar.

uhuuuu~

met up with the stinkies just now and it was a great gathering! lots of gossips to share and updates. but most of the time its still work and fyp... haha final year students fav topics ok!

the coffee club is really a good place for gathering i think~ heh cosy and comfy!

pics i do not have wor.. next time ba.

and the carniv al is GREAT!

because i get to row!! :D
because it is only 250m! (meaning i can last 250m! hurhur)
because there are game booths for us to play!
because when we win the game, we get free gifts!!!
because we get free tattoos.
because the race tee is nice and every thing's free~
they are really willing to spend for their company's event..

this was my 2nd year there and it was much more enjoyable cos last yr i was all aloneeeee... i even eat lunch at one corner lor.. heh

sucky ankle is coming back!!
RARRR
please leh... dun like that...
:(

okay, some thoughts here.

people who are good seems to be good in everything.
things like, nobody is perfect... you have areas that you are strong at.. you haven found your niche.. blah
mayb are words to make the not as good people feel better.
OR they are excuses for the not as good people to not work so hard..

hmm but my world there isnt any super duper smartie all rounded talented shitass. haha
so i'm happy in my world :)
just that once in a while you will hear abt these people.
ignorance is bliss.... (does it count?)

BUT ignorance is the greatest error in the whole wide world! [1] <---- haha i got citation sia... result of fyp overdose.
if you think abt it.. its true..
the exams questions that you cant answer is becos of????
the times when you under prepare for something is becos of????
the times when you were caught unaware and you didnt react well is becos of?????
the times when you do something excessively and didnt know it will harm your body and result to injury is becos of????
the times when you have no idea and just follow whatever someone says and in the end do wrongly is becos of????

ignorance waste time.
knowledge is power.

do you think...
high tolerance links to negligence?
playfulness links to low seriousness?
unbiased links to indecisiveness?


you know there is olways this thin line..
that separates the yes and no, the black and white, the make it and break it.
travelling on that thin line is dangerous.
and pretty stressful.
why dont give yourself more space to move?

mayb becos if travelling on that thin line and in the end.. still makes it!
it will be magnificent.
well i say maybe..
on the other hand, if it tipped over the line abit and... just breaks it.
it will be a disastrous end.

remedy that comes after a big problem may make people feel that alot of work is done.
but..
prevention along the way to not let that big problem of sort to happen is hard work.
but people may not appreciate it, becos in their eyes there are only what they can see..

hais, foolishness and mediocrity of the mankind.

i admire great leaders.

end of 杞人忧天。

:) nite.

References

1. my QC lecturer.

do the ergo man.

seriously it is a good workout. but i hate the cold air that i need to breathe.

got non-aircon ergo??

i think this song is amazing

杨宗纬 - 洋葱

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现
你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我看到我的
全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你
有一秒专属的剧情

作词／作曲：阿信(五月天)

you know i never thought that an onion can be used to descibe something.. or anything~
this song did it so well~~~
i especially likes this part..
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪

i mean its damn true la but its for another reason..
只要你能 听到我看到我的
全心全意.

song writing is interesting!
oh well, i hope i can really fulfill my piano dream once i started earning my keep :)

2 things that i want to do after graduation!
PIANO & TENNIS!

i want to have a second chance to learn them again.

but sometimes, there isnt olways a second chance...
only when u lose it, you will start to miss it.

CHERISH YEAH!!!
i have to keep reminding myself that!!!
its so easy to take things or people for granted... :(

YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FINALLY I AM DONE WITH MY FYP REPORT!!!!

UP NEXT: FYP PRESENTATION
AND MY VERY DEAD QC.

DAMN.

BUT STILL....
I'M AM GOING TO BE HAPPY FOR THIS WEEK!!

:D

once again...

i miss tutu..

somebody to love tutu?

i miss tutu very much...

staring at the cam, what you doing?


staring even more, why you keep taking pics of me!



tutu asleep~

tutu's fav carrots! and i don't allow snatching, must eat from my hand. heh

tutu on the litter pan, shitting.

tutu drinking!
check out the tiny paws.. hee


boo.

he will come home one fine day!

:(

boo....

i miss tutu...

):

ytd was sitting around the dining table having breakfast mum.
den daddy was standing beside me...
daddy has fatty liver bcos of too much alcohol in the younger days.
so he just went to see tcm for some chinese medicine to "nourish" the liver.
den i saw the spots on daddy's arm... the kind of brown spots that old ppl will have.
i asked daddy, "aA~ ah pa why u have these spots???"
daddy replied, " old liao lor... you are not the little qiqi anymore also rite.. so i'm growing old too.."
me: boo, i feel like crying...
i dun want daddy to be old.....
i dun want mum to be old too..
(-_-)

BOO i DON'T WANTTTTTT!!!!
i don't want them to grow old.
and i still feel like a little ger with mum and dad...
hais and i still so feeding on them for like 24 yearssss....

i better start earning money!

Well I was there on the day

They sold the cause for the queen,

And when the lights all went out

We watched our lives on the screen.

I hate the ending myself,

But it started with an alright scene.

Because the drugs never work

They're gonna give you a smirk

Cause they got methods of keeping you clean

They're gonna rip off your heads

Your aspirations to shreds

Another cog in the murder machine

secrets and lies

return me my freedom.

its cryin' out loud.

the rebel's asleep.

the inner child's sad.

the human is not doing a good job.

my peace.

life has been disturbed for some time.

makes me doubt if i was right.

i hate the way it makes me feel.

it makes me hate me.

l long for the peace and

the pure happiness that was once with me.

i have to save me.

for i created this poison.

for that single day,

it starts today.

i wish....

to see the WORLD!
to churn out that fyp report ASAP!
to start studying for my last exams.


i wish to sleeeeeeeep.

argh`

dam the ants crawling out of my lap top!!!!

i hate antsssssssssssss

hmmm

there are many points of view to a single issue.

the ache.

dehydrated in the nite

i think my lips are cracking at the sides.

i fight it with all my might

to realise it is me from inside.

watever that i demand

may be something i cant delivery.

why are they hardly on the same line

so that i can cease the fight.

when will it be fine?

teachings.

看破

放下

。自在

be glad someone hurt you.

be glad someone anger you.

be glad someone lie to you.

because they give you a chance to forgive and forget.

as dad explained it...

but seems hard to me. it will be great if i can thou. :D

seems like i dun have a proper post on my blog for a long time..
ok got 1 lastest discovery thou.

TUTU IS A GER GER! ahha
all along i tot its a boyboy leh.. thats wat the ex owner told me.. heh

tutu is dam cute now cos the groomer cut 90% of her long fur away! she shrank by 2 times her size.. was so 心痛 when i saw her after the fur cut. heh like so pitiful to become soooo small~ but when she start scratching me again..

i woke up.
this is still the bad tempered TUTU!
but still i bought her biscuits treats.. (cheap cheap 5 bucks thats why..) haaa
and i'm got a membership with the pets lo ver ce ntre~ yeah

check her out!

ok i'm getting boring.. other than my rabbit there;s nothing else
except FYYYYYYYYYYYYYP
its qutie amazing okay. it can keep nagging in my mind and keeping me stressssss for weeeks!
dam.
blah blah blah.. lots of shit regarding fyp but not interested to recall abt them now.
:)

hmm seriously.. i dun have much thoughts alrady.. haha
i cant think of things to write here!
my poor mind inundated by freaking fyppp.

亲爱的那并不是爱情 - 张韶涵

教室里那台风琴
叮咚叮咚叮嚀
像你告白的声音
动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信
转身离开的背影
喜欢你字跡清秀的关心
那温热的 牛奶瓶
在我手中握紧
有你在的地方
我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马
在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景
你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎麼美丽也只能是曾经
太美的承诺因為太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明.

nice song. such a sweet start with a sad ending.... you listen to it and you will know who wrote it.

词:方文山 曲:周杰伦

haha from wailai...

ARGHHHHHHHHH.

end my misery

QUICK!

so DEEEEEEAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDD

and the days are flying awayyyyyyy


and i still freaking fallll sickkkkkk


booo


i just wanna whine and sulk.


no day no night


i cannot


bad healthhhhh


fug.

my tutu is a TORTE SWISS FOX!

so coool huh.

its rare leh...
heh

i actually miss him... wanna go home and play with him :)

my fyp SUCKS
and i so dun feel like doing it....
PLS START
PLS START!!!!!!



KILL ME.

MY FREAKING POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR FEET

Custom-made arch supports are more commonly known as orthotics. People with flat or over-pronated feet should take notice here: orthotics really do help. Like eyeglasses, orthotics can be expensive when custom-made, but if they're well fitted and in a proper set of footwear, they're worth every penny.

hmmm... yea they cost 380 buckssss!!!

my ang bao money is flying away.

this is sooooo cute!

so sweeeet rite~ hee but this is not my rabbit..





Rabbit on leash!!!! i wish i could walk the rabbit toooo :)

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitchy!

RAR

self doubts killls the team.

i dunno how to make u strong.

but you gotta start making urself strong.

time is running out.

things on my table

darling's photo frame :)

darling's sports man of the year award :)

sally's absolut pears mini

my vichy sunblocks

music that filled the air is Disenchanted by MCR (i love the start man)

mickey mouse calendar from cousin from japan

another calendar from dad :)

nin jiom pei pa koa (my fav)

evening primrose oil from mama :)

guylian choc from angel who flew away

bro's alarm clock

vit c effervescent from the doc

a radio from dad's company

fyp samplesss (freak)

goggles! (i'm into swimming lately ok)

darling's random issue of Reader's Digest

a banana for breakfast (my fav fruit ok)

many notes but on the top is advance biomaterials (i like ok, cos is singaporean lecturer!)

ok back to tutorial.

whee ITS FRIDAY!!!! (cos its the weekend)

boo ITS FRIDAY!!!! (cos one week closer to dead line of fyp)

in love with this song.

我们都该 回头看看 来时路

就算起风 偶尔有雾 模糊不了幸福


我们都该 再心理数数 感动的次数

谁陪你疯 谁陪你笑 拍拍肩一起追逐


多少爱错过了才看清楚

多少事无法弥补才认输

多少次以为找到了幸福

却发现一开始就是个错误


每一断路 都是一种领悟

珍珠再夺目 留不住心头热乎乎

真心的鼓舞 能温暖一生的旅途

每一断路 难免荆棘密布

把坚持牢牢握住 不怕艰难险阻

学会去爱 就不会迷路

- 路 -
唱：迷路兵
词：乐声
曲：乐子

such a touching song
makes me tear!
well written.

makes some sense to me

If you keep doing the same things over and over again, you're not going to learn anything new. So today, you owe it to yourself to mix up your usual routine and delve into some foreign territory. Whether you simply take a different route to work or decide to embark on a whole new career altogether, your day will be a lot more interesting the more you alter your usual method of doing things. Flexibility is something you have to exercise every once in a while, or else you get stuck in a rut.


the new year awaits!

happy new year

FUG OFF!!!!

fugging pissed me offffffff!!!!

Personality Psychology
About the Statements
The items are all taken from the International Personality Item Pool, using the 100 question Big Five personality test which is available in the public domain. The Big Five personality traits (openness, conscientiousness, extraversion, agreeableness, neuroticism) were discovered more than 30 years ago, and have been found to be extremely consistent for people even when the test is retaken years later. Thus, they represent a stable part of what it means to be `you`.

Openness
Openness to Experience describes a dimension of personality that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They therefore tend to hold unconventional and individualistic beliefs, although their actions may be conforming (see agreeableness). People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.

Conscientiousness
Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany. Conscientiousness includes the factor known as Need for Achievement (NAch).
The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy (i.e. dull, boring, unimaginative).

Extraversion
Extraversion (also "extroversion") is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.
Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and less dependent on the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and more time alone to re-charge their batteries.

Agreeableness
Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others`. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.
Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others` well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others` motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.
Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.

Neuroticism
Neuroticism, also known inversely as Emotional Stability, refers to the tendency to experience negative emotions. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in Neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic`s ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.
At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in Neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.

i refuse to do FYP!

bahhhhh!

so demotivated to do the freaking FYP!!!!!

ARGHHH

its suppose to be holiday!

i just want to find things to do except my project!!!

boo :(

dun want
dun want
dun want
dun want
dun want
dun want
dun want.



hais there are just times we have to force ourselves.

my rabbit!!!

hello everyone! this is tutu! :)
he is a very naughty rabbit, that's all i can say.

this is him, resting behind the sofa. if he's not here,

he will be tearing the newspapers or try to chew on something!

-argh-

but sometimes he's sweeeet~ :)

cos he love stroking.. hee

he loves that pack of food~ heh

Sorry, blame it on me

nice tune. i like.
but i think its crasy to apologise for something that yet to occur.. hmm
aren't you suppose to stop it from happening??!
what's the point of saying sorry when you did not make an effort to stop it from happening??!!
madness.
dun really agree with this song, even thou there are parts that its quite sweet, but it totally lose it if it's just saying sorry and no aftermath.
i think i'm not the kind who will clear up people's shit.
i think you have to clear up your own mess yourself.
hur. but still. nice tune~ haha

life. as i see.

i guess death happens all the time, at this very minute, someone may have left the earth. but oso at this very minute, a baby or babies has/have come to life.

my little nephew asked, great grandma really died?
my cousin replied, yes.
den he asked, where did she go?

my cousin couldnt answer.

when we were innocent kids, we dont know about all these scary stuff or the more worldly stuff, like death, like love and birth.
just having fun in the blissful world of our own.

when we get older, all these came to us. we are unfortunate.

this time, it is the first shock of sudden death of a friend.

this left everyone thinking, life is short, fragile, unpredictable...
there was a saying, "live your day like you have no tomorrow"
i thought it was nonsense, if there is no tomorrow, then I won't be doing what I am doing now.. I will be spending my time with my love ones and say words that i haven say.. donate my savings.. send gifts to frens.. blah. and imagine how depressing it is if everyday you jsut tell yourself that.
but you know, life being unpredictable, meaning an unknown constant and time is a fixed constant of 24hr, only you can decide what to substitute into this function to get an equation that makes sense to you.

often we dream of what we want to be.. but little that we realise that our job is to be what we want to be.

it will be sad if you live your life like a lie.
i know it's difficult, but i olways believe that we can lie to the world, but we cannot lie to ourselves.
just be who you are, becos if you keep running away from yourself, mayb she wont come back anymore on the day you feel tired of being the exterior you. then you look inside but you are unsure anymore and that will leave you more lost than before.
you spent so much effort and time beautifying the temple of your soul, but you forgot to nurture your soul and she became malnutrition.

and you lose the light in your eyes and the spring in your steps.

i dont know how to be courageous. i think i'm never associated with that word! ha
but just dont be afraid to speak up for yourself.
for 20 years down the road, you may not remember all the right things that you have done..
but remember the words or things that you should have.

be like boonsan! i admire his courage to speak his mind, to shout at the starter to hold, because his boat is not ready, to not let anything come to his way that is going to obstruct what he wants to create.

cherish the ones you love and loves you.
becos you really mean the world to someone out there.

him.

this year's pm cup


the first left on the boat. M R500



see~ when there is a chance, when he is in the pic,
they will do the bg

memories...

boonsan is really someone you love and hate... the things that he says together with his crudeness olways tickled all of us.

and we olways just love to make fun of him, if there is any chance.

a very strong pacer. he has the calibre to yaya papaya..

last sem was his final sem and he had a new camera as a present from his gf,

den he went around taking pictures of sdba, the guys team,the gers team

and he will say.. "for memories!"

that day at the dinner i told him, "boonsan, take picture leh.. MEMORIES!"



for now, he really lives on in my memory forever.

its all so unreal.. this weekend..

the d b community is devastated..


dear friend, I wish that you find peace and comfort in a better faraway land.

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

i will never forget you.




02 07 2007. phoenix hotel.


penang 06.




Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.


greenday - Time of Your Life

dear god...

just sitting in front of my laptop and staring at all the msn nicks and all the news updates.
trying to study for my 2 papers coming tmr and wed.
i prayed that they be fine.
i cannot imagine, he's my fren.
i was hopeful, they can be found, they are strong swimmers.
but the current was stronger.
as minutes and hours passed, i wish the villagers caught them or they were being wash up the shore..
want to know the importance of 1 minute or 1 hour?
maybe now you'll see how big a difference it make or how torturous it is to friends and families..
40 hours already.
they found 2 bodies.
the captain is going to identify his dear teammates.
we anxiously waiting for news here.
but i know we all will not believe anything.
unless it is confirmed.
its slim but there may be a chance.
dear god,
i pray for a miracle.
please. =..(

oh my god

pray to god.

don't take them away...

patriotic

i never like history in secondary school. and i cant understand why my bro loves it so much.
i guess i've misssed out!
history is really quite fun.
too bad i only know how to appreciate at this me.
studying for E & S. and its really something different from all the theories, formulaes, concepts of science.
its just purely about my nation.
i enjoyed studying for it even thou i only attended the last lecture. hurhur..
reading about the history of spore again and i really admire L K Y.
-salute-
the courage, the visionary, the determination to bring spore from a land that somebody dont want to a country we are today.
from 1965, 42 years down the road, from 3rd world to 1st world and having what we have today is really incredible. its really effort and hard work of many.
i think they are desperately trying to convey a message that Spore is a small nation, this is olways our main insecurity. i can understand that worry. in alot of things, size really does matter.
we should be too complacent abt life here. this comfort zone was built by the earlier generations and we are lucky to be enjoying it.

our home is not just where ur family and u stay in.
look at the bigger picture,
it is your country.
stand even further and see,
it is this planet.

protect the environment people!
every bit goes a long way~

hmmm.

"Even if she did the right thing, did she do it in the right way? One of the important things that young professionals should learn as quickly as possible is that how one does something is sometimes as important--or almost as important--as what one does."


so true!

GO WATCH

STARDUST!

because its a very sweet fairytale. and its freaking funny.

fantasy~

beautiful witch~

gay pirates~

funny ghosts~

star~

human loves to gaze at the stars,

but do know if the stars ever gaze at us?

i've found my star :)

ITCHY LEH

RAR.
something is wrong with me.
i have itchy hands
now it is itchy everywhere.
boo
whats wrong???!
i was suspecting its my rabbit.
i may b alllergic to its protein in the saliva
OR
the dust from my "almost black" fan!!!
you know like dust are being propelled down from the fan to my body!
and i feel itchy when the wind blows.
my guess its the dust!!!

i'm going to buy dettol tmr and clean up the rooom.
damm

these few days

hais
these few days supposed to be mugging.
but i'm kinda doing it half heartedly.
-oh well like wats new abt it-
i guess i can NEVER fully absorb the whole of one sem's work.
even if i absorb it, my memory will still fail me.
my brain has low ultimate tensile strength.
constant studying leads to cyclic loading, which is bad too.
low cycle fatigue will lead to plastic deformation.
plastic deformation cause dislocations to move and intersect and decrease crystallinity.
cracks start to nucleate, propagate and grow.
and as they grow bigger, they are more susceptible to further stress and they start to nucleate, propagate and grow again.... blah blah...
GOld is good.
becos it is inert!
good to be stuff in the middle to prevent eating up of one another.
however, the 2 cant gel well too becos GOLD, being in the middle, doesnt really stick to anyone!
bad adhesion.
susceptible to delamination!
hur

this is the kind of thing i'm studying ppl~
and i kinda olways forget the whatever stress.. whatever strain.. modulus..
RAR.
jiayou!!

4 days to exams.

last weekend

was really happening.
i was excited over this race cos we were more prepared for it.
and for me coxing for this race is kinda bad. :(
especially for tertiary... sorry gers.
all along i knew coxing for reg atta is not easy cos you have choppy waters and the damm string to hold and the narrow race course.
boo.
everything can be better after its over...
but at that moment i did gave my all.

but if you think u can do a better job.
den come ba.

i'm planning to go back to rowing. :)
i wanna try, that is...
start slow first to see if my shoulders are fine..
coxing and drumming for the snr boat really makes me wanna join them back in rowing!
alot.
they really really improved.
its so so so heartening!
when i recall the "bath tub" trng session back before last jun race.
wow!
really different.
i did notice individuals who improve too.
strength wise
and rowing as a boat wise.

it is the best when everyone in the boat pointing their paddle at the same precise angle and pulling the water and recover at the same angle again.
i see that from the back.
the highest level of synchronisation.
to get one boat one stroke.

LONGER
HARDER
DEEPER
YES YES YES!!!

NICE~

another thing that make me feel heartened is the new appointment holders!
woo.
goddess
ash
jane.

i feel the 3 of them will compliment and support each other.
a good mix!

a pretty good end to my last reg atta.
:)
now every race is kinda the last.
oh no.

and dammm 10 days to exams
god bless pang.

and i am VOICELESS AGAIN!
hais
3rd time le
boo hoo hoo
seriously i feel better being a cox den a drum.
i feel i contribute more and have more awareness of what is happening around.
cos the cox sees the best.
can judge the situation better than when i drum,
cos everythings seems so opposite you know.
i'm like going backwards!
haha
and i olways scream my throat out...
boo.
i'm scared that i spoil it...

okay no talking for this weeeeeeek ppl.
dun be surprise if i dont talk to you.
pls be understanding okay!!!!!!!

alrite peace out to study.
BIOMATERIALS here i come.

我怀念的

想问为什么　 我不再是你的快乐

可是为什么　 却苦笑说我都懂了

自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折

假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸

狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的　是无话不说　

我怀念的　是一起作梦

我怀念的　是争吵以后　

还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日　

也记得那一首歌

记得那片星空　

最近的右手

最暖的胸口

谁忘了

我怀念的 是无言感动

我怀念的 是绝对炙热

我怀念的 是你很激动求我原谅

抱著我的痛 我记得你在背后　

我记得 我颤抖着

记得感觉汹涌

最美的烟火　

最沉的相拥

谁爱的太脆弱　

谁过头爱了

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自古自里走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变执着

谁忘了要给你温柔

还是想要爱你的冲动