the sun is so freaking hot today at trng

seems to drain alot of my energy away.

so tired

hard to even open my eyes

did standing, backbreaking

brokeback

den am feeling numbness when i row

and after trng.

=(

save MEeeeeeeee~!

oh but this morning i had a good breakfast! haha

french toast.. wHee~

ai xin breakfast! yum

=)

cooL~! back with us =)

hope i did not make her nan zuo ren..

more relieved after making the decision.

train hard train hard...

they are training real hard too...

teams to watch out for..

wOooo

its really different now.. with THAT cup ahead.

anyway i'll keep an eye on my gers.

jiayou yea~

leaving penang next thurs!! wooo

meeting him for first time this week..

finally~

stay on the path.

i respect you damn alot.
i listen to evrything you say, and you olways make sense to me.
given me lots of encouragement along the way.
gave me strength most importantly.
a big influence to me.
but things i hear now.. make me dunno wat to say..
dun really agree but i dun like to force my way on others.
den again... we create our own lives rite.
sometimes i guess we just forgot wat made us choose that path.
back then.

trng.. so far so good.. at least i can see them putting in effort. althought on weekdays we can only fill 1 boat. but i can feel that all hearts are in the boat. thats wat i need. i dun need alot of ppl with some of them just coming here but left their mind somewhere. helping each other to achieve wat we want. thats the focus.

some ppl left the team after wat i said to them after trng. hmm for me, i think family still comes first, when ur family needs you to be there. i can understand. din mean to chase anyone away. like i've said, i wont leave anyone behind, unless u dun wish to move. attitude matters alot. with that big cup ahead, with the time left, with wat we have lost, we can't afford to stop evryone and hoax or pacify anyone. we have to all move along. hope they understand.

okie i realy seems to have thousand and one things to do!!
delivery 5 doppys to my sch
sell my other doppys!!! desperately... okie how abt a MOTHER'S DAY SPECIAL!!! 80 bucks for members only!
I"M SERIOUS!!!!! okie shall go send an email later
look for celine to ask abt attire
collect penang forms
transter moneysSs
go for class
go gym
stay home (think ah hee sees me more than my mama!!)
relac
think and think and think...
sleep
i love to sleep!

okie great tmr i have GE~ interesting class abt relationships.
its creative relations for life.
okie soon i'll be v creative haha! (or thats wat jq thinks~)
but fel and i are missing every tue lessons..

eh FEL wheree is my 15,000 happiness????
no wonder i'm not as happy as i should be cos they are STILL with you since xmas can!
haha keeping for the coming xmas izzit?!

okie i'm looking forward to thurs!!
cos we are gg to kuishin-bo!!
dong dong dong!
feasting.
the tot of it makes me hungry now.
shall go to bed.

that i'm so sick of love song
so sad and slow
so why cant i turn off the radio
-neyo

haa yeling sent me many songs!
sometimes when theres no music, the air just feel as still. need the beat to stir up the air!
do you think so?
=)

i've got tonnnes of stuff to update you know..

like my after exams days..

my feelings back to kallang..

my creative relations for life ge..

my busy days preparing present..

my chilling out session with the jc gang..

interesting thing that carol told me abt abt her tarot card readings..

forrest gump is really really good show..

okie i'll update like sOOooon laH~

13th may

Happy bIRthDay dEaR!!

:)

glad you like the presents.

so full from the buffet jus now.

-burpSs- ha..

so full and so feel like sleeping..

goodnite

bunk'in at 5-834

cant study at home..
dun like to study in lib..
new found hide out is.......

ade's room!
first day i came here to study was quite a torture..

eH ade order me to go bathe now!
brb~

okie back from shower..

yah first day here was total agony
cos my aunty visit!
crampssSSS can~
was rolling
whining
tossing
turning for the whole afternoon.
and ade has to go borrow feng you from neighbours
haa

okie den today after a few sneezes in the shower
i'm down with flu!!
damn~
luckily love's clarinase and a 2hr nap saved me.

quite pathetic huh!
boo..
okie back to thermody.
no finish no sleep!!!!

and so sad.. mama think i playing in school =(

to all the singaporean here in ntu now!
poor thing................
haha
home is still a place for me.

pls excuse me

argHHhhhhhhh...

guess wat i wanna say..

yes.. i'm going to complain and whine again..

chui to the max laH!

chui maximization

chuicamania

chuivergence

chuichanics

chui theorem

chuifferential equations

chuinamics

chuifactants

chuitrometry

chuimatography

chuimatrix

chuilibrium

okie this is so irritating..

i hate pang!

chuiest exams ever.

well done.

okie end of whining!!!

MS 2006

THERMODYNAMICS.

here it comes..

pretty weird to have strangers smiling at you.
but its still pretty nice esp when you are not feeling v good.
beautiful strangers =)

one day if you need me
and there are 100 steps between us.
you take the first step to get near me,
i will take all the 99 steps to be there for you.
she said...

thanks babe =)
i'm glad i olways have you.

where'd you go...
i miss you so...
this time it's been forever
that you've been gone...
please come back home~
-fort minor

my say on MyRace500...

the feeling is different when the people sitting inside are pretty much still the same.
why?
are we divided or concerted?
where has the connection gone?
i'm not blaming anyone...
if someone has to be answerable.
i think i'm the one to answer for it.

can i describe this as a phase where many of us lose focus..
lost ourselves..
stuck in moments that we cant get out of..
trying to move forward but our feet just seems to be grounded..

yufen is right. its really time for us to grow up and fend for ourselves.
what will happen when the whole bunch of lao rens graduate?
when they hand over the team to us..
when we have to become the pillar of phoenix..
when we take over their job of nurturing and guiding..
are we, ourselves, stinkies, mature enuff to take it on?

from the day we made up our mind to stay in this team.
each of us are not jus..
Hui Qi, materials engin, yr2.. blah~
there is something else we are carrying with us.
-dragonboat ladies-
we have a name to uphold
a name that we are associated to.
how others recognised you as.
there are things we jus cant do as i like... say as i feel... heck as i wish...
bcos it concerns a team.
we are interlinked
and each of us has that bigger responsibilty already.

what is a good set?
at trngs we have mixture of good and bad.
we try to lock the feeling of good sets.
there is one perfect pace when you feel that your boat just keep surging forward.
the wind blowing against your face.
when you can execute all your point, press, pull, twist and power.
and evryone feels good pulling water.
we had it before and of cos its not evry single set is like this.
but that is wat we will want to achieve.
make it happen more...
so the chances of it happening in a race is higher rite?
the confidence level will be there too...
if out of 10 tries, 2 are good...
wat is the probability of hitting the jackpot when the time comes?
and if in a big boat, you need the whole 18 rowers to lock in that feeling...
tell me how many times do we need to make it happen to have it in each of our memory?
thats the reason we train rite..
and we dont just train, just row...
guess we have to train with a purpose in mind..
we can take comments with open minds
but not just hang around with an empty mind.

we all made mistakes. the 2 days at seletar... lots of errors.
only until the last set of all.
women's open finals.
i really have to give the credit to marlau.
she sat on the drummer seat and made things so simple and clear.
she really has the ability to command the whole boat.
that was the only set that we had all our starts, maintainence and charge done nicely.
you only need 10 strokes, imagine this race only need your best 10 strokes.
all eyes in the boat, all hearts in the boat.
all ears to only listen to 2 voices,
her's and winsten.

wow.

MR500 over. more to come.
we know who to aim already.

for the ger in sweden!

hey i haven got the pics for race yet...
now nobody to send me alrady! haha
nvm i'll hunt them down for it...
show u next time okie. =)

these were my uniquely singapore race pics.
quite long ago liao but latest pics i haf leh~
hhaa

i lUURRRVvvEEe your pics at sweden lah..
you sld be the one sending me!!!
haha

take care babe...

durian at geylang! yum~

posed for xx!! she's at the pit stop..

all of us on the first nite of USR.. (erM minus beN!!!) she's visiting only ahah

told to pose with the lime mag! haha

free entrance!!

at the ending point!!!

at zouk! we had tigers and the little juniors got i-dragons!!

racing...

2 sets only.. one of the least no of sets i went down for a race.
graduated from mixed school~!! ha
seeing them go down..
den sort of nostalgic again..
it was actually quite fun..
haha
(yah its olways fun when its gone wat)

seen ntuc, seen nus..
hmmm tsk tsk...
strong opponents yea
but dun forget we are all fighters!
no matter wat we will give them a tough time against us too.

theres has been many shits going on since the start of this year
but i still believe if we keep our faith, THAT desire and hunger
and believe in our front pack, mid pack and back packers.
we can do it jus like before.
but dont ever separate the 3 packs...
we need to feel and row as one to be a boat.
she alone is not enuff.
thats why we are a team.
phoenix.
where i belong.
where our heart and soul lies
still.

PHOENIX SA!

MR500 day 2.
watch it~!

my mp3 player spoil!!!!!!!!!!

sorry bullies =(

eHHhh no more music to my ears...

cant block out the world when i'm travelling..

you know the 179 at evening time is damn noisy.

oh man... i'm starting to become a naggist and complainist liao

haha

aHh watever... i cant stand myself too! ha

no more tears yea... haven seen you happy for some time.

on a more serious note!

MR500 this weekend... going there with an open mind thou..

row row look look see see... and enjoy it (like wat ah hee olways say)

by now, we all know wat to do.. so just get down and do our thing!

our song

There's a hole in the world tonight.

There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.

There's a hole in the world tonight.

Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.

They say that anger is just love disappointed.

They say that love is just a state of mind,but all this fighting over who will be anointed.

Oh how can people be so blind

There's a hole in the world tonight.

There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.

There's a hole in the world tonight.

Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow

Oh they tell me there's a place over yonder,

cool water running through the burning sand,

until we we learn to love one another

we never reach the promise land.

There's a hole in the world tonight.

There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.

There's a hole in the world tonight.

Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.

hole in the world - the eagles