attachment is good stuff. really expose you to the world itself. and Engineering is a world of its own. I never thought anyone can talk using all the technical terms in daily conversation. olways thought the things I studied are kinda not-of-much-use but they are really needed when you go to work. engineering is really specialised, you need to have the knowledge man! it can be quite interesting AND dangerous! Life at risk man, especially in the lab. danger is lurking everywhere. conc acids, mis handling of machines the cut, grind or send a current. even the air you breathe and the things you touch can be harmful. -scary-
i cant understand how can all the engineers just sit in front of their computers the whole day and not doze off!! heh one hour at the desk, i'm gone!
and today i got ang bao!! whEEEe! and 4 kums. heh got a CNY lunch next week too! so nice..
but the engineer who taught me alot of things are going for his post grad soon.. boo..
no more singaporean left there in the department already.. siannnn
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starting of this year, i realised i'm 23 this year. freaking old can. i dont think i'm acting or dressing my age=\ den again i better enjoy rest of my tshirt and shorts days before i really have to grow out of it. my skin is the new worry! i got winkles and freckles. *screech* i'm using sunscreen now. i dun wish to have pre mature aging skin! take care ppl!! the sun is not only baking your skin... heh -pun intended-
appearance and the tangibles aside. whats in you is more difficult to take care. what kind of person you are and what kind of person you aspire to become? whats your principle? how much is your integrity and dignity? somehow time to time, there is this struggle in me to search for answers to myself. in the state of confusion... opinion changes, perspective shifts, focus drifts.. and left me clueless.
at the same time, life open up to me and show me even more. people, problems, situtations, emotions that was never before. alot of time i'm pissed because i cant match up to all these. oh well, read in a book last time. Life Lessons will keep coming back to you until you really learn it one day. If something keep recurring and pull you at your feet, you know you haven get pass it.
for the new year, i still will be praying for peace, wisdom and health.
oh and 1 more thing, LOVE! =)
Love mends the hole in the world.
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PINEAPPLE TARTss!! here i come!
Monday, February 12
Tuesday, January 16
booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooored
bored to the max.
first 3 days at home was peaceful and nice.
4th day i start to feel cranky and i needed some AIR.
went to town to walk around for awhile, it actually feel quite good, so i decided to walk more the next day. den went coxing, not too bad at least there is something to do and people to talk to.
5th day i went to town to walk walk shop shop. i like it when its not crowded with people. even thou it was raining like mad, i still took my umbrella and went out! heh. bought sandals, skirt, shirt, slippers for jq. (oh the things i bought all start with S. haa. ok bo liao)
friday nite was a disaster with the pouring rain. hais. i dont want....
and one week passed with no news abt my IA. ROAR~!!
=(
sat trng was not too bad, better than staying at home. i realised it is olways better to be occupied. too much free time, the mind gets crasy.at trng quite a few of them realised i'm not right. haha thanks for the concern! =)
i think i have been living quite an inbalance life for quite some time already. and when the used to be focus is removed, everything went out of place. it sort of topple and is all over the place.
DISEQUILIBRIUM!
its okie. human learn to adapt pretty well. yup soon they will find the place they belong and i can move on!
so the break now that i'm having is actually not a bad thing! i'm having an extended holiday, without june race, meaning not trng every other day.
*convincing myself...
dont worry, i'm not losing it!! i wont.
just a little more time and some sorting, she will be back.
new on my list.
-------------All American Rejects - It ends tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[Chorus]When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
first 3 days at home was peaceful and nice.
4th day i start to feel cranky and i needed some AIR.
went to town to walk around for awhile, it actually feel quite good, so i decided to walk more the next day. den went coxing, not too bad at least there is something to do and people to talk to.
5th day i went to town to walk walk shop shop. i like it when its not crowded with people. even thou it was raining like mad, i still took my umbrella and went out! heh. bought sandals, skirt, shirt, slippers for jq. (oh the things i bought all start with S. haa. ok bo liao)
friday nite was a disaster with the pouring rain. hais. i dont want....
and one week passed with no news abt my IA. ROAR~!!
=(
sat trng was not too bad, better than staying at home. i realised it is olways better to be occupied. too much free time, the mind gets crasy.at trng quite a few of them realised i'm not right. haha thanks for the concern! =)
i think i have been living quite an inbalance life for quite some time already. and when the used to be focus is removed, everything went out of place. it sort of topple and is all over the place.
DISEQUILIBRIUM!
its okie. human learn to adapt pretty well. yup soon they will find the place they belong and i can move on!
so the break now that i'm having is actually not a bad thing! i'm having an extended holiday, without june race, meaning not trng every other day.
*convincing myself...
dont worry, i'm not losing it!! i wont.
just a little more time and some sorting, she will be back.
new on my list.
-------------All American Rejects - It ends tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[Chorus]When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
Monday, January 15
coming true!
tv shows are becoming real!
the indonesia Adam air crash and nothing can be found!!
LOST!
healthy people these days dying of heart attack!!
DEATH NOTE!
haha
the indonesia Adam air crash and nothing can be found!!
LOST!
healthy people these days dying of heart attack!!
DEATH NOTE!
haha
Tuesday, January 9
hullo everyone!
okie happy belated new year.
mine is not starting on a good note. my ia company withdrew, okay in other words, they dont want me. roar. was kinda sad but theres nothing much i can do thou.. SO, wherever it takes me man! probably be starting a week later, and ending a week later lor. no big deal i guess.. i get to relax now. not too bad you know. stayed at home the whole day! i like staying at home alone when i've been running around too much for the past month. slooooow doooooown.. thats wat i'm pretty good at. haa. do laundry.. listen to my jay chou's cd.. read the papers.. read a book. bumming around at home is good, mum and dad will be happier with me. heh.
and still suffering from marathon aftermath. at first was sprained and strained ankle, now i have bad knees. eh i think a few of us got inflamed knees too. the muscle on the other side of the knee feels like its bruised. hmm seen a sports doc regarding my ankle and actually our bodies can heal by itself provided we rest enough. he's quite funny, he asked me to tell him abt my systematic and gradual and planned and detailed training prior to my marathon. i said, nil. heh den he said, very good.. pls tell all your friends how u trained and give them my namecard.
okie next time, gotta train up for a marathon! den again, i doubt i'll do it again. heh once in a lifetime thing. but completing it really feels quite good. kinda make u feel u can run any distance..
hope the bad knees and shoulder get well soon.
oh yah! my thoughts after i step down. hmm i'll write it next time. gotta go to bed.
tmr will be cooking lunch with (for?) jiaqi. heh gotta get the ingredients in the morning.
Wednesday, December 13
Thursday, November 16
guess what i wanna say.
guessssss.GUESS!
nope, not going to complain abt exams.
i did that every sem.
complain till i'm sick of complaining.
shall live life as exams times and get over it!
not feeling stress thou.
i guess i'll after my first paper.
oh well, i said i'm not going to talk abt exams!
eehhh my race over the weekend.
dint do well.
its okie, we din train for it, we are not aiming this time,exam period mah, its okie we'll try again.
-------CRAPs--------
we suck.
really. that wat i feel.
we cant live in our comfort zone for too long man.
take a look around.
we better catch up.
we better hope we can catch up.
we better TRAIN HARD TO catch up.
it's a cycle.
or not.
it's in our hands.
we are still in the game.
just one thing.
dont forget the moment we crossed the last buoy.
the silence in the boat.
all the pain is to make us remember to come back stronger.
dont forget you said this to me too.
guessssss.GUESS!
nope, not going to complain abt exams.
i did that every sem.
complain till i'm sick of complaining.
shall live life as exams times and get over it!
not feeling stress thou.
i guess i'll after my first paper.
oh well, i said i'm not going to talk abt exams!
eehhh my race over the weekend.
dint do well.
its okie, we din train for it, we are not aiming this time,exam period mah, its okie we'll try again.
-------CRAPs--------
we suck.
really. that wat i feel.
we cant live in our comfort zone for too long man.
take a look around.
we better catch up.
we better hope we can catch up.
we better TRAIN HARD TO catch up.
it's a cycle.
or not.
it's in our hands.
we are still in the game.
just one thing.
dont forget the moment we crossed the last buoy.
the silence in the boat.
all the pain is to make us remember to come back stronger.
dont forget you said this to me too.
Monday, November 6
Sunday, October 29
mummy daddy and bro
holidaying in genting
sister and i
stuck at homeeee
they olmost missed their coach this morning. haha
okie studying sunday.
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seems to feel it slipping thru my fingers.
guess i've neglected it.
but i'm coming back!
suddenly like sudoku.
maybe doing anything is olways better than mugging non stop.
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holidaying in genting
sister and i
stuck at homeeee
they olmost missed their coach this morning. haha
okie studying sunday.
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seems to feel it slipping thru my fingers.
guess i've neglected it.
but i'm coming back!
suddenly like sudoku.
maybe doing anything is olways better than mugging non stop.
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Thursday, October 26
something interesting
do you know our bones need a certain amount of stress to grow?
need to be pressured and stretched and strained!
Hence,
stress make us grow.
because its in our bones!
lalala
i see it coming!
noooooooooo timmmmmmmmmeeeeeeee
dammmmmmmnnn.
goodnites
need to be pressured and stretched and strained!
Hence,
stress make us grow.
because its in our bones!
lalala
i see it coming!
noooooooooo timmmmmmmmmeeeeeeee
dammmmmmmnnn.
goodnites
Tuesday, October 24
retarded or wat.
sometimes just so stoney.
missed the moment
that i should live in.
got stuck.
i think i gotta work on it.
unspoken
sometimes bcos unsure.
sometimes it takes some courage.
gotta bear the consequences of wat said.
oh well, silence speaks a melody of its own too.
hmm.. yet to listen..
watever it is.
to balance is the key.
its really is..
everything.
so let's see.
Tuesday, October 10
this haven happen for a long time!
haven throw my face out in the public for quite some time, but heres one.
was out with jiaqi on sat, den we were walking ard after our carls junior. still holding on the the lemon tea we had (cos it was free flow.. eh jiaqi's idea. ha) den we went into a CD shop looking for sister act 2. was asking the counter if they have it.. den i din know danger was lurking behind me. (ha!) there was a step up behind and i dint know, and i wanted to take a step back. so wat do u think happen next???
i lost my balance and i sat down on the floor and while i landed on my butt... the lemon tea burst. lemon flew out, the straw flew out, the ice jumped, the tea splashed..... OVER ME! ROAR~ and jiaqi just stunned and stare.
luckily i dint pull the whole shelf of CDs with me, haha.
oh well den i quickly siam out of the shop lah.. one kind auntie gave me a piece of tissue thou~ hee
if i'm with the gers, i think they will all burst out laughing rite????!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway i was laughing at myself too~ lalala
and i got a big 'orr chean' on my calf.
but mummy rubbed for me. hee.
was out with jiaqi on sat, den we were walking ard after our carls junior. still holding on the the lemon tea we had (cos it was free flow.. eh jiaqi's idea. ha) den we went into a CD shop looking for sister act 2. was asking the counter if they have it.. den i din know danger was lurking behind me. (ha!) there was a step up behind and i dint know, and i wanted to take a step back. so wat do u think happen next???
i lost my balance and i sat down on the floor and while i landed on my butt... the lemon tea burst. lemon flew out, the straw flew out, the ice jumped, the tea splashed..... OVER ME! ROAR~ and jiaqi just stunned and stare.
luckily i dint pull the whole shelf of CDs with me, haha.
oh well den i quickly siam out of the shop lah.. one kind auntie gave me a piece of tissue thou~ hee
if i'm with the gers, i think they will all burst out laughing rite????!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway i was laughing at myself too~ lalala
and i got a big 'orr chean' on my calf.
but mummy rubbed for me. hee.
CAUGHT
UP!
eh how many days to exams ah??
damn damn damn!!!
got freaking lots of projects to do...
i dun want to be some useless ppl when doing group project..
but den sometimes i just dun have much time to spare for them.
aiyah.
wTH.
mei you ren hui ke lian wo de..
i just gotta run faster and get AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMNIT! BLOODY HELL!
i'm going to pick up speed.
dun talk to me!
Friday, October 6
did u forget to smell the flowers on the way?
sometimes we move too fast,
we missed out the beautiful little things along the way...
sometimes we can slow down,
and smell the flowers on the way,
take a moment to breathe in deep...
but pang...
i think you are practically smelling every flower on the way!!!
get moving man!
ROAR~
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there are some ppl who i really love.
some ppl who i seldom have time for.
they love me too.
thanks for loving me for who i am. =)
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am i missing out?
i'm was very sure i did not.
2 years later, i ask myself again...
the ans,
still no.
because i believe in fate.
if its meant to be, somewhere somehow
it will.
and so i din bother to take the step and stretch out my hand.
for i won't want whatever that we have started to end.
until the very day...
we missed out the beautiful little things along the way...
sometimes we can slow down,
and smell the flowers on the way,
take a moment to breathe in deep...
but pang...
i think you are practically smelling every flower on the way!!!
get moving man!
ROAR~
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there are some ppl who i really love.
some ppl who i seldom have time for.
they love me too.
thanks for loving me for who i am. =)
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am i missing out?
i'm was very sure i did not.
2 years later, i ask myself again...
the ans,
still no.
because i believe in fate.
if its meant to be, somewhere somehow
it will.
and so i din bother to take the step and stretch out my hand.
for i won't want whatever that we have started to end.
until the very day...
Monday, September 18
my sci-fi dream
these days my dreams are getting interesting and exciting! let me tell you abt this dream i had few days back.
it started in a car park and i'm with db gers on a bus squeezing thru the spiral stairs. we are going to take part in a games event. many team were there, from all over the world, this game is like a virtual badminton game. each team has many players and 1 hit can throw the ball far far away! okie den we are at registration level, its super crowded and the rooms are not v big and chaotic and quite run down. haa i'm in charge of the regi but i don seems to find the gers! roar! (ha no lah, i'm not angry in my dream) so i went ard looking for them. so a few of us went down a flight of stairs and we came to this level that totally different from the one upstairs. this floor is clean with marble floorings and its all white and gold. there's only a few ppl walking ard and seems like not everyone can enter. since nobody is there to stop us, we went in. but we were sneaking ard, and we found out a big secret. the organiser is actually a syndicate! they are looking for evolved beings. thru evolution, we are going back to animals. we higher survival skills. the ppl there all hold a torch, and once they shine it on you, ur shadow will reflect wat you are. and these ppl catching those ppl whose shadow show animals. and one of us is a dog!! and we start our escape! haha and the end.
i wake up liao.
of cos i dun feel rested!
but its quite a fun dream. ha
okie i wanna go sleep already.
see anymore weird deeaams....
it started in a car park and i'm with db gers on a bus squeezing thru the spiral stairs. we are going to take part in a games event. many team were there, from all over the world, this game is like a virtual badminton game. each team has many players and 1 hit can throw the ball far far away! okie den we are at registration level, its super crowded and the rooms are not v big and chaotic and quite run down. haa i'm in charge of the regi but i don seems to find the gers! roar! (ha no lah, i'm not angry in my dream) so i went ard looking for them. so a few of us went down a flight of stairs and we came to this level that totally different from the one upstairs. this floor is clean with marble floorings and its all white and gold. there's only a few ppl walking ard and seems like not everyone can enter. since nobody is there to stop us, we went in. but we were sneaking ard, and we found out a big secret. the organiser is actually a syndicate! they are looking for evolved beings. thru evolution, we are going back to animals. we higher survival skills. the ppl there all hold a torch, and once they shine it on you, ur shadow will reflect wat you are. and these ppl catching those ppl whose shadow show animals. and one of us is a dog!! and we start our escape! haha and the end.
i wake up liao.
of cos i dun feel rested!
but its quite a fun dream. ha
okie i wanna go sleep already.
see anymore weird deeaams....
Wednesday, September 13
WOOAH it has been a longggg time!
heLLOOOOOOOOooo
no lah i'm not dead yet. just v busy.
busy with the usual stuff and busy celebrating my birthday! hurhur.
birthday's GREAT!! seems to come faster huh.. i tot i was just 21. ohhh getting olddddd.
thanks for all the smses, its so nice to know that ppl actually remember.
thanks for spending time with me.
thanks for choosing/making a present for me. cos i know for that moment, i'm the only one that fill your thoughts! *grins*
thanks for all the treats!!
thanks for making me so happy! =)
birthday week over. back to hectic work.
my design project is super duper demanding can! to design a visualiser that can read document, play mp3, take pictures and it has to look like a normal pair of glasses that have lens which will switch to different functions at the touch of ur romote control watch with GPS and images will start to appear on ur transmissive LCD lens. FAINTS. my prof seems to be the one who's most excited abt this.
quiz coming up and i know nuts. ha ha ha.
tianjin no more. same old shit man... same old shit that make me sick...
YOU KNOW WAT!! hmm.. blah blah blah.
shall not eleborate here. was super duper mega ultra boiling.
aiyah wtf lah...forget it.
well wo kan kai le.
serious.
timing is not right lah, or not riped? (u know, in chinese..)
nvm, since we are stuck in spore, we shall make the best out of it.
its not a lost.
we have our own objectives.
it may just be a blessing in disguise.
you never know.
hah!
okie going back up to level 4 to study my microelectroniccssss.
booooo.
no lah i'm not dead yet. just v busy.
busy with the usual stuff and busy celebrating my birthday! hurhur.
birthday's GREAT!! seems to come faster huh.. i tot i was just 21. ohhh getting olddddd.
thanks for all the smses, its so nice to know that ppl actually remember.
thanks for spending time with me.
thanks for choosing/making a present for me. cos i know for that moment, i'm the only one that fill your thoughts! *grins*
thanks for all the treats!!
thanks for making me so happy! =)
birthday week over. back to hectic work.
my design project is super duper demanding can! to design a visualiser that can read document, play mp3, take pictures and it has to look like a normal pair of glasses that have lens which will switch to different functions at the touch of ur romote control watch with GPS and images will start to appear on ur transmissive LCD lens. FAINTS. my prof seems to be the one who's most excited abt this.
quiz coming up and i know nuts. ha ha ha.
tianjin no more. same old shit man... same old shit that make me sick...
YOU KNOW WAT!! hmm.. blah blah blah.
shall not eleborate here. was super duper mega ultra boiling.
aiyah wtf lah...forget it.
well wo kan kai le.
serious.
timing is not right lah, or not riped? (u know, in chinese..)
nvm, since we are stuck in spore, we shall make the best out of it.
its not a lost.
we have our own objectives.
it may just be a blessing in disguise.
you never know.
hah!
okie going back up to level 4 to study my microelectroniccssss.
booooo.
Tuesday, August 15
Monday, August 14
boo
okie sch starts and things start sinking in...
so many ppl gone
and i dun see familiar faces in the canteen anymore..
no more,' hey pang lunch?'
my usual hanging kakis are at japan, norway, chartered, Tech, EY, sec sch..
=(
Monday, August 7
sch starts NOW!
sem break for 3 months
going back to sch now
i'm year 3 already.
thats really fast...
yah really fast..
i'm year 3 now.
and sch starts tmr
it has been a long 3 months break.
in her mind:
dont just hear, listen.
dont just talk, speak.
dont just exist, live.
i have questions thats hard to answer.
i olways have things on my mind.
i'm fighting myself, sometimes.
where the foot steps get messy.
something went wrong, somewhere
somehow.
i try to figure out but den issit still impt now?
another life's lesson, to get thru.
i know.
and so
i prayed for wisdom, peace and strength...
going back to sch now
i'm year 3 already.
thats really fast...
yah really fast..
i'm year 3 now.
and sch starts tmr
it has been a long 3 months break.
in her mind:
dont just hear, listen.
dont just talk, speak.
dont just exist, live.
i have questions thats hard to answer.
i olways have things on my mind.
i'm fighting myself, sometimes.
where the foot steps get messy.
something went wrong, somewhere
somehow.
i try to figure out but den issit still impt now?
another life's lesson, to get thru.
i know.
and so
i prayed for wisdom, peace and strength...