Hello~ this blog is still not forgotten!

WOW! we are reaching the end of 2010! the last time i blogged was 31 May.

Crazy fast, this year... anyway every year just feels faster and faster!

how come I'm still the same old me? I was thinking about the achievement I had this year... then I thought there seems to be nothing worth mentioning.

I dream of huge radical changes! but that's just a dream if there's no actions to follow on..

ONE BIG answer i must have is....

WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

There's no point thinking about what I DON'T want because there's just going no way as well.

Been in engineering and I feel this is not me.

It has been a mistake since.....eh... uni? jc?

but it's okay, at that point of time of my late teens, that's the best decision I could make!

Can I get pass everyday like that? Going to work, hopes the day end soon and get home and feeling what am I doing or what have i accomplished and go to bed.

kinda sad, and that's definitely NOT what i wanted with my life!

人生短短几十年。。。what am I going to leave behind and what will I be able to create?

I'm still searching for the answer.

But I believe.... that I will feel passion in life again.

mum has a different idea, in her opinion, everything is good, be happy that there's a job and there are ppl around me who are willing to lend a helping hand when I'm in need.. I should be contented with my life.

Seriously, I understand how she has this mentality... and I agree that it's not a bad life.

But something is missing!

parents are looking at your life with thru their life experiences of what they lack while they were younger...

BUT this is my life. My life is not to fulfill your ideal..

of cos, I do take my parents' words for serious consideration~ I'm still quite a good daughter okay..

okay, I shall continue to seek! and I will find it, god will help me find it.

for now, i shall go to bed and reeessst and get well for the Bully Gang Count down party!!

I got 2 days of MC for my bad throat... :S

FAREWELL 2010.

一寸光阴，一寸金，
寸金难买寸光阴。

we all learnt this in pri sch chinese class right? i forgot the rest of the verse!
Point is, once time is gone, it's gone.

烦！

不知为何而烦。。。

但就是打不起敬。。

是呼醉生梦死。

没有推动力， 不会为任何事而感到兴奋。。

眼前没有了目标，不知要往哪儿看！

jiaqi says this is burnt out.

i think getting the music back to my life can do a little help!

okie, it's monday... fug.

grow up/

it just popped into my head yesterday and it seriously got thinking deep..

That's to spend the next phase of life with somebody else.. to include this man into every decision and thought you're going have.

to build a family with someone you love.. what does it have to take?

firstly there's must be love, of cos.

Next, the added responsibility to be somebody's Mrs. not forgeting the connection of both the extended families. Being the daughter-in-law, grandaughter-in-law.

Finanical committment to fund the assets to be owned together. currently i'm not invloved in the things in the household, mum and dad did everything.

personal living habits. this is gonna be a huge challenge to me. I'm a SleepyHEAD! I have problems waking up everyday... goodness :/ I cant expect him to wake me up every morning right... even god will get pissed, i tell you.
Not forgetting the being last min attitude.. rushing here to there and be on the dot, phew~. it actually has improved a little since younger days but there's still rooms for improvement.

He's sweet, he says he'll still propose to me despite all these. :)

But that's not what I imagine me to be after marriage.

How can you ever be ready?

Yes, Love is like the wonderful thing that can resolve many issues after you understand it but daily problems still need practicial solutions

I can think of kiddy fuiki has to take a step back... Grow up!

Bottom line is I can't be non chalant about many things anymore.

shall leave the thought of being a parent till much later....

新年快乐！！！！！！！

虎年行大运！！ HUAT AH!

hmmm actually dont need to huat lah... just wanna be HAPPY!
HAve a fulfuilling year ahead with everyone dear to me being happy and healthy!

I start to experience the common qn of CNY... When you getting married?

ERms. not hurry man! seriously... Just graduated in year 2008.. haven even enjoy life yet!
Shall have more fun... see the world before stepping into the next phase of life and take on an additional responsibility...

Now.. still got some time to bum around and chill and relax and have fun!

anyways tmr is back to work!!!! 初四开工！！

of cos feeling sians lah!!! total 6 days off work already!!! haha ok lah its time to get back into action!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

don't be a waste of time

grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change...

and the courage to change the things I can..

and the wisdom to tell the difference.


was browsing in the bookstore and happen to see this. quoted by a pastor which I couldn't remember.

everyday is such a madrush now... the things that are piling up are never ending..
sometimes dont even have the time to eat lunch with a relax mood..
sometimes avoiding lunch at canteen to "save" time by working and eating..

now 12hrs seems like a norm :(

all these actions are driven by love or fear?

rushing through the day and forget about kindness that can be rendered to the ppl around..
gone is the human kindness bcos there's "no time"

gone is the ability to listen bcos mind is occupied by what am I gg to do next... does what this person is talking relevant/benefiting to me..

gone is the energy to enjoy some personal time on the weekdays.. get home eat dinner bathe koonz.

searching for a meaning.

crasy madness

pisssssed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hais, anywhere still have to get it done.

JIAYOU!!!!!!!

kick the ball out of your court, FAST!
bcos there's always thousand and one things to do.

and do it right, if not its just going to come round and round and round back at you~

ROAR!

some ppl are just (*$%#!%#%@

its okay.... deep breaths.....

no point holding it to heart.. just wasting energy...

okay get back to the stupig report...

still in the office~

need to be faster!!!

so as to do more stuff in the day!

efficiencyyyyyyy!!

jia you ME!

I WANNA ENJOY THE WEEKEND! :)

time is not CHEAP!

now i realised, time is super precious!
i just realised i shouldnt spend my time on stupig stuff or on not so impt ppl... (sorry to say that)
cos along with my 24+ years of life, i've accumulated quite a long list of impt ppl!!!
which i always wish i have more time with them...

other than time.. ENERGY!!!! even thou its not lost or created..
i've wasted so much of them!
age is catching up :/

gotta be more focus and smarter~!!
LEARN TO SAY 'NO'!!

hmmm, alrite time for bed...
zooooom pass OCT pls!!

laughter in the air!

okie i'm pretty happy that my old CRT blackout and now i'm having a new LCD monitor :D
so big and clear!

last nite had a bday celebration for qlei and jun and as usual i've enjoyed myself.
our gathering is olways filled with so much laughter! there's no quiet moment, think the waitress was pissed with us being so noisy..

after stressful day at work, nothing beats having a good laugh :)

there's so much things to talk about... and when u have siok siok around, she olways got something to talk, non-stop!! haha

alrite, today's is OCTober......

I WANT TO SKIP OCT!!

hais, anyway... like i've said, no matter how hard the day is, there's only 24 hrs and it will pass eventually....

NO REGRETS!!! do your best...

31 days to my holiday... yipppppppee :)

i miss the gym...

keep on movin'

no matter how hard the day is
no matter how long and busy the day is
no matter how sucky the day is
no matter how everything seems to go against you
no matter how much time you spent, you still can get it done
no matter how difficult is it...

everyday there's only 24 hrs,
and it will pass,
eventually.

keep on moving, keep on running.
keep your eyes on your goal and you wont see the obstacles.

hello its back :)

running round & round searching for something better, but actually i already have the best...

so hello, welcome back!

life's a whirlwind..hardly got time to think and reflect and listen to that inner voice...
i feel i'm being sucked to this whirlwind, when i'm just having my own fun, strolling in the park..
events after events... deadlines and deadlines.. sometimes the question came.. what am I doing? why am I doing it? but there's no time to come to an answer... all i can do is to clear mess after mess along the way... but as I clear it up.. I move deeper and deeper into this whirl pool.. when I finally find my answer will it be too late to come out? or it will be difficult to come out since its already so deep..

I dunno, but 1 sentence is true. If you don't plan for yourself, you'll fall into others' plan.

my body is getting crasy.. failing me so frequently..

I want to be there. my heart is there, but my body is incapable.

ermmmms

everyone says good goood eat.

FIGHT ON!! FIGHT ON!!!

I CAN.
I SURE CAN!

It's just if I want it or not.

phoenix spirit!

:/

i care hence i say
if i see and i kept quiet abt it, that's equal to i dont care
i've said my piece, the ball is in your court now.

i've many areas to improve on too, bibi, let's jiayou together.

4 FAT days of MC

First time in 3 months that i'm down with flu again. previously i got my vaccine jab, its pretty good! healthy for 3 months....

and now.. boo, started with sore throat and sneezing and running nose...
and then come the fever!!! oh god

so i really gotta go see the doc...
he says based on statistics, there's 90% chance of getting H1N1 *yikes*
so he awarded me with 4 days of MC!

the first thing i can imagine is the amount of work thats gonna stack infront of me!!! ROAR.

and the fever went on for 3 days and taking that medicine reallly reallly makes me feeel lighhhhhht... airy... giddy.. i have shaking hands and difficultity speaking..

so i went back to the doc, he says the cough syrup and tablet for fever will make me feel light-headed. (double whammy!)

so he gave any another prescription for cough and good old panadol for my fever...

i gotta stay away from my family so as not to spread any flu bug.. boo.

poor jq got the flu bug from me, and he gotta stay home for 4 days too!hur

alrite i better get well sooon! cos i have JI this weekend ( there's no reserve for right) and gotta meet the bullies!

YES I WILL GET WELL!!!!!!!

happy thingssss

havent been here for a long timE!

let me state some things that i've beeen happy about!

phoenix's victory!!!!!!!!!!!! it has been 2 yrs... WhOOOohoOO!

BINTAN getaway!!! its dam cool okie, our villa is wow! right in front of the beach with clear waters and you hardly see people there, so it only belongs to us :D we are planning for one again near xmas!~ hee

catch the GSS! eh i didnt buy much.. only bought books from HaR RI S, some ORIG INs products and a new D KN Y frangrance...

okie guess that's about it so far... haa

time is flying away as usual... from now till next year 1Q, my life is pretty much filled up.. oh and there are many many weddingsssss coming!!!

2 of my cousins wedding in Dec...
1 colleague in Jan
1 colleague in Sept
Shanne in OCT! and i'm going to be the emcee... oh my gawd! hah

jam packED!!!

quote -
why some are finding it hard to stick to their plan? bcos there's always something "more important" that pop up to fill their time..

if you want to achieve something that you've never achieve before, you have to start doing things that you've never done before...

cheers to phoenix spirit!
-keeping it with me-

as i wonder...

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Choose your words, forthey become actions.
Understand your actions, for they become habits.
Study your habits, for they will become your character.
Develop your character, for it becomes your destiny.

arghhhhh

its the lousy feeling time again....
super unmotivated!!!!
or all along it's like that?

just can't seems to remember a shit.
why like that????

i just wanna sulk and stay at home.

OHHHH, the sch bill came!!! so its $362 per months for 72 months!
goodness, my monthly fixed expenditure just keeps increasingggggggg...

sch bill
computer loan
insurance
one installment

yikes!!!

no choice gonna cut down on other stuff.

no meaning lah, seriously. whats the meaning?
tell me?

hunger pangs (pun intented)

i feel like eating....

ROTI PRATA (kosong + sugar + curry!)
XLB (小笼包）
pork knuckle!!
gooood wanton mee... hmm

okie can't wait for dinnnner!
happy cos weekend darling drove us to eat PopEyEs at T3! whee :D
now 1 craving is down.. hur

sian ah, so many things to think about...
I dont wanna to think.
but being lazy feels very bad too...
oh well, can't be happy with life (in general)
but just be happy lah...

ok this is a brainless entry. :D

watever.

ehhhs

decorated with sarcasm, littered with praise.

alive when i sleep, half-dead when i wake.....

zom-

every mondays feel so duh....

definitely having monday blue..

dont wanna think.

thank god, my muscle ache is not as terrible than 2 weeks ago. -heh-

just upper body ache rather than neck to calves that time!!

MR this weeeekend. i'm so going to take leave on MONDAY~

contemplating to take one more on TUESDAY!

hurhur.