why so easily weaver..
by others.
emotion ran out of my hand.
sometimes its drowning me.
i wish i wish to.
apprehend.
i thought i can choose.
Wednesday, December 13
Thursday, November 16
guess what i wanna say.
guessssss.GUESS!
nope, not going to complain abt exams.
i did that every sem.
complain till i'm sick of complaining.
shall live life as exams times and get over it!
not feeling stress thou.
i guess i'll after my first paper.
oh well, i said i'm not going to talk abt exams!
eehhh my race over the weekend.
dint do well.
its okie, we din train for it, we are not aiming this time,exam period mah, its okie we'll try again.
-------CRAPs--------
we suck.
really. that wat i feel.
we cant live in our comfort zone for too long man.
take a look around.
we better catch up.
we better hope we can catch up.
we better TRAIN HARD TO catch up.
it's a cycle.
or not.
it's in our hands.
we are still in the game.
just one thing.
dont forget the moment we crossed the last buoy.
the silence in the boat.
all the pain is to make us remember to come back stronger.
dont forget you said this to me too.
guessssss.GUESS!
nope, not going to complain abt exams.
i did that every sem.
complain till i'm sick of complaining.
shall live life as exams times and get over it!
not feeling stress thou.
i guess i'll after my first paper.
oh well, i said i'm not going to talk abt exams!
eehhh my race over the weekend.
dint do well.
its okie, we din train for it, we are not aiming this time,exam period mah, its okie we'll try again.
-------CRAPs--------
we suck.
really. that wat i feel.
we cant live in our comfort zone for too long man.
take a look around.
we better catch up.
we better hope we can catch up.
we better TRAIN HARD TO catch up.
it's a cycle.
or not.
it's in our hands.
we are still in the game.
just one thing.
dont forget the moment we crossed the last buoy.
the silence in the boat.
all the pain is to make us remember to come back stronger.
dont forget you said this to me too.
Monday, November 6
Sunday, October 29
mummy daddy and bro
holidaying in genting
sister and i
stuck at homeeee
they olmost missed their coach this morning. haha
okie studying sunday.
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seems to feel it slipping thru my fingers.
guess i've neglected it.
but i'm coming back!
suddenly like sudoku.
maybe doing anything is olways better than mugging non stop.
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holidaying in genting
sister and i
stuck at homeeee
they olmost missed their coach this morning. haha
okie studying sunday.
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seems to feel it slipping thru my fingers.
guess i've neglected it.
but i'm coming back!
suddenly like sudoku.
maybe doing anything is olways better than mugging non stop.
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Thursday, October 26
something interesting
do you know our bones need a certain amount of stress to grow?
need to be pressured and stretched and strained!
Hence,
stress make us grow.
because its in our bones!
lalala
i see it coming!
noooooooooo timmmmmmmmmeeeeeeee
dammmmmmmnnn.
goodnites
need to be pressured and stretched and strained!
Hence,
stress make us grow.
because its in our bones!
lalala
i see it coming!
noooooooooo timmmmmmmmmeeeeeeee
dammmmmmmnnn.
goodnites
Tuesday, October 24
retarded or wat.
sometimes just so stoney.
missed the moment
that i should live in.
got stuck.
i think i gotta work on it.
unspoken
sometimes bcos unsure.
sometimes it takes some courage.
gotta bear the consequences of wat said.
oh well, silence speaks a melody of its own too.
hmm.. yet to listen..
watever it is.
to balance is the key.
its really is..
everything.
so let's see.
Tuesday, October 10
this haven happen for a long time!
haven throw my face out in the public for quite some time, but heres one.
was out with jiaqi on sat, den we were walking ard after our carls junior. still holding on the the lemon tea we had (cos it was free flow.. eh jiaqi's idea. ha) den we went into a CD shop looking for sister act 2. was asking the counter if they have it.. den i din know danger was lurking behind me. (ha!) there was a step up behind and i dint know, and i wanted to take a step back. so wat do u think happen next???
i lost my balance and i sat down on the floor and while i landed on my butt... the lemon tea burst. lemon flew out, the straw flew out, the ice jumped, the tea splashed..... OVER ME! ROAR~ and jiaqi just stunned and stare.
luckily i dint pull the whole shelf of CDs with me, haha.
oh well den i quickly siam out of the shop lah.. one kind auntie gave me a piece of tissue thou~ hee
if i'm with the gers, i think they will all burst out laughing rite????!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway i was laughing at myself too~ lalala
and i got a big 'orr chean' on my calf.
but mummy rubbed for me. hee.
was out with jiaqi on sat, den we were walking ard after our carls junior. still holding on the the lemon tea we had (cos it was free flow.. eh jiaqi's idea. ha) den we went into a CD shop looking for sister act 2. was asking the counter if they have it.. den i din know danger was lurking behind me. (ha!) there was a step up behind and i dint know, and i wanted to take a step back. so wat do u think happen next???
i lost my balance and i sat down on the floor and while i landed on my butt... the lemon tea burst. lemon flew out, the straw flew out, the ice jumped, the tea splashed..... OVER ME! ROAR~ and jiaqi just stunned and stare.
luckily i dint pull the whole shelf of CDs with me, haha.
oh well den i quickly siam out of the shop lah.. one kind auntie gave me a piece of tissue thou~ hee
if i'm with the gers, i think they will all burst out laughing rite????!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway i was laughing at myself too~ lalala
and i got a big 'orr chean' on my calf.
but mummy rubbed for me. hee.
CAUGHT
UP!
eh how many days to exams ah??
damn damn damn!!!
got freaking lots of projects to do...
i dun want to be some useless ppl when doing group project..
but den sometimes i just dun have much time to spare for them.
aiyah.
wTH.
mei you ren hui ke lian wo de..
i just gotta run faster and get AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMNIT! BLOODY HELL!
i'm going to pick up speed.
dun talk to me!
Friday, October 6
did u forget to smell the flowers on the way?
sometimes we move too fast,
we missed out the beautiful little things along the way...
sometimes we can slow down,
and smell the flowers on the way,
take a moment to breathe in deep...
but pang...
i think you are practically smelling every flower on the way!!!
get moving man!
ROAR~
-----
there are some ppl who i really love.
some ppl who i seldom have time for.
they love me too.
thanks for loving me for who i am. =)
-----
am i missing out?
i'm was very sure i did not.
2 years later, i ask myself again...
the ans,
still no.
because i believe in fate.
if its meant to be, somewhere somehow
it will.
and so i din bother to take the step and stretch out my hand.
for i won't want whatever that we have started to end.
until the very day...
we missed out the beautiful little things along the way...
sometimes we can slow down,
and smell the flowers on the way,
take a moment to breathe in deep...
but pang...
i think you are practically smelling every flower on the way!!!
get moving man!
ROAR~
-----
there are some ppl who i really love.
some ppl who i seldom have time for.
they love me too.
thanks for loving me for who i am. =)
-----
am i missing out?
i'm was very sure i did not.
2 years later, i ask myself again...
the ans,
still no.
because i believe in fate.
if its meant to be, somewhere somehow
it will.
and so i din bother to take the step and stretch out my hand.
for i won't want whatever that we have started to end.
until the very day...
Monday, September 18
my sci-fi dream
these days my dreams are getting interesting and exciting! let me tell you abt this dream i had few days back.
it started in a car park and i'm with db gers on a bus squeezing thru the spiral stairs. we are going to take part in a games event. many team were there, from all over the world, this game is like a virtual badminton game. each team has many players and 1 hit can throw the ball far far away! okie den we are at registration level, its super crowded and the rooms are not v big and chaotic and quite run down. haa i'm in charge of the regi but i don seems to find the gers! roar! (ha no lah, i'm not angry in my dream) so i went ard looking for them. so a few of us went down a flight of stairs and we came to this level that totally different from the one upstairs. this floor is clean with marble floorings and its all white and gold. there's only a few ppl walking ard and seems like not everyone can enter. since nobody is there to stop us, we went in. but we were sneaking ard, and we found out a big secret. the organiser is actually a syndicate! they are looking for evolved beings. thru evolution, we are going back to animals. we higher survival skills. the ppl there all hold a torch, and once they shine it on you, ur shadow will reflect wat you are. and these ppl catching those ppl whose shadow show animals. and one of us is a dog!! and we start our escape! haha and the end.
i wake up liao.
of cos i dun feel rested!
but its quite a fun dream. ha
okie i wanna go sleep already.
see anymore weird deeaams....
it started in a car park and i'm with db gers on a bus squeezing thru the spiral stairs. we are going to take part in a games event. many team were there, from all over the world, this game is like a virtual badminton game. each team has many players and 1 hit can throw the ball far far away! okie den we are at registration level, its super crowded and the rooms are not v big and chaotic and quite run down. haa i'm in charge of the regi but i don seems to find the gers! roar! (ha no lah, i'm not angry in my dream) so i went ard looking for them. so a few of us went down a flight of stairs and we came to this level that totally different from the one upstairs. this floor is clean with marble floorings and its all white and gold. there's only a few ppl walking ard and seems like not everyone can enter. since nobody is there to stop us, we went in. but we were sneaking ard, and we found out a big secret. the organiser is actually a syndicate! they are looking for evolved beings. thru evolution, we are going back to animals. we higher survival skills. the ppl there all hold a torch, and once they shine it on you, ur shadow will reflect wat you are. and these ppl catching those ppl whose shadow show animals. and one of us is a dog!! and we start our escape! haha and the end.
i wake up liao.
of cos i dun feel rested!
but its quite a fun dream. ha
okie i wanna go sleep already.
see anymore weird deeaams....
Wednesday, September 13
WOOAH it has been a longggg time!
heLLOOOOOOOOooo
no lah i'm not dead yet. just v busy.
busy with the usual stuff and busy celebrating my birthday! hurhur.
birthday's GREAT!! seems to come faster huh.. i tot i was just 21. ohhh getting olddddd.
thanks for all the smses, its so nice to know that ppl actually remember.
thanks for spending time with me.
thanks for choosing/making a present for me. cos i know for that moment, i'm the only one that fill your thoughts! *grins*
thanks for all the treats!!
thanks for making me so happy! =)
birthday week over. back to hectic work.
my design project is super duper demanding can! to design a visualiser that can read document, play mp3, take pictures and it has to look like a normal pair of glasses that have lens which will switch to different functions at the touch of ur romote control watch with GPS and images will start to appear on ur transmissive LCD lens. FAINTS. my prof seems to be the one who's most excited abt this.
quiz coming up and i know nuts. ha ha ha.
tianjin no more. same old shit man... same old shit that make me sick...
YOU KNOW WAT!! hmm.. blah blah blah.
shall not eleborate here. was super duper mega ultra boiling.
aiyah wtf lah...forget it.
well wo kan kai le.
serious.
timing is not right lah, or not riped? (u know, in chinese..)
nvm, since we are stuck in spore, we shall make the best out of it.
its not a lost.
we have our own objectives.
it may just be a blessing in disguise.
you never know.
hah!
okie going back up to level 4 to study my microelectroniccssss.
booooo.
no lah i'm not dead yet. just v busy.
busy with the usual stuff and busy celebrating my birthday! hurhur.
birthday's GREAT!! seems to come faster huh.. i tot i was just 21. ohhh getting olddddd.
thanks for all the smses, its so nice to know that ppl actually remember.
thanks for spending time with me.
thanks for choosing/making a present for me. cos i know for that moment, i'm the only one that fill your thoughts! *grins*
thanks for all the treats!!
thanks for making me so happy! =)
birthday week over. back to hectic work.
my design project is super duper demanding can! to design a visualiser that can read document, play mp3, take pictures and it has to look like a normal pair of glasses that have lens which will switch to different functions at the touch of ur romote control watch with GPS and images will start to appear on ur transmissive LCD lens. FAINTS. my prof seems to be the one who's most excited abt this.
quiz coming up and i know nuts. ha ha ha.
tianjin no more. same old shit man... same old shit that make me sick...
YOU KNOW WAT!! hmm.. blah blah blah.
shall not eleborate here. was super duper mega ultra boiling.
aiyah wtf lah...forget it.
well wo kan kai le.
serious.
timing is not right lah, or not riped? (u know, in chinese..)
nvm, since we are stuck in spore, we shall make the best out of it.
its not a lost.
we have our own objectives.
it may just be a blessing in disguise.
you never know.
hah!
okie going back up to level 4 to study my microelectroniccssss.
booooo.
Tuesday, August 15
Monday, August 14
boo
okie sch starts and things start sinking in...
so many ppl gone
and i dun see familiar faces in the canteen anymore..
no more,' hey pang lunch?'
my usual hanging kakis are at japan, norway, chartered, Tech, EY, sec sch..
=(
Monday, August 7
sch starts NOW!
sem break for 3 months
going back to sch now
i'm year 3 already.
thats really fast...
yah really fast..
i'm year 3 now.
and sch starts tmr
it has been a long 3 months break.
in her mind:
dont just hear, listen.
dont just talk, speak.
dont just exist, live.
i have questions thats hard to answer.
i olways have things on my mind.
i'm fighting myself, sometimes.
where the foot steps get messy.
something went wrong, somewhere
somehow.
i try to figure out but den issit still impt now?
another life's lesson, to get thru.
i know.
and so
i prayed for wisdom, peace and strength...
going back to sch now
i'm year 3 already.
thats really fast...
yah really fast..
i'm year 3 now.
and sch starts tmr
it has been a long 3 months break.
in her mind:
dont just hear, listen.
dont just talk, speak.
dont just exist, live.
i have questions thats hard to answer.
i olways have things on my mind.
i'm fighting myself, sometimes.
where the foot steps get messy.
something went wrong, somewhere
somehow.
i try to figure out but den issit still impt now?
another life's lesson, to get thru.
i know.
and so
i prayed for wisdom, peace and strength...
Saturday, August 5
Sunday, July 30
some of the many many pics from mount k trip!
at senai airport.. 7am flight and i din sleep the nite after race can!!
Wednesday, July 26
Saturday, July 22
Thursday, July 20
torn
late in the nite
suddenly feeling this
we all knew it
but we dun speak of it
out right
dun like this shit
i think its obvious
we can all jus face it
pretence
bcos deep down we still feel?
or wat?
tinge of disappointment
its a pity
really is.
seriously, i dun feel it for me.
but i see it.
i knew long ago.
was in was out
cherish it when i have it
i told myself
be cool when its gone
cos it may not last.
still...
its a pity
-can it stand the test of time?-
time will tell.
anyway...
i will start afresh
WE will
Friday, June 30
an unexpected find.
was searching for the gloves the team bought me on my 21st bday cos i'm packing my bag for mount k. i olmost climbed in the cupboard to look for it. den i saw this small light faded green notebook. the 555 notebook. not that i have it for years and haven seen it for ages. for it is forgotten. i pick it up. reading every single word written by them all over again.
every message bears a significant weight. you can feel it. so intense rite. thats wat phoenix is. the ability to bring you so high and also down. too intense that tears come together...
flipping thru the pages, seems to bring me back to then and reminded me of things...
showed alot of improvement in a yr time, keep it up, the passion, the way, heart in db.
saw ntu phoenix fighting spirit in you. to win others, you must win yourself first.
she likes green, also a greenhorn, hopes to see her turn from green to yellow.
have faith.
lets share the burden together!
i believe in you, you have my support.
all is well, there are seniors around to help always.
i believe your love for phoenix will keep u going strong, bring everyone along, a team sport needs the unity of all hearts.
the nothing-will-knock-me-down attitude.
you have me.
hand on heart, i believe u can.
have faith in yourself coz i have faith in u.
i have never in my life meet a perfect partner like you b4. I want to row together with you in the same boat, lets aim together okay!
wat we wanna see is not the colour of the medal but more importantly, the fight in you gers to attain what your truely desire the most.
how we transform our fears to courage to make it a personal win.
fight hard!
i dint find my gloves in there.
i found phoenix's love.
i found strength.
go read it too. you can find mine cos you left some of urs here.
every message bears a significant weight. you can feel it. so intense rite. thats wat phoenix is. the ability to bring you so high and also down. too intense that tears come together...
flipping thru the pages, seems to bring me back to then and reminded me of things...
showed alot of improvement in a yr time, keep it up, the passion, the way, heart in db.
saw ntu phoenix fighting spirit in you. to win others, you must win yourself first.
she likes green, also a greenhorn, hopes to see her turn from green to yellow.
have faith.
lets share the burden together!
i believe in you, you have my support.
all is well, there are seniors around to help always.
i believe your love for phoenix will keep u going strong, bring everyone along, a team sport needs the unity of all hearts.
the nothing-will-knock-me-down attitude.
you have me.
hand on heart, i believe u can.
have faith in yourself coz i have faith in u.
i have never in my life meet a perfect partner like you b4. I want to row together with you in the same boat, lets aim together okay!
wat we wanna see is not the colour of the medal but more importantly, the fight in you gers to attain what your truely desire the most.
how we transform our fears to courage to make it a personal win.
fight hard!
i dint find my gloves in there.
i found phoenix's love.
i found strength.
go read it too. you can find mine cos you left some of urs here.
Saturday, June 24
.a saturday without trng
.a saturday at home
.haven spend a whole day at home rest n relax for a some time
.she asked me y i sounded depressed?
.i dunno
.off balanced i guessed
.disequilibrium
.wanna breathe in deep
.sort it out
.be clear n focus
.rowing wise, kinda sucks when i make her wet
.yea i'm watching my entry and making a conscious effort to
.sometimes i just wanna roar
.STOP IT!
.i.just.want.to.make.it.good.
.a saturday at home
.haven spend a whole day at home rest n relax for a some time
.she asked me y i sounded depressed?
.i dunno
.off balanced i guessed
.disequilibrium
.wanna breathe in deep
.sort it out
.be clear n focus
.rowing wise, kinda sucks when i make her wet
.yea i'm watching my entry and making a conscious effort to
.sometimes i just wanna roar
.STOP IT!
.i.just.want.to.make.it.good.
Thursday, June 22
ONLY THING ON MY MIND!
inefficient
i hate it.
thats why sometimes i hate myself.
seems to be losing touch
i hate it.
but i cant manage my time well, i guess.
dun like to rush. am a slow pace person.
taking things easy. take it as it comes.
that day hang out with siok and shes just irritated by me. haa
cos i jus tooooo slowwwWWw.
like slow when i walk into the mrt cabin and den seats are being taken up.
like slow when i walk.
like slow when i talk.
yea i dun deny that.
I AM SLOW.
sometimes u chiong. sometimes u take it slow mah.
balance!
scared.
i hate it.
mud knows why. cos i made her scared too. haa
feeling bad.
on fathers day. cos i missed out. boo.
disgusted.
by things people say.
by lies.
sorry cant help it.
ANYWAY.
all these are nitty gritty now.
cos theres only 1 thing on my mind.
theres only 1 week left.
i want to make it good. rowing haven been fantastic, sometimes it sucks.
but at least i'm feeling its better now.
working on it!
getting it back. that feeling.
the feeling of feeling strong.
and i dont give a damn.
okie get on with it. i got so many things to do!
rarr.
soooo tired. tmr got reg.
sleep.
Friday, June 16
okie the very few penang pics i have till now!
messing with the dragon again and ham looks so cute here! haa
Friday, June 9
Tuesday, June 6
in a whole fat chunk
oo last entry was may 20. and today is 06/06/06.
haa so evil~
okie going back in time...
twEeee...ZZzzHHh...
was busy preparing to go penang. first time to an international race, pretty excited and dunno how we will do. the 2nd time i'm bringing the team out and its so much better this time. things go smoothly and i'm feeling more comfortable and prepared and secure. alot of ppl are being appointed as i/c this time haha and mr hee is the best bus i/c can.
rowed and drummed. this time drummer is not jus to throw someone up there jus to fill the seat. we are in need of a zai drummer. with that big fat cup ahead, everyone in that boat has to be zai. and from penang we know wat is drumming can!! my god.. the official on the speed boat is quite good huh.. they can even spot that i'm not hitting the centre of the drum can! wahaha yea active drumming.. use 2 hands.. hit the centre.. YAH OKAY laH. later on we did wat she wants lah haha.
i drummed for the 12 crew which dieded. was puzzled.. trying to find out exactly wat goes wrong. but sometimes mr hee jus say forget abt the lousy set. erMm but i really want to know wats wrong.....
went down for mixed and erm its different already. the stroke. steal more air time! i tried my best to! haha i really tried my best to shadow but still too different i think. and thats the end of mixed.
womens 20. was aiming not to go repecharge but den i've gotten myself into 2 repecharge on sunday. great. personally really looking forward for the 20 crew race. the repe was a good warm up set. then finals in lane 6. i think we are lucky. guess we are much steady when theres no boats beside. but we dont olways get those lanes you know.
but still was damn high after that set and ah hee was happy too. he let us go out in slippers! see how happy he is.. haha
all in all, its a great penang trip for me =) thou the best one was still the first one *grinz* hais.
i get to know my roomie better! haha the supposed to be funny liting. i keep saying her jokes are level zero! haa din really talk to her becos most of the time i want to sleep.... Zzz tired.
the journey was good. cos we got the whole bus by ourselves! i've long wanted a bus jus for ourselves but we nv seems to be able to get it last time.. oh well.. you know why~~
sitting right at the back.single seat. and slept most of the time. hoho. shiok~
den i think i'm kinda pmsing when i'm back.
in short.
daddy watch news
a coach flipped
daddy worried
daddy cant get me
daddy get jiaqi
jiaqi get hanming
hanming get me
jiaqi asked me to call daddy
my tone kinda 'wth'
made ppl upset
=(
back to spore den gotten prepare for presentation for the next day. wth can. anyway i anyhow prepare and anyhow present. den meet carol for dinner! haven seen her for quite some time. she olways got interesting things to update me. haa she seems to slim down abit. hoho i asked her if i look different? she said ermm darker lor. =\ oh well if u tell me my face is like abit less round that can really make my day know! haha
btw the juniors think i look like a blackcurrant. hei jia lun zi. cos my face is like ermm round~~ and we start imagining the things that the round and short handed blackcurrant can do. haha they just laugh at everything!!
i start to like making fun of them already. craps.
den was feeling hot for 2 days and then i got fever. missed my last ge lesson. went down gym to watch the gers ost. forgot my phone. and made him worried. oops. =(
was so scared that i will fall sick like last june race. damn bad. keep falling sick and cant get well. but i'm okie this time round already! back to trng...
last sunday was sOooo freaking hot can anot!! i really cant stand it running under the sun, eh think thats the first time i feel the heat overwhelming. and that day we can take a 15min break frm rowing. haha went up to have some cooling H20 and milo.
and i laugh at cuimei cos she got sunburnt. and after that i got sunburnt.
karma.
okie i jinxed myself.
aloe vera 100% gel is pretty good.
oh and the doc says i have v dry skin and it is "blah blah blah eczema" its a long name which i dunno obviously. and he says my skin will crack at age 40 and get a 'wat wat wat eczema" and he got me a 50 bucks sunblock!! kns... damn ex!!
and did you know. got many nice songs can make me v v happy!! yea =) i really do. its such a pleasure to listen to songs and chill...
i am here for you..wOOo olways here for you.. - firehouse.
Then we all stand together this one time.. Then no one will get left behind.. And stand up for life -destiny's child.
since after exams and coming back to trng, things has been better. me too. feel better. guess when the time comes, sometimes gotta learn to be less emotional and be objective. the things in my mind these days are more practical and logical stuff, not so in tuned with my feelings already. haa i'm losing my female brain!
was too emotional at times. gotta know when to switch to which i feel, oh i mean i think. aha
haa so evil~
okie going back in time...
twEeee...ZZzzHHh...
was busy preparing to go penang. first time to an international race, pretty excited and dunno how we will do. the 2nd time i'm bringing the team out and its so much better this time. things go smoothly and i'm feeling more comfortable and prepared and secure. alot of ppl are being appointed as i/c this time haha and mr hee is the best bus i/c can.
rowed and drummed. this time drummer is not jus to throw someone up there jus to fill the seat. we are in need of a zai drummer. with that big fat cup ahead, everyone in that boat has to be zai. and from penang we know wat is drumming can!! my god.. the official on the speed boat is quite good huh.. they can even spot that i'm not hitting the centre of the drum can! wahaha yea active drumming.. use 2 hands.. hit the centre.. YAH OKAY laH. later on we did wat she wants lah haha.
i drummed for the 12 crew which dieded. was puzzled.. trying to find out exactly wat goes wrong. but sometimes mr hee jus say forget abt the lousy set. erMm but i really want to know wats wrong.....
went down for mixed and erm its different already. the stroke. steal more air time! i tried my best to! haha i really tried my best to shadow but still too different i think. and thats the end of mixed.
womens 20. was aiming not to go repecharge but den i've gotten myself into 2 repecharge on sunday. great. personally really looking forward for the 20 crew race. the repe was a good warm up set. then finals in lane 6. i think we are lucky. guess we are much steady when theres no boats beside. but we dont olways get those lanes you know.
but still was damn high after that set and ah hee was happy too. he let us go out in slippers! see how happy he is.. haha
all in all, its a great penang trip for me =) thou the best one was still the first one *grinz* hais.
i get to know my roomie better! haha the supposed to be funny liting. i keep saying her jokes are level zero! haa din really talk to her becos most of the time i want to sleep.... Zzz tired.
the journey was good. cos we got the whole bus by ourselves! i've long wanted a bus jus for ourselves but we nv seems to be able to get it last time.. oh well.. you know why~~
sitting right at the back.single seat. and slept most of the time. hoho. shiok~
den i think i'm kinda pmsing when i'm back.
in short.
daddy watch news
a coach flipped
daddy worried
daddy cant get me
daddy get jiaqi
jiaqi get hanming
hanming get me
jiaqi asked me to call daddy
my tone kinda 'wth'
made ppl upset
=(
back to spore den gotten prepare for presentation for the next day. wth can. anyway i anyhow prepare and anyhow present. den meet carol for dinner! haven seen her for quite some time. she olways got interesting things to update me. haa she seems to slim down abit. hoho i asked her if i look different? she said ermm darker lor. =\ oh well if u tell me my face is like abit less round that can really make my day know! haha
btw the juniors think i look like a blackcurrant. hei jia lun zi. cos my face is like ermm round~~ and we start imagining the things that the round and short handed blackcurrant can do. haha they just laugh at everything!!
i start to like making fun of them already. craps.
den was feeling hot for 2 days and then i got fever. missed my last ge lesson. went down gym to watch the gers ost. forgot my phone. and made him worried. oops. =(
was so scared that i will fall sick like last june race. damn bad. keep falling sick and cant get well. but i'm okie this time round already! back to trng...
last sunday was sOooo freaking hot can anot!! i really cant stand it running under the sun, eh think thats the first time i feel the heat overwhelming. and that day we can take a 15min break frm rowing. haha went up to have some cooling H20 and milo.
and i laugh at cuimei cos she got sunburnt. and after that i got sunburnt.
karma.
okie i jinxed myself.
aloe vera 100% gel is pretty good.
oh and the doc says i have v dry skin and it is "blah blah blah eczema" its a long name which i dunno obviously. and he says my skin will crack at age 40 and get a 'wat wat wat eczema" and he got me a 50 bucks sunblock!! kns... damn ex!!
and did you know. got many nice songs can make me v v happy!! yea =) i really do. its such a pleasure to listen to songs and chill...
i am here for you..wOOo olways here for you.. - firehouse.
Then we all stand together this one time.. Then no one will get left behind.. And stand up for life -destiny's child.
since after exams and coming back to trng, things has been better. me too. feel better. guess when the time comes, sometimes gotta learn to be less emotional and be objective. the things in my mind these days are more practical and logical stuff, not so in tuned with my feelings already. haa i'm losing my female brain!
was too emotional at times. gotta know when to switch to which i feel, oh i mean i think. aha
i dunno. most ppl i love, few i hate and there are some i simply love and hate. hmmm.
raRRRR haven settle the race tee! boo cant get a supplier yet.. okok i will get it done THIS WEEK!
oh miraculously i cleared my exams. yea think i better stop getting my Cs and D to save my honours. oh well easier said than done. erm jus treat it that i never say den..
sooo sleepy already.
goodnite to you.
Saturday, May 20
the sun is so freaking hot today at trng
seems to drain alot of my energy away.
so tired
hard to even open my eyes
did standing, backbreaking
brokeback
den am feeling numbness when i row
and after trng.
=(
save MEeeeeeeee~!
oh but this morning i had a good breakfast! haha
french toast.. wHee~
ai xin breakfast! yum
=)
Thursday, May 18
cooL~! back with us =)
hope i did not make her nan zuo ren..
more relieved after making the decision.
train hard train hard...
they are training real hard too...
teams to watch out for..
wOooo
its really different now.. with THAT cup ahead.
anyway i'll keep an eye on my gers.
jiayou yea~
leaving penang next thurs!! wooo
meeting him for first time this week..
finally~
Monday, May 15
stay on the path.
i respect you damn alot.
i listen to evrything you say, and you olways make sense to me.
given me lots of encouragement along the way.
gave me strength most importantly.
a big influence to me.
but things i hear now.. make me dunno wat to say..
dun really agree but i dun like to force my way on others.
den again... we create our own lives rite.
sometimes i guess we just forgot wat made us choose that path.
back then.
trng.. so far so good.. at least i can see them putting in effort. althought on weekdays we can only fill 1 boat. but i can feel that all hearts are in the boat. thats wat i need. i dun need alot of ppl with some of them just coming here but left their mind somewhere. helping each other to achieve wat we want. thats the focus.
some ppl left the team after wat i said to them after trng. hmm for me, i think family still comes first, when ur family needs you to be there. i can understand. din mean to chase anyone away. like i've said, i wont leave anyone behind, unless u dun wish to move. attitude matters alot. with that big cup ahead, with the time left, with wat we have lost, we can't afford to stop evryone and hoax or pacify anyone. we have to all move along. hope they understand.
okie i realy seems to have thousand and one things to do!!
delivery 5 doppys to my sch
sell my other doppys!!! desperately... okie how abt a MOTHER'S DAY SPECIAL!!! 80 bucks for members only!
I"M SERIOUS!!!!! okie shall go send an email later
look for celine to ask abt attire
collect penang forms
transter moneysSs
go for class
go gym
stay home (think ah hee sees me more than my mama!!)
relac
think and think and think...
sleep
i love to sleep!
okie great tmr i have GE~ interesting class abt relationships.
its creative relations for life.
okie soon i'll be v creative haha! (or thats wat jq thinks~)
but fel and i are missing every tue lessons..
eh FEL wheree is my 15,000 happiness????
no wonder i'm not as happy as i should be cos they are STILL with you since xmas can!
haha keeping for the coming xmas izzit?!
okie i'm looking forward to thurs!!
cos we are gg to kuishin-bo!!
dong dong dong!
feasting.
the tot of it makes me hungry now.
shall go to bed.
that i'm so sick of love song
so sad and slow
so why cant i turn off the radio
-neyo
haa yeling sent me many songs!
sometimes when theres no music, the air just feel as still. need the beat to stir up the air!
do you think so?
=)
i listen to evrything you say, and you olways make sense to me.
given me lots of encouragement along the way.
gave me strength most importantly.
a big influence to me.
but things i hear now.. make me dunno wat to say..
dun really agree but i dun like to force my way on others.
den again... we create our own lives rite.
sometimes i guess we just forgot wat made us choose that path.
back then.
trng.. so far so good.. at least i can see them putting in effort. althought on weekdays we can only fill 1 boat. but i can feel that all hearts are in the boat. thats wat i need. i dun need alot of ppl with some of them just coming here but left their mind somewhere. helping each other to achieve wat we want. thats the focus.
some ppl left the team after wat i said to them after trng. hmm for me, i think family still comes first, when ur family needs you to be there. i can understand. din mean to chase anyone away. like i've said, i wont leave anyone behind, unless u dun wish to move. attitude matters alot. with that big cup ahead, with the time left, with wat we have lost, we can't afford to stop evryone and hoax or pacify anyone. we have to all move along. hope they understand.
okie i realy seems to have thousand and one things to do!!
delivery 5 doppys to my sch
sell my other doppys!!! desperately... okie how abt a MOTHER'S DAY SPECIAL!!! 80 bucks for members only!
I"M SERIOUS!!!!! okie shall go send an email later
look for celine to ask abt attire
collect penang forms
transter moneysSs
go for class
go gym
stay home (think ah hee sees me more than my mama!!)
relac
think and think and think...
sleep
i love to sleep!
okie great tmr i have GE~ interesting class abt relationships.
its creative relations for life.
okie soon i'll be v creative haha! (or thats wat jq thinks~)
but fel and i are missing every tue lessons..
eh FEL wheree is my 15,000 happiness????
no wonder i'm not as happy as i should be cos they are STILL with you since xmas can!
haha keeping for the coming xmas izzit?!
okie i'm looking forward to thurs!!
cos we are gg to kuishin-bo!!
dong dong dong!
feasting.
the tot of it makes me hungry now.
shall go to bed.
that i'm so sick of love song
so sad and slow
so why cant i turn off the radio
-neyo
haa yeling sent me many songs!
sometimes when theres no music, the air just feel as still. need the beat to stir up the air!
do you think so?
=)
Saturday, May 13
i've got tonnnes of stuff to update you know..
like my after exams days..
my feelings back to kallang..
my creative relations for life ge..
my busy days preparing present..
my chilling out session with the jc gang..
interesting thing that carol told me abt abt her tarot card readings..
forrest gump is really really good show..
okie i'll update like sOOooon laH~
13th may
Happy bIRthDay dEaR!!
:)
glad you like the presents.
so full from the buffet jus now.
-burpSs- ha..
so full and so feel like sleeping..
goodnite
Saturday, April 22
bunk'in at 5-834
cant study at home..
dun like to study in lib..
new found hide out is.......
ade's room!
first day i came here to study was quite a torture..
eH ade order me to go bathe now!
brb~
okie back from shower..
yah first day here was total agony
cos my aunty visit!
crampssSSS can~
was rolling
whining
tossing
turning for the whole afternoon.
and ade has to go borrow feng you from neighbours
haa
okie den today after a few sneezes in the shower
i'm down with flu!!
damn~
luckily love's clarinase and a 2hr nap saved me.
quite pathetic huh!
boo..
okie back to thermody.
no finish no sleep!!!!
and so sad.. mama think i playing in school =(
to all the singaporean here in ntu now!
poor thing................
haha
home is still a place for me.
dun like to study in lib..
new found hide out is.......
ade's room!
first day i came here to study was quite a torture..
eH ade order me to go bathe now!
brb~
okie back from shower..
yah first day here was total agony
cos my aunty visit!
crampssSSS can~
was rolling
whining
tossing
turning for the whole afternoon.
and ade has to go borrow feng you from neighbours
haa
okie den today after a few sneezes in the shower
i'm down with flu!!
damn~
luckily love's clarinase and a 2hr nap saved me.
quite pathetic huh!
boo..
okie back to thermody.
no finish no sleep!!!!
and so sad.. mama think i playing in school =(
to all the singaporean here in ntu now!
poor thing................
haha
home is still a place for me.
Thursday, April 20
pls excuse me
argHHhhhhhhh...
guess wat i wanna say..
yes.. i'm going to complain and whine again..
chui to the max laH!
chui maximization
chuicamania
chuivergence
chuichanics
chui theorem
chuifferential equations
chuinamics
chuifactants
chuitrometry
chuimatography
chuimatrix
chuilibrium
okie this is so irritating..
i hate pang!
chuiest exams ever.
well done.
okie end of whining!!!
MS 2006
THERMODYNAMICS.
here it comes..
Sunday, April 2
pretty weird to have strangers smiling at you.
but its still pretty nice esp when you are not feeling v good.
beautiful strangers =)
one day if you need me
and there are 100 steps between us.
you take the first step to get near me,
i will take all the 99 steps to be there for you.
she said...
thanks babe =)
i'm glad i olways have you.
where'd you go...
i miss you so...
this time it's been forever
that you've been gone...
please come back home~
-fort minor
but its still pretty nice esp when you are not feeling v good.
beautiful strangers =)
one day if you need me
and there are 100 steps between us.
you take the first step to get near me,
i will take all the 99 steps to be there for you.
she said...
thanks babe =)
i'm glad i olways have you.
where'd you go...
i miss you so...
this time it's been forever
that you've been gone...
please come back home~
-fort minor
Tuesday, March 21
my say on MyRace500...
the feeling is different when the people sitting inside are pretty much still the same.
why?
are we divided or concerted?
where has the connection gone?
i'm not blaming anyone...
if someone has to be answerable.
i think i'm the one to answer for it.
can i describe this as a phase where many of us lose focus..
lost ourselves..
stuck in moments that we cant get out of..
trying to move forward but our feet just seems to be grounded..
yufen is right. its really time for us to grow up and fend for ourselves.
what will happen when the whole bunch of lao rens graduate?
when they hand over the team to us..
when we have to become the pillar of phoenix..
when we take over their job of nurturing and guiding..
are we, ourselves, stinkies, mature enuff to take it on?
from the day we made up our mind to stay in this team.
each of us are not jus..
Hui Qi, materials engin, yr2.. blah~
there is something else we are carrying with us.
-dragonboat ladies-
we have a name to uphold
a name that we are associated to.
how others recognised you as.
there are things we jus cant do as i like... say as i feel... heck as i wish...
bcos it concerns a team.
we are interlinked
and each of us has that bigger responsibilty already.
what is a good set?
at trngs we have mixture of good and bad.
we try to lock the feeling of good sets.
there is one perfect pace when you feel that your boat just keep surging forward.
the wind blowing against your face.
when you can execute all your point, press, pull, twist and power.
and evryone feels good pulling water.
we had it before and of cos its not evry single set is like this.
but that is wat we will want to achieve.
make it happen more...
so the chances of it happening in a race is higher rite?
the confidence level will be there too...
if out of 10 tries, 2 are good...
wat is the probability of hitting the jackpot when the time comes?
and if in a big boat, you need the whole 18 rowers to lock in that feeling...
tell me how many times do we need to make it happen to have it in each of our memory?
thats the reason we train rite..
and we dont just train, just row...
guess we have to train with a purpose in mind..
we can take comments with open minds
but not just hang around with an empty mind.
we all made mistakes. the 2 days at seletar... lots of errors.
only until the last set of all.
women's open finals.
i really have to give the credit to marlau.
she sat on the drummer seat and made things so simple and clear.
she really has the ability to command the whole boat.
that was the only set that we had all our starts, maintainence and charge done nicely.
you only need 10 strokes, imagine this race only need your best 10 strokes.
all eyes in the boat, all hearts in the boat.
all ears to only listen to 2 voices,
her's and winsten.
wow.
MR500 over. more to come.
we know who to aim already.
why?
are we divided or concerted?
where has the connection gone?
i'm not blaming anyone...
if someone has to be answerable.
i think i'm the one to answer for it.
can i describe this as a phase where many of us lose focus..
lost ourselves..
stuck in moments that we cant get out of..
trying to move forward but our feet just seems to be grounded..
yufen is right. its really time for us to grow up and fend for ourselves.
what will happen when the whole bunch of lao rens graduate?
when they hand over the team to us..
when we have to become the pillar of phoenix..
when we take over their job of nurturing and guiding..
are we, ourselves, stinkies, mature enuff to take it on?
from the day we made up our mind to stay in this team.
each of us are not jus..
Hui Qi, materials engin, yr2.. blah~
there is something else we are carrying with us.
-dragonboat ladies-
we have a name to uphold
a name that we are associated to.
how others recognised you as.
there are things we jus cant do as i like... say as i feel... heck as i wish...
bcos it concerns a team.
we are interlinked
and each of us has that bigger responsibilty already.
what is a good set?
at trngs we have mixture of good and bad.
we try to lock the feeling of good sets.
there is one perfect pace when you feel that your boat just keep surging forward.
the wind blowing against your face.
when you can execute all your point, press, pull, twist and power.
and evryone feels good pulling water.
we had it before and of cos its not evry single set is like this.
but that is wat we will want to achieve.
make it happen more...
so the chances of it happening in a race is higher rite?
the confidence level will be there too...
if out of 10 tries, 2 are good...
wat is the probability of hitting the jackpot when the time comes?
and if in a big boat, you need the whole 18 rowers to lock in that feeling...
tell me how many times do we need to make it happen to have it in each of our memory?
thats the reason we train rite..
and we dont just train, just row...
guess we have to train with a purpose in mind..
we can take comments with open minds
but not just hang around with an empty mind.
we all made mistakes. the 2 days at seletar... lots of errors.
only until the last set of all.
women's open finals.
i really have to give the credit to marlau.
she sat on the drummer seat and made things so simple and clear.
she really has the ability to command the whole boat.
that was the only set that we had all our starts, maintainence and charge done nicely.
you only need 10 strokes, imagine this race only need your best 10 strokes.
all eyes in the boat, all hearts in the boat.
all ears to only listen to 2 voices,
her's and winsten.
wow.
MR500 over. more to come.
we know who to aim already.
for the ger in sweden!
hey i haven got the pics for race yet...
now nobody to send me alrady! haha
nvm i'll hunt them down for it...
show u next time okie. =)
these were my uniquely singapore race pics.
quite long ago liao but latest pics i haf leh~
hhaa
i lUURRRVvvEEe your pics at sweden lah..
you sld be the one sending me!!!
haha
take care babe...
now nobody to send me alrady! haha
nvm i'll hunt them down for it...
show u next time okie. =)
these were my uniquely singapore race pics.
quite long ago liao but latest pics i haf leh~
hhaa
i lUURRRVvvEEe your pics at sweden lah..
you sld be the one sending me!!!
haha
take care babe...
Saturday, March 18
racing...
2 sets only.. one of the least no of sets i went down for a race.
graduated from mixed school~!! ha
seeing them go down..
den sort of nostalgic again..
it was actually quite fun..
haha
(yah its olways fun when its gone wat)
seen ntuc, seen nus..
hmmm tsk tsk...
strong opponents yea
but dun forget we are all fighters!
no matter wat we will give them a tough time against us too.
theres has been many shits going on since the start of this year
but i still believe if we keep our faith, THAT desire and hunger
and believe in our front pack, mid pack and back packers.
we can do it jus like before.
but dont ever separate the 3 packs...
we need to feel and row as one to be a boat.
she alone is not enuff.
thats why we are a team.
phoenix.
where i belong.
where our heart and soul lies
still.
PHOENIX SA!
MR500 day 2.
watch it~!
graduated from mixed school~!! ha
seeing them go down..
den sort of nostalgic again..
it was actually quite fun..
haha
(yah its olways fun when its gone wat)
seen ntuc, seen nus..
hmmm tsk tsk...
strong opponents yea
but dun forget we are all fighters!
no matter wat we will give them a tough time against us too.
theres has been many shits going on since the start of this year
but i still believe if we keep our faith, THAT desire and hunger
and believe in our front pack, mid pack and back packers.
we can do it jus like before.
but dont ever separate the 3 packs...
we need to feel and row as one to be a boat.
she alone is not enuff.
thats why we are a team.
phoenix.
where i belong.
where our heart and soul lies
still.
PHOENIX SA!
MR500 day 2.
watch it~!
Wednesday, March 15
my mp3 player spoil!!!!!!!!!!
sorry bullies =(
eHHhh no more music to my ears...
cant block out the world when i'm travelling..
you know the 179 at evening time is damn noisy.
oh man... i'm starting to become a naggist and complainist liao
haha
aHh watever... i cant stand myself too! ha
no more tears yea... haven seen you happy for some time.
on a more serious note!
MR500 this weekend... going there with an open mind thou..
row row look look see see... and enjoy it (like wat ah hee olways say)
by now, we all know wat to do.. so just get down and do our thing!
Friday, March 10
our song
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.
They say that anger is just love disappointed.
They say that love is just a state of mind,but all this fighting over who will be anointed.
Oh how can people be so blind
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
Oh they tell me there's a place over yonder,
cool water running through the burning sand,
until we we learn to love one another
we never reach the promise land.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.
hole in the world - the eagles
Thursday, March 9
back from trng
last gym today
quite chui eH..
dieded at 11kg clean n jerk
den no strength to do that biceps
'chui' seems to be poping out these days.
it all started with.....
cuimei lor
haha
funny juniors...
rARRrrr got project meeting tmr.
sians
the email said, i hope nobody comes empty handed.
and i just checked my mail at 1235am
well done!
tmr gotta go search for books before meeting den!
project in group of 10
to submit a 3000 words essay.
haha
pretty slack huh.
what should i do when evryone is counting down to exams?
the days passing by... the tutorials n notes stacking high...
slap me pls!!!
going for MR meeting on friday....
think will be quite bo liao lah...
see them draw lanes and stuff
bringing my little vice caps to see see thou
haha
MR500 are you ready?
after the gym today..
i feel abit weak.. :S
boo
getting stoney
koonssss
goodnite
bb (penguin style)
my wish: nobody falls sick! nobody backache!
Monday, March 6
the-monday-four-hours-break
waiting for the lesson that i like most this sem,
management with humour.
light-hearted
can laugh out loud
can catch up with hazel and ps
ps olways asks me this when i laugh at the lecturer's joke,
"you really enjoy the lesson hor"
haa yah guess i really do.. it really feels good to laugh at something..
other lessons, i may dont even speak a single word..
or maybe i dont feel like talking to anyone.
guess i dont really open myself to know more ppl from MSE.
been here for like 2 yrs, and i'm still at hi-bye level with many ppl.
get to know a few more ppl when we do projects.. copy ans for lab.. fren's fren..
haha usually it will be lisi's frens.. haa
sometimes the miss anti-social in me just dominates lah..
i realised this but i'm okie abt it thou..
i'm wont die if i'm alone la.
will lunch with whoever smsed me at lunch time
or i'll just meet up with monday's lunch ppl.. tuesday's lunch ppl.. haa
luckily i still have enuff friends from monday to friday..
this sem is like full of shit.. alot of happenings.. and to the ones close to me somemore.
some news just make your heart aches... :(
wish i could lock all these away..
some things are not within control.
we can only learn to cope.
love said this before, mayb we have to go thru something hard before you really take a step into another stage of life. adulthood.
i tot i already had mine! haa
its okie..
we all learn yea.
me too..
learning to be a better person.
management with humour.
light-hearted
can laugh out loud
can catch up with hazel and ps
ps olways asks me this when i laugh at the lecturer's joke,
"you really enjoy the lesson hor"
haa yah guess i really do.. it really feels good to laugh at something..
other lessons, i may dont even speak a single word..
or maybe i dont feel like talking to anyone.
guess i dont really open myself to know more ppl from MSE.
been here for like 2 yrs, and i'm still at hi-bye level with many ppl.
get to know a few more ppl when we do projects.. copy ans for lab.. fren's fren..
haha usually it will be lisi's frens.. haa
sometimes the miss anti-social in me just dominates lah..
i realised this but i'm okie abt it thou..
i'm wont die if i'm alone la.
will lunch with whoever smsed me at lunch time
or i'll just meet up with monday's lunch ppl.. tuesday's lunch ppl.. haa
luckily i still have enuff friends from monday to friday..
this sem is like full of shit.. alot of happenings.. and to the ones close to me somemore.
some news just make your heart aches... :(
wish i could lock all these away..
some things are not within control.
we can only learn to cope.
love said this before, mayb we have to go thru something hard before you really take a step into another stage of life. adulthood.
i tot i already had mine! haa
its okie..
we all learn yea.
me too..
learning to be a better person.
