she really never failed to give me strength. everything she said hits a cord in my heart and many others. i guess its bcos we all have been so emotionally tied to phoenix.
i no longer contributes to the back pack.
now my heart goes to all the 10 pairs.
saw the video the orange and blue team made.
we are very similar. truely.
we celebrate friendship just the same.
the every single one in the team.
at the end of their video, it says.
the journey may be over
but a new one has already begun..
June 2007, see you at the finishing line.
i respect them.
i respect them as a competitor.
their journey did began earlier than us.
they have the driving force to take up the challenge once again.
to stand tall and walk on..
but my team is special.
the gers are just special and unique in their own ways.
we have been on this journey for so long, leaving our footsteps, our laughter, our sweat, our pain, our disappointment, our achievements, our struggle together on the land and on the sea.
this sport needs all our hearts.
thru sweat and tears we stand together.
when our hearts beat as one, that's when we fly/
take pride in being here and now
with every single one of us.
we will take whatevr that comes our way
face on.
eyes wide.
i'll see you at the chequered buoy too.
Sunday, June 24
Sunday, June 17
happy papa day!!
okie today is kinda rare cos i'm home after trng!
hur
guess its good to have trng at bedok, cos like this we wont want to go walk walk ard in town and can settle our meal at the bedok market!
good mans.
missed the free ride home from papa dawn. took train with west gang. we wanna ensure a place to sit and Zz so we took the train to pasir ris and back. HA
Zzz all the way home!
now am home waiting for papa's day dinner!
my blog is like ugly mans.
but i wont abandon this place, cos it has history mans! hur
so i just need to find out how to make this page nicer...
hmmm
kinda an idiot in this area. heh
mayb when it is nicer, i will make this blog open.
haa as if it is a big secret rite..
anyway, dears arm.. 增气一点好不好！！！
2 more weeks and den i'll send u on leave.
great that mum and dad are back to normal now! heh think my injury is quite worth it.
=D
okie looking forward for sakura with darling tmr too :)
and no cramps this month!!!
whee! guess is the no-tap-water diet that i had.
heh
lalala
happy moood.
the rainbow and us. :)
thanks dawn for the pic!
Thursday, June 7
wat man.
wat have i been doing?
everything seems to be so screwed up.
i think i haven get by a month without any external or internal injury.
first was my stupig ankle ever since stand chart. it was on and off and i spent quite a lot of money on treating it. okie lets see..
sports doctor, DR. LOW.
1st visit - $150.00
2nd visit - $120.00
happily went to see him cos cuimei says can claim frm sch. which in the end i did not bcos dad says dont lie.. okie and so i did not. most of the time the doc just told me to rest.. yea.
den it got better for awhile but when i go back to running, it hurts again. tmd.
somebody told me abt uncle saim,
1st and only visit - any amount but i gave $15.00
boo din work for me. my leg became v suan the next day and the pain is still there. sux.
den mum and dad brought me to a chinese sinseh.
3 visits - $35.00 bucks each. so thats $105.00
i would say he's not too bad, i see improvement after the 2nd visit. slightly but there is still.
den i concluded that i really really need a new pair of running shoes. dr low says my ds trainer doesnt suits my feet type. so off i went to running lab to search for a suitable pair. asics GT. bought it at queensway, cos its definitely cheaper!
new shoes which i dint wear - $138.00
BUT.
i dont feel comfortable in that pair. its like bulky and dont fit my feet closely too.
pissed!
so i took out my 3 pairs of asics and analyze.
the best pair i had was the blue ds trainer i had in year one. it suits me very well. den i realised the orange ds and the gt were too broad. i got narrow feet.
and so i went to buy an in sole to put in my old pair of shoes becos it was quite worn out.
insole - $39.90
all these was from dec 06 to may 07. argh and i dont want to calculate the total amount i've spent.
den from mid may till now. cut my finger at work. splint in pinky. top arm pain. left back pain. eating glucosamine to take care of my joints and the weakness and restricted motion of my top arm is really irritating me. red told me abt a massage she's been going and so we went together last sunday.
full body massage for 1 hr - $40.00
it felt pretty good to be massage but the neck and back was quite hard on me..
den again, my top arm prob was not any better..
ytd nite was such a disaster. stepped into the gap in the pontoon which i dunno why my eyes got stamps or watever. stepped right into the gap, hit my thigh at the edge.. that was pretty painful that i din even know i cut myself.. and wats worse was i hit ham's head with the paddle.. arghhh..
sorry hams :(
i better stop being too close behind you..
i really hope you are fine..
hams fel yeling cleaned my wounds. thanks thanks gers. thanks for being there:)
and i'm such a gu niang.. RAR
irritating.
jq brought me to the clinic and got me a tentanus jab and some antibiotics and anti inflammation pills.
doc visit for cuts and bruise - $151.00
faints.
FAINTS.
wats more?...
:S
things at home not on the bright side too. mum and dad like not talking...
please, please stop the cold war....
i dunno wats wrong and wats making mum so pisssed.
anyway i haven seen them for 3 days. every nite i came back they were asleep...
i'm sorry for not being around..
its so depresssssing.
come back ok?
everything seems to be so screwed up.
i think i haven get by a month without any external or internal injury.
first was my stupig ankle ever since stand chart. it was on and off and i spent quite a lot of money on treating it. okie lets see..
sports doctor, DR. LOW.
1st visit - $150.00
2nd visit - $120.00
happily went to see him cos cuimei says can claim frm sch. which in the end i did not bcos dad says dont lie.. okie and so i did not. most of the time the doc just told me to rest.. yea.
den it got better for awhile but when i go back to running, it hurts again. tmd.
somebody told me abt uncle saim,
1st and only visit - any amount but i gave $15.00
boo din work for me. my leg became v suan the next day and the pain is still there. sux.
den mum and dad brought me to a chinese sinseh.
3 visits - $35.00 bucks each. so thats $105.00
i would say he's not too bad, i see improvement after the 2nd visit. slightly but there is still.
den i concluded that i really really need a new pair of running shoes. dr low says my ds trainer doesnt suits my feet type. so off i went to running lab to search for a suitable pair. asics GT. bought it at queensway, cos its definitely cheaper!
new shoes which i dint wear - $138.00
BUT.
i dont feel comfortable in that pair. its like bulky and dont fit my feet closely too.
pissed!
so i took out my 3 pairs of asics and analyze.
the best pair i had was the blue ds trainer i had in year one. it suits me very well. den i realised the orange ds and the gt were too broad. i got narrow feet.
and so i went to buy an in sole to put in my old pair of shoes becos it was quite worn out.
insole - $39.90
all these was from dec 06 to may 07. argh and i dont want to calculate the total amount i've spent.
den from mid may till now. cut my finger at work. splint in pinky. top arm pain. left back pain. eating glucosamine to take care of my joints and the weakness and restricted motion of my top arm is really irritating me. red told me abt a massage she's been going and so we went together last sunday.
full body massage for 1 hr - $40.00
it felt pretty good to be massage but the neck and back was quite hard on me..
den again, my top arm prob was not any better..
ytd nite was such a disaster. stepped into the gap in the pontoon which i dunno why my eyes got stamps or watever. stepped right into the gap, hit my thigh at the edge.. that was pretty painful that i din even know i cut myself.. and wats worse was i hit ham's head with the paddle.. arghhh..
sorry hams :(
i better stop being too close behind you..
i really hope you are fine..
hams fel yeling cleaned my wounds. thanks thanks gers. thanks for being there:)
and i'm such a gu niang.. RAR
irritating.
jq brought me to the clinic and got me a tentanus jab and some antibiotics and anti inflammation pills.
doc visit for cuts and bruise - $151.00
faints.
FAINTS.
wats more?...
:S
things at home not on the bright side too. mum and dad like not talking...
please, please stop the cold war....
i dunno wats wrong and wats making mum so pisssed.
anyway i haven seen them for 3 days. every nite i came back they were asleep...
i'm sorry for not being around..
its so depresssssing.
come back ok?
Monday, June 4
well i dunno.
talked to red some time back,
she reminded me something.
why when someone under perform, ppl will think she's skiving?
why not ask if she's feeling ok? if she's sick?
is it bcos there's too much doubt in each other?
are we spending most of the time picking on each other, rather than really caring?
sets me thinking..
one cannot tell somebody to feel the way they should be feeling.
a feeling has to be felt.
bcos it is a feeling mah...
so only actions speak louder.
where's the joy?
mayb it comes from getting wat we ultimately want, but, as the complimentry product.
like enjoying fishing purely on fishing and not on the fish that were caught.
she's right..
i think just happy rowing and enjoying everything of it will unconciously bring her to the rewarding goal..
kinda just do it purely bcos you like it.
of cos that includes liking the nature of it. (competitive)
but with that cup, trng just to win and forgetting abt what is in it..
scary.
stressful. =\
used to be so looking forward to team lunch after every trng!
just hanging around and walking around with the gers..
seeing each other for so many times a week.
but why does it feel empty sometimes with some?
if doing things for the sake of doing it,
is definitely different from doing things with an intention that you are convinced of.
bcos wat's within is gone.
no substance.
like reading your notes 3 times before exams will give u an A.
but reading it 3 times and reading with your eyes only doesnt count.
reading has to plus understanding..
like going for meals together doesnt mean we will get to know each other better and get bonded.
i can go for lunch with my collegues for 6months, 5 times a week and we are just hi-bye.
but getting together is a means of getting to know better.
by talking and sharing heart to heart...
talking as if we are standing on the same level..
no one tries to over rule or judge too quickly.
it is difficult to talk when someone is agressive and that will only make the other defensive.
talk like friends~
its not that easy bcos you cant pretend to be one.
erm hard to describe, its just a feeling thing.
to row for somebody on the boat.
you will know it when you know it.
you cant tell someone to row for someone when she just feels like errmm your neighbour.. your tutorial mate.. your course mate..
it will just come across as an instruction.
she has to be someone you deem worth fighting for.
i did that before. bcos she's someone close to my heart..
bcos they gave me strength.
technique is impt, totally agree. its fundamental
but what gels us together will bring us further.
this team is warm, she said.
dont let it turn cold.
-my reflections my thoughts-
she reminded me something.
why when someone under perform, ppl will think she's skiving?
why not ask if she's feeling ok? if she's sick?
is it bcos there's too much doubt in each other?
are we spending most of the time picking on each other, rather than really caring?
sets me thinking..
one cannot tell somebody to feel the way they should be feeling.
a feeling has to be felt.
bcos it is a feeling mah...
so only actions speak louder.
where's the joy?
mayb it comes from getting wat we ultimately want, but, as the complimentry product.
like enjoying fishing purely on fishing and not on the fish that were caught.
she's right..
i think just happy rowing and enjoying everything of it will unconciously bring her to the rewarding goal..
kinda just do it purely bcos you like it.
of cos that includes liking the nature of it. (competitive)
but with that cup, trng just to win and forgetting abt what is in it..
scary.
stressful. =\
used to be so looking forward to team lunch after every trng!
just hanging around and walking around with the gers..
seeing each other for so many times a week.
but why does it feel empty sometimes with some?
if doing things for the sake of doing it,
is definitely different from doing things with an intention that you are convinced of.
bcos wat's within is gone.
no substance.
like reading your notes 3 times before exams will give u an A.
but reading it 3 times and reading with your eyes only doesnt count.
reading has to plus understanding..
like going for meals together doesnt mean we will get to know each other better and get bonded.
i can go for lunch with my collegues for 6months, 5 times a week and we are just hi-bye.
but getting together is a means of getting to know better.
by talking and sharing heart to heart...
talking as if we are standing on the same level..
no one tries to over rule or judge too quickly.
it is difficult to talk when someone is agressive and that will only make the other defensive.
talk like friends~
its not that easy bcos you cant pretend to be one.
erm hard to describe, its just a feeling thing.
to row for somebody on the boat.
you will know it when you know it.
you cant tell someone to row for someone when she just feels like errmm your neighbour.. your tutorial mate.. your course mate..
it will just come across as an instruction.
she has to be someone you deem worth fighting for.
i did that before. bcos she's someone close to my heart..
bcos they gave me strength.
technique is impt, totally agree. its fundamental
but what gels us together will bring us further.
this team is warm, she said.
dont let it turn cold.
-my reflections my thoughts-
hais, sux.
something is wrong with me..
wrong with my arms.
:(
anyway, basic theory tmr morning.