wat man.

wat have i been doing?

everything seems to be so screwed up.
i think i haven get by a month without any external or internal injury.
first was my stupig ankle ever since stand chart. it was on and off and i spent quite a lot of money on treating it. okie lets see..

sports doctor, DR. LOW.
1st visit - $150.00
2nd visit - $120.00

happily went to see him cos cuimei says can claim frm sch. which in the end i did not bcos dad says dont lie.. okie and so i did not. most of the time the doc just told me to rest.. yea.
den it got better for awhile but when i go back to running, it hurts again. tmd.

somebody told me abt uncle saim,
1st and only visit - any amount but i gave $15.00

boo din work for me. my leg became v suan the next day and the pain is still there. sux.

den mum and dad brought me to a chinese sinseh.
3 visits - $35.00 bucks each. so thats $105.00

i would say he's not too bad, i see improvement after the 2nd visit. slightly but there is still.

den i concluded that i really really need a new pair of running shoes. dr low says my ds trainer doesnt suits my feet type. so off i went to running lab to search for a suitable pair. asics GT. bought it at queensway, cos its definitely cheaper!
new shoes which i dint wear - $138.00

BUT.

i dont feel comfortable in that pair. its like bulky and dont fit my feet closely too.
pissed!
so i took out my 3 pairs of asics and analyze.
the best pair i had was the blue ds trainer i had in year one. it suits me very well. den i realised the orange ds and the gt were too broad. i got narrow feet.
and so i went to buy an in sole to put in my old pair of shoes becos it was quite worn out.
insole - $39.90

all these was from dec 06 to may 07. argh and i dont want to calculate the total amount i've spent.

den from mid may till now. cut my finger at work. splint in pinky. top arm pain. left back pain. eating glucosamine to take care of my joints and the weakness and restricted motion of my top arm is really irritating me. red told me abt a massage she's been going and so we went together last sunday.
full body massage for 1 hr - $40.00

it felt pretty good to be massage but the neck and back was quite hard on me..
den again, my top arm prob was not any better..

ytd nite was such a disaster. stepped into the gap in the pontoon which i dunno why my eyes got stamps or watever. stepped right into the gap, hit my thigh at the edge.. that was pretty painful that i din even know i cut myself.. and wats worse was i hit ham's head with the paddle.. arghhh..

sorry hams :(
i better stop being too close behind you..
i really hope you are fine..

hams fel yeling cleaned my wounds. thanks thanks gers. thanks for being there:)

and i'm such a gu niang.. RAR
irritating.

jq brought me to the clinic and got me a tentanus jab and some antibiotics and anti inflammation pills.
doc visit for cuts and bruise - $151.00

faints.
FAINTS.

wats more?...
:S

things at home not on the bright side too. mum and dad like not talking...
please, please stop the cold war....
i dunno wats wrong and wats making mum so pisssed.
anyway i haven seen them for 3 days. every nite i came back they were asleep...
i'm sorry for not being around..

its so depresssssing.

come back ok?

well i dunno.

talked to red some time back,
she reminded me something.

why when someone under perform, ppl will think she's skiving?
why not ask if she's feeling ok? if she's sick?
is it bcos there's too much doubt in each other?
are we spending most of the time picking on each other, rather than really caring?

sets me thinking..

one cannot tell somebody to feel the way they should be feeling.
a feeling has to be felt.
bcos it is a feeling mah...
so only actions speak louder.

where's the joy?
mayb it comes from getting wat we ultimately want, but, as the complimentry product.
like enjoying fishing purely on fishing and not on the fish that were caught.
she's right..
i think just happy rowing and enjoying everything of it will unconciously bring her to the rewarding goal..
kinda just do it purely bcos you like it.
of cos that includes liking the nature of it. (competitive)

but with that cup, trng just to win and forgetting abt what is in it..
scary.
stressful. =\

used to be so looking forward to team lunch after every trng!
just hanging around and walking around with the gers..

seeing each other for so many times a week.
but why does it feel empty sometimes with some?
if doing things for the sake of doing it,
is definitely different from doing things with an intention that you are convinced of.
bcos wat's within is gone.
no substance.

like reading your notes 3 times before exams will give u an A.
but reading it 3 times and reading with your eyes only doesnt count.
reading has to plus understanding..
like going for meals together doesnt mean we will get to know each other better and get bonded.
i can go for lunch with my collegues for 6months, 5 times a week and we are just hi-bye.
but getting together is a means of getting to know better.
by talking and sharing heart to heart...
talking as if we are standing on the same level..
no one tries to over rule or judge too quickly.
it is difficult to talk when someone is agressive and that will only make the other defensive.
talk like friends~
its not that easy bcos you cant pretend to be one.
erm hard to describe, its just a feeling thing.

to row for somebody on the boat.
you will know it when you know it.
you cant tell someone to row for someone when she just feels like errmm your neighbour.. your tutorial mate.. your course mate..
it will just come across as an instruction.
she has to be someone you deem worth fighting for.
i did that before. bcos she's someone close to my heart..
bcos they gave me strength.

technique is impt, totally agree. its fundamental
but what gels us together will bring us further.

this team is warm, she said.
dont let it turn cold.

-my reflections my thoughts-

hais, sux.

something is wrong with me..

wrong with my arms.

:(

anyway, basic theory tmr morning.

in the end

love wins...

:)

finally got something for fyp.. after 3 rejections!
arghhh..

*relieved*

13th may!!

is his birthday!

planned to bring him out for a good dinner but it wasnt that fantastic la..sorry dear.

great ambience but the serving is like small can... even i'm not full~ haha

he had chicken and i had salmon plus our starters, calamari..

the food is not too bad.. but not filling lah.. dun haf the ARrrrrr... full and satisfied feeling..

so after that we walked over to bugis billy bombers for desserts and burger. haha

den we are full~

xuewei says we both cant go for fine dining lah.. waste money only.. best is to go zi zha stall to eat mans. hahah.

and i'm so bad cos i forgot to sing birthday song.. heh we just attacked the cake.. boo :(

next year!! i make sure it will be better :)

the chinese way

身体都有生理时钟，不同时间有不同工作，应该配合生理时钟，才能有健康身体哦！　


午夜 12:00 ~ 1:00
浅眠期
多梦而敏感，身体不适者易在此时痛醒。

凌晨 1:00 ~ 2:00
排毒期
此时肝脏为排除毒素而活动旺盛， 应让身体进入睡眠状态，让肝脏得以完成代谢废物。

凌晨 3:00 ~ 4:00
休眠期
重症病人最易发病的时刻，常有患病者在此时死亡， 熬夜最好勿超过这个时间。

上午 9:00 ~ 11:00
精华期
此时为注意力及记忆力最好，且工作与学习的最佳时段。

中午 12:00 ~ 1:00
午休期
最好静坐或闭目休息一下再进餐，正午不可饮酒，易醉又伤肝哦！

下午 2:00 ~ 3:00
高峰期
是分析力和创造力得以发挥淋漓的极致时段！

下午 4:00 ~ 5:00
低潮期
体力耗弱的阶段，最好补充水果来解馋，避免因饥饿而贪食致肥胖。

下午 5:00 ~ 6:00
松散期
此时血糖略增，嗅觉与味觉最敏感，不妨准备晚膳来提振精神。

晚上 7:00 ~ 8:00
暂憩期
最好能在饭后 30 分钟去散个步或沐浴，放松一下，纾解一日的疲倦困顿。

晚上 8:00 ~ 10:00
夜修期
此为晚上活动的巅峰时段，建议您善用此时进行商议，进修等要思虑周密的活动。

晚上 11:00 ~ 12:00
夜眠期
经过镇日忙碌，此时应该放松心情进入梦乡，千万别让身体过度负荷，那可得不偿失哦！

Read in the papers last time and told quite a few of my frens,
Best water drinking time,
7am to 9am and 2pm to 5pm.
most efficient in flushing out of toxins!

not advisible to drink alot before bed time, if you had enuff of water during the day, you wont feel thirsty in the nite (this i'm not sure if really true, somebody can go try it and tell me! ha)
dont only drink when you are feeling thirsty! not enuff~

for ppl who have pain in the joints like me, dun take too much cold drinks!

drink plain water! its good for you. CHEERS.

theNIGHTsafari~!

wHeee.. it was planned a long to ensure that jiaqi can go night safari with me after exams! haa

friday night with no training on sat morning, a rare chance for some night outings and i never been to there before, so he's bringing me =)

we went to cck to take bus 927 and we didnt know the frequency is like every half an hour, so we went to fill up our tummy first.
the bus there isnt v long, i think 20mins.

first stop is the animal show. it was pretty interesting to watch it in the night and of cos no flashed photography and of cos, some idiots will just take a pic with the flash. haha but everyone will 'OEIiiiiiiii' when they saw a flash. haha but many of them are not locals you see.. mayb oei is a universal language too. heh
one of the tricks they play again and again is the animal-go-missing act. haha this time its a big python call maggie. then after they found it the host want to invite a macho man up on the stage, i was so eager to push jq up but he doesnt want to.. haha (there goes a free ben & jerry's). an angmoh went up instead and they threw the big snake over his shoulders la. i think the snake is heavy.. it takes 4 of the staffs to carry it. ha

den the tram ride! its abt 45 mins long and bring you ard to see some animals that you wont get to see on the walking trails. i think the animals were too close to us for comfort. jq and i keep thinking that the deers or the hyhenas can easily jump out! we saw alot of deers and cows thou. haha all the predators were like asleep, like the lions, the tigers, the leopards, the aligators... (Zzzz) heh make me fall asleep on the tram too. ha i dunno why i got tired.. must be the work in the day!

after the tram, we went to walk around on the walking trails. i honestly felt abit scared... cos its like dark and like not many ppl walking ard... i was afraid that we went on the wrong path and end up in some animals' den la!! haha useless worries i know.. actually i'm more scared that some insects fly into my hair la. heh it was quiet most animals are not that responsive other than the otters. they were so noisy and they keep looking at you and finding ways to get closer to you. or mayb becos we have food. heh

went to see the leopards and it was sleeping just beside the glass pane. wow it is BIG! imagine it is your pet cat.. haha i wish~ seldom u can get to see it so close up you know.. very nice fur they have.. and think they get abit senile after being kept in the place for long, the other leopard just keep pacing up and down in circles..

the tiger is next interesting one. it was AWAKE. oki, more than that. it was standing and facing the glass pane, there were 2 angmohs squatting in front looking at it. den when jq and i were walking towards the tiger, it suddenly ran forward to the glass pane and the 2 angmohs jumped! haha scared them. the tiger must be thinking, stupig humans.. easily entertained... haha den the tiger bo hiew us already.. it walked away.. heh

we went into a room with bats inside, i was quite reluctant at first but i went in in the end, hiding behind jq.. haa. the bats were big lah. i tot they were the small small ones we saw sometimes on the trees. no lor, times 5 man. Eeee you can easily use your hand to touch it lor.. they were so NEAR! haa den i dragged jq out already.

was really tired after we finished walking around... and i slept all the way back... Zzz

poor darling have to cab his way home from my place.. :(

it was fun! i love it...

this weekend just flew passed~ boo

next week end will be fun too cos its mother's DAy and Jiaqi's birthday!

endure the WEEK!!! guess it wont b that bad cos i have trngs to look forward to now!

nitenitenite..
ZZzz *crampsssss*
damm

the day at work after a holiday.

oh well, any how i also need to come back to work, so no point sulking.

these days when i sleep, i think i'm only using one nostril to breathe. i guess its nose block but cannnot be everynite nose block one correct?!!

and thats why i google it.

okie something interesting that i saw.

Nadi Sodhana (Alternate Nostril Breathing)
If you don't do anything else, this is a simple yoga breathing exercise that can be done virtually anywhere, anyplace. You will be glad you did. It is simply dynamic!

The name alternate nostril breathing is due to the fact that we alternate between the two nostrils when we do the breathing. Yogis believe that this exercise will clean and rejuvenate your vital channels of energy, thus the name nadi sodhana (purification of nadis or channels).

With this exercise, we breathe through only one nostril at a time. The logic behind this exercise is that normal breathing does alternate from one nostril to the other at various times during the day. In a healthy person the breath will alternate between nostrils about every two hours. Because most of us are not in optimum health, this time period varies considerably between people and further reduces our vitality. According to the yogis, when the breath continues to flow in one nostril for more than two hours, as it does with most of us, it will have an adverse effect on our health. If the right nostril is involved, the result is mental and nervous disturbance. If the left nostril is involved, the result is chronic fatigue and reduced brain function. The longer the flow of breath in one nostril, the more serious the illness will be.

Benefits

The exercise produces optimum function to both sides of the brain: that is optimum creativity and optimum logical verbal activity. This also creates a more balanced person, since both halves of the brain are functioning property.
The yogis consider this to be the best technique to calm the mind and the nervous system.
The Scientific Confirmation of Alternate Nostril Breathing
Medical science has recently discovered the nasal cycle, something that was known by the yogis thousands of years ago. Scientists have recently found that we don't breathe equally with both nostrils, that one nostril is much easier to breathe through than the other at any particular time and that this alternates about every three hours. The yogis claim that the natural period is every two hours, but we must remember these studies were done on people who do not have an optimum health level.

Scientists also discovered that the nasal cycle corresponds with brain function. The electrical activity of the brain was found to be greater on the side opposite the less congested nostril. The right side of the brain controls creative activity, while the left side controls logical verbal activity. The research showed that when the left nostril was less obstructed, the right side of the brain was predominant. Test subjects were indeed found to do better on creative tests. Similarly when the right nostril was less obstructed the left side of the brain was predominant. Test subjects did better on verbal skills.

Medical science has not quite caught up with the ancient yogis yet. The yogis went one step further. They observed that a lot of disease was due to the nasal cycle being disturbed; that is, if a person breathed for too long through one nostril. To prevent and correct this condition, they developed the alternate nostril breathing technique. This clears any blockage to air flow in the nostrils and reestablishes the natural nasal cycle. For example, the yogis have known for a long time that prolonged breathing through the left nostril only (over a period of years) will produce asthma. They also know that this so-called incurable disease can be easily eliminated by teaching the patient to breathe through the right nostril until the asthma is cured, and then to prevent it recurring by doing the alternate nostril breathing technique. The yogis also believe that diabetes is caused to a large extent by breathing mainly through the right nostril.

Technique

-Close the right nostril with your right thumb and inhale through the left nostril. Do this to the count of four seconds.
-Immediately close the left nostril with your right ring finger and little finger, and at the same time remove your thumb from the right nostril, and exhale through this nostril. Do this to the count of eight seconds. This completes a half round.
-Inhale through the right nostril to the count of four seconds. Close the right nostril with your right thumb and exhale through the left nostril to the count of eight seconds. This completes one full round.
Start by doing three rounds, adding one per week until you are doing seven rounds.

Alternate nostril breathing should not be practiced if you have a cold or if your nasal passages are blocked in any way. Forced breathing through the nose may lead to complications. In pranayama it is important to follow this rule: under no circumstances should anything be forced. If you use the nostrils for breath control they must be unobstructed. If they are not, you must practice throat breathing.

i dint know my 2 nostrils dont work together! hmmm i think that exercise is quite easy to try..

my phone!

okie i'm here to boast abt my phone.
the nok8a 6300.

it is being advertise as a simple phone which dont need any thing extras.
but it has all i need!

good enuff for me.

wat i like best is the calendar and notes, they can b displayed on the main screen all the time.
and olmost everything can be re-organised. how to want which to come first and wat you dont olways use to the back. i think this is great, save time scrollling ard... and there are quite a few format u can choose. list.. grids.. grids with names.. you can personalise so many things. i like~

the whole phone itself is very connected, like the mp3 can be used for ring tones or alarms. the videos can b used for screen saver..there are just alot of possibilities for you to try to play around!

oki then the rest are basics. but they are more user friendly now! the usual stuffs are still there but they have expanded to more options for users.

the screen colour also improved alot. guess there are more pixels on the screen now compared to previous colour screen nok8a phones.. (heh quoted frm jiaqi)

exterior is fantastic too, i love it at first sight! black with silver (stainless steel ok!) heh
silm with smooth corners, ergonomics put to use!

blue keypad backlight.. i like~

okie i'm loving this phone more now! nok8a is back with style~

i saw light.

"In other words,

it's not the actual situation itself that "pushes the button"...

it's what you think it MEANS."

thinking too much is bad.

thinking too much negative stuff is even worse.

letting your emotions get the better of you is kind of like self destruction.

是自找的。

why do i have to take so long to realise..

but i'm glad i see the light now...

boo!

the so imperfect me.

but..

when i turn, i still see you there beside me..

i thank god..

ehhhh

i forgot how to post photos lehhhh...

how ah HOW ah HOW AH???


ehhh sians
working life seems to be going to be THIS till i end IA. damm. do sai gang. anyway i'm not capable of doing anything more impt oso. l.o.u.s.y.

been feeling bored.
pmsing even when its not pms period.
roar.

gotta get a hold of my life!

somehow, i just dun care anymore. i was affected. very affected once, make me cry so hard. argh!
now i dun freaking care, no big deal. (does it mean, i've grown?!!) haha
ohh sumster said my strokes are better than she last saw me in year2! whEee.. (i've grown)haa

its olways so good to see her, talk to her.. so forever reassuring.. thank you. :)

i need a watch.
i need to spend time in the bookshop, browsing.
i need to jian fei.
i need to buck up on my fitness.
i need to take care of my health.
i need a pet to stroke. heh.
i need go out and breathe and run.
i need to feel special.

fwah, late! sleeping time.
ZZ
zzZzz

to be a better person

still remember in primary school or secondary school if i dun wish to participate in anything or go for any outings, i just hand in a parents' letter and that settle it all.

but it doesnt work anymore!

these days, when i started my IA, something sinks in. I'm working for my own name now. building up on ur credentials and as a person. whatever you do, it just goes to the category of your own name. you are totally responsible..

some ppl you just cant offend. but that doesnt mean you have to flatter them.
silence is golden, sometimes.

patience is what you need. i m patient.
i'm impatient i mean.
easily off the edge... but i better stop this before it gets me more trouble!

knowledge is power. to get you to climb higher and to let u walk around with your arms folded and just use your mouth! haa no lah cant be like that cos i hate them!

hardwork. gotta expect lots of hardwork but not as much reward to be happier.. even thou i believe something greater will come at the end of all the hard work.

and a good heart. the worldlimess of the world and the ugliness will unveil themselves.. having a good heart keeps you safe and warm..
haha no lah. it keeps your immunity high and being able to differentiate things clearly..

save for rainy days!
it just makes u feel more secure la! heh...

argh.. just not gd enuff.

alrite...fallling sick.. bad ankle and cut my finger..
its okie

they will soon b gone!

ZZzz

The Starry Night - Vincent van Gogh.

drawn when he lost his sanity.

Starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey

look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know
the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.

And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.

They would not listen
they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry starry night
flaming flo'rs that brightly blaze
swirling clouds in violet haze
reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue.

Colors changing hue
morning fields of amber grain
weathered faces lined in pain
are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

And now I understand what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you
but still your love was true

and when no hope was left in sight on that starry
starry night.
You took your life as lovers often do;
But I could have told you
Vincent this world was never meant for
one as beautiful as you...

Starry starry night
portraits hung in empty halls
frameless heads on nameless walls
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.

Like the stranger that you've met
the ragged men in ragged clothes
the silver thorn of bloddy rose lie crushed
and broken on the virgin snow.

And now I think I know what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they're not list'ning still
perhaps they never will...

Don McLean - Vincent

the things i see.

attachment is good stuff. really expose you to the world itself. and Engineering is a world of its own. I never thought anyone can talk using all the technical terms in daily conversation. olways thought the things I studied are kinda not-of-much-use but they are really needed when you go to work. engineering is really specialised, you need to have the knowledge man! it can be quite interesting AND dangerous! Life at risk man, especially in the lab. danger is lurking everywhere. conc acids, mis handling of machines the cut, grind or send a current. even the air you breathe and the things you touch can be harmful. -scary-

i cant understand how can all the engineers just sit in front of their computers the whole day and not doze off!! heh one hour at the desk, i'm gone!

and today i got ang bao!! whEEEe! and 4 kums. heh got a CNY lunch next week too! so nice..

but the engineer who taught me alot of things are going for his post grad soon.. boo..
no more singaporean left there in the department already.. siannnn

---
starting of this year, i realised i'm 23 this year. freaking old can. i dont think i'm acting or dressing my age=\ den again i better enjoy rest of my tshirt and shorts days before i really have to grow out of it. my skin is the new worry! i got winkles and freckles. *screech* i'm using sunscreen now. i dun wish to have pre mature aging skin! take care ppl!! the sun is not only baking your skin... heh -pun intended-

appearance and the tangibles aside. whats in you is more difficult to take care. what kind of person you are and what kind of person you aspire to become? whats your principle? how much is your integrity and dignity? somehow time to time, there is this struggle in me to search for answers to myself. in the state of confusion... opinion changes, perspective shifts, focus drifts.. and left me clueless.

at the same time, life open up to me and show me even more. people, problems, situtations, emotions that was never before. alot of time i'm pissed because i cant match up to all these. oh well, read in a book last time. Life Lessons will keep coming back to you until you really learn it one day. If something keep recurring and pull you at your feet, you know you haven get pass it.

for the new year, i still will be praying for peace, wisdom and health.
oh and 1 more thing, LOVE! =)

Love mends the hole in the world.

---

PINEAPPLE TARTss!! here i come!

booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooored

bored to the max.
first 3 days at home was peaceful and nice.
4th day i start to feel cranky and i needed some AIR.
went to town to walk around for awhile, it actually feel quite good, so i decided to walk more the next day. den went coxing, not too bad at least there is something to do and people to talk to.
5th day i went to town to walk walk shop shop. i like it when its not crowded with people. even thou it was raining like mad, i still took my umbrella and went out! heh. bought sandals, skirt, shirt, slippers for jq. (oh the things i bought all start with S. haa. ok bo liao)

friday nite was a disaster with the pouring rain. hais. i dont want....

and one week passed with no news abt my IA. ROAR~!!
=(

sat trng was not too bad, better than staying at home. i realised it is olways better to be occupied. too much free time, the mind gets crasy.at trng quite a few of them realised i'm not right. haha thanks for the concern! =)

i think i have been living quite an inbalance life for quite some time already. and when the used to be focus is removed, everything went out of place. it sort of topple and is all over the place.
DISEQUILIBRIUM!
its okie. human learn to adapt pretty well. yup soon they will find the place they belong and i can move on!
so the break now that i'm having is actually not a bad thing! i'm having an extended holiday, without june race, meaning not trng every other day.

*convincing myself...

dont worry, i'm not losing it!! i wont.
just a little more time and some sorting, she will be back.

new on my list.

-------------All American Rejects - It ends tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

coming true!

tv shows are becoming real!

the indonesia Adam air crash and nothing can be found!!

LOST!

healthy people these days dying of heart attack!!

DEATH NOTE!

haha

hullo everyone!

okie happy belated new year.

mine is not starting on a good note. my ia company withdrew, okay in other words, they dont want me. roar. was kinda sad but theres nothing much i can do thou.. SO, wherever it takes me man! probably be starting a week later, and ending a week later lor. no big deal i guess.. i get to relax now. not too bad you know. stayed at home the whole day! i like staying at home alone when i've been running around too much for the past month. slooooow doooooown.. thats wat i'm pretty good at. haa. do laundry.. listen to my jay chou's cd.. read the papers.. read a book. bumming around at home is good, mum and dad will be happier with me. heh.

and still suffering from marathon aftermath. at first was sprained and strained ankle, now i have bad knees. eh i think a few of us got inflamed knees too. the muscle on the other side of the knee feels like its bruised. hmm seen a sports doc regarding my ankle and actually our bodies can heal by itself provided we rest enough. he's quite funny, he asked me to tell him abt my systematic and gradual and planned and detailed training prior to my marathon. i said, nil. heh den he said, very good.. pls tell all your friends how u trained and give them my namecard.

okie next time, gotta train up for a marathon! den again, i doubt i'll do it again. heh once in a lifetime thing. but completing it really feels quite good. kinda make u feel u can run any distance..

hope the bad knees and shoulder get well soon.

oh yah! my thoughts after i step down. hmm i'll write it next time. gotta go to bed.

tmr will be cooking lunch with (for?) jiaqi. heh gotta get the ingredients in the morning.

why so easily weaver..

by others.

emotion ran out of my hand.

sometimes its drowning me.

i wish i wish to.

apprehend.

i thought i can choose.

guess what i wanna say.

guessssss.GUESS!

nope, not going to complain abt exams.
i did that every sem.
complain till i'm sick of complaining.
shall live life as exams times and get over it!
not feeling stress thou.
i guess i'll after my first paper.
oh well, i said i'm not going to talk abt exams!

eehhh my race over the weekend.
dint do well.
its okie, we din train for it, we are not aiming this time,exam period mah, its okie we'll try again.
-------CRAPs--------
we suck.
really. that wat i feel.
we cant live in our comfort zone for too long man.
take a look around.
we better catch up.
we better hope we can catch up.
we better TRAIN HARD TO catch up.

it's a cycle.
or not.
it's in our hands.
we are still in the game.

just one thing.
dont forget the moment we crossed the last buoy.
the silence in the boat.

all the pain is to make us remember to come back stronger.
dont forget you said this to me too.

cravingssss

sakae sushi buffet
pizzzza
roti prata


yummy...

anyway i've been living on chocolates.
damn.

mummy daddy and bro
holidaying in genting
sister and i
stuck at homeeee

they olmost missed their coach this morning. haha

okie studying sunday.

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seems to feel it slipping thru my fingers.
guess i've neglected it.
but i'm coming back!

suddenly like sudoku.
maybe doing anything is olways better than mugging non stop.
:\

something interesting

do you know our bones need a certain amount of stress to grow?
need to be pressured and stretched and strained!

Hence,
stress make us grow.
because its in our bones!

lalala
i see it coming!

noooooooooo timmmmmmmmmeeeeeeee
dammmmmmmnnn.

goodnites

retarded or wat.

sometimes just so stoney.

missed the moment

that i should live in.

got stuck.

i think i gotta work on it.

unspoken

sometimes bcos unsure.

sometimes it takes some courage.

gotta bear the consequences of wat said.

oh well, silence speaks a melody of its own too.

hmm.. yet to listen..

watever it is.

to balance is the key.

its really is..

everything.

so let's see.

this haven happen for a long time!

haven throw my face out in the public for quite some time, but heres one.

was out with jiaqi on sat, den we were walking ard after our carls junior. still holding on the the lemon tea we had (cos it was free flow.. eh jiaqi's idea. ha) den we went into a CD shop looking for sister act 2. was asking the counter if they have it.. den i din know danger was lurking behind me. (ha!) there was a step up behind and i dint know, and i wanted to take a step back. so wat do u think happen next???

i lost my balance and i sat down on the floor and while i landed on my butt... the lemon tea burst. lemon flew out, the straw flew out, the ice jumped, the tea splashed..... OVER ME! ROAR~ and jiaqi just stunned and stare.
luckily i dint pull the whole shelf of CDs with me, haha.

oh well den i quickly siam out of the shop lah.. one kind auntie gave me a piece of tissue thou~ hee

if i'm with the gers, i think they will all burst out laughing rite????!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway i was laughing at myself too~ lalala

and i got a big 'orr chean' on my calf.

but mummy rubbed for me. hee.

CAUGHT

UP!

eh how many days to exams ah??
damn damn damn!!!

got freaking lots of projects to do...
i dun want to be some useless ppl when doing group project..
but den sometimes i just dun have much time to spare for them.

aiyah.
wTH.
mei you ren hui ke lian wo de..
i just gotta run faster and get AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMNIT! BLOODY HELL!
i'm going to pick up speed.
dun talk to me!

did u forget to smell the flowers on the way?

sometimes we move too fast,
we missed out the beautiful little things along the way...
sometimes we can slow down,
and smell the flowers on the way,
take a moment to breathe in deep...

but pang...
i think you are practically smelling every flower on the way!!!
get moving man!
ROAR~

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there are some ppl who i really love.
some ppl who i seldom have time for.
they love me too.
thanks for loving me for who i am. =)

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am i missing out?
i'm was very sure i did not.
2 years later, i ask myself again...
the ans,
still no.
because i believe in fate.
if its meant to be, somewhere somehow
it will.

and so i din bother to take the step and stretch out my hand.
for i won't want whatever that we have started to end.
until the very day...

my sci-fi dream

these days my dreams are getting interesting and exciting! let me tell you abt this dream i had few days back.

it started in a car park and i'm with db gers on a bus squeezing thru the spiral stairs. we are going to take part in a games event. many team were there, from all over the world, this game is like a virtual badminton game. each team has many players and 1 hit can throw the ball far far away! okie den we are at registration level, its super crowded and the rooms are not v big and chaotic and quite run down. haa i'm in charge of the regi but i don seems to find the gers! roar! (ha no lah, i'm not angry in my dream) so i went ard looking for them. so a few of us went down a flight of stairs and we came to this level that totally different from the one upstairs. this floor is clean with marble floorings and its all white and gold. there's only a few ppl walking ard and seems like not everyone can enter. since nobody is there to stop us, we went in. but we were sneaking ard, and we found out a big secret. the organiser is actually a syndicate! they are looking for evolved beings. thru evolution, we are going back to animals. we higher survival skills. the ppl there all hold a torch, and once they shine it on you, ur shadow will reflect wat you are. and these ppl catching those ppl whose shadow show animals. and one of us is a dog!! and we start our escape! haha and the end.

i wake up liao.
of cos i dun feel rested!
but its quite a fun dream. ha

okie i wanna go sleep already.
see anymore weird deeaams....

WOOAH it has been a longggg time!

heLLOOOOOOOOooo

no lah i'm not dead yet. just v busy.
busy with the usual stuff and busy celebrating my birthday! hurhur.

birthday's GREAT!! seems to come faster huh.. i tot i was just 21. ohhh getting olddddd.
thanks for all the smses, its so nice to know that ppl actually remember.
thanks for spending time with me.
thanks for choosing/making a present for me. cos i know for that moment, i'm the only one that fill your thoughts! *grins*
thanks for all the treats!!
thanks for making me so happy! =)

birthday week over. back to hectic work.
my design project is super duper demanding can! to design a visualiser that can read document, play mp3, take pictures and it has to look like a normal pair of glasses that have lens which will switch to different functions at the touch of ur romote control watch with GPS and images will start to appear on ur transmissive LCD lens. FAINTS. my prof seems to be the one who's most excited abt this.

quiz coming up and i know nuts. ha ha ha.

tianjin no more. same old shit man... same old shit that make me sick...
YOU KNOW WAT!! hmm.. blah blah blah.
shall not eleborate here. was super duper mega ultra boiling.
aiyah wtf lah...forget it.
well wo kan kai le.
serious.
timing is not right lah, or not riped? (u know, in chinese..)
nvm, since we are stuck in spore, we shall make the best out of it.
its not a lost.
we have our own objectives.
it may just be a blessing in disguise.
you never know.

hah!
okie going back up to level 4 to study my microelectroniccssss.
booooo.

i'm not feeling well

i'm having a headache...

yah.

boo

okie sch starts and things start sinking in...

so many ppl gone

and i dun see familiar faces in the canteen anymore..

no more,' hey pang lunch?'

my usual hanging kakis are at japan, norway, chartered, Tech, EY, sec sch..

=(

c'mon c'mon!

oh yes.

i have enough reasons to keep on going.

for u have faith in me

for u have trust in me

i will hate to let u down.

sch starts NOW!

sem break for 3 months
going back to sch now
i'm year 3 already.
thats really fast...

yah really fast..
i'm year 3 now.
and sch starts tmr
it has been a long 3 months break.

in her mind:

dont just hear, listen.
dont just talk, speak.
dont just exist, live.

i have questions thats hard to answer.
i olways have things on my mind.
i'm fighting myself, sometimes.
where the foot steps get messy.
something went wrong, somewhere
somehow.
i try to figure out but den issit still impt now?

another life's lesson, to get thru.
i know.

and so
i prayed for wisdom, peace and strength...

what a nite under the stars and moon ytd

what a chatting nite today!

haha

great.

goodnite

trng tmr.

steamboat tmr.

redang!!

wat a beach.. i would want to go there again!

the beach is really beautiful... such a waste that we dint enjoy it more. and thats mo mo tea inn!

the sunset..

on the deck..
posing with the phone..
sunset..
enjoying the breezee.
aHh really a 'holiday' holiday...

some of the many many pics from mount k trip!

at senai airport.. 7am flight and i din sleep the nite after race can!!

at sapi island...

we snorkel and...

catch little fish..

nice..

at rose cabin. what a wonderful breakfasting place. filling our tummy before we make the climb.

from this point to summit 8.72km. Timpohon trail.. here we come!

all of us with our pass, ready to climb!!!

and we start climbing up.. step by step..

and upppp...

and still going up,,,

c'mon hut ahead!!!! shit is really the sweat bucket man! haha xx too.. dripping non stop!

HUT AHEAD!!! haha finally can rest awhile.

guess wat the 2 of them have ahead?!

haa all smiles when you see the longggg flight of steps up!~

its only 11.3 degrees and guess how many layers we are wearing!! haa

i cant stand the coldddddd. my nose turning reddddd and they hand me a heat pack! haha

we are so small... like little ants running ard on god's creation.

laban rata rest house. we have climbed 6km to this place. gonna rest till 2am when we chiong the summit!

the way up to the summit at 3am.

8.5km up jus to catch a glimpse of the sunrise. luckily we made it up there in time to catch the rising sun that only last for 5mins.

yea we are all conqueror of mount k! success!!

i hate descending! can we roll down instead??!!!

pictures of penang!

setting off to penang!!!
like again...
haa and so many ppl wearing specs!

with the breast cancer survivors

the lousy restaurant we ate at! cant fill my tummy lor~ gotta go for round 2!

haha we are dancing~

yea! we can never do it without these 2 men behind the ladies!

check out the back wash of all the boats

to race site. the familiar dam again when i last came in yr 1.

best partners i ever had.
the partners i have now.
they say i'm carrying a primary sch bag!
we love to bully ham! haa

fel pang ham and love is so far away now..

penang silver cookie

Oo the sunshine on me!

this picture brings back so much.. i miss them.. somebody is missing in the pic.. someone who has been a blessing to us.. we all know who he is~ ahH its just a photograph but theres so much in it.. u know wat i mean, when u feel for it..

some ppl are forever sweet.

ask me at 4am if i'm okie..

tell me dun be too blur, dun be too slow and stick close when i go climb mountain.

thanks for being close =)

i got lots to blog abt.

the race

the mount k

the redang

aHh coming soon...

i think.

torn

late in the nite

suddenly feeling this

we all knew it

but we dun speak of it

out right

dun like this shit

i think its obvious

we can all jus face it

pretence

bcos deep down we still feel?

or wat?

tinge of disappointment

its a pity

really is.

seriously, i dun feel it for me.

but i see it.

i knew long ago.

was in was out

cherish it when i have it

i told myself

be cool when its gone

cos it may not last.

still...

its a pity

-can it stand the test of time?-

time will tell.

anyway...

i will start afresh

WE will